I turn left onto Jess’s new street, and she directs me to a low-rise on our right. “Just park here,” she says. “This is my dorm.”
I give the building a quick appraisal. It’s made of red brick and looks bland as hell, but this area is safe and clean, so I approve. “I’ll walk you inside.” I move to flick the ignition.
“No, it’s okay.” She reaches for the door handle, then hesitates. With a sigh, she offers me a rueful look. “I’m sorry. That stuff I said about us not being friends. We are friends. You’re a good guy, Blake. Seriously. And now that I’m living in Toronto, I know we’ll probably end up seeing a lot of each other because of Wes and my brother. But it’s not going to lead to any sexy-times, okay? I meant it when I said I don’t have time for that. I…” She blows out a tired breath. “I need to focus. I really, really need to focus.”
Aw. I have a Stress Jess on my hands. That’s what’s really happening here. I’ve been accused of having a bulldozer approach, but even I know to not push a chick who’s so clearly on the ledge. I’ll have to de-stress her, obviously. Just not tonight.
“It’s fine,” I assure her. “You go ahead and focus on what you need to focus on.”
She eyes me suspiciously. “Really?”
“Uh-huh. Focus away.”
Her hand moves to the door handle again.
“Oh, one other thing,” I say before she can go. “A minor thing, really, but we gotta be on the same page, right? I mean, I like hearing someone tell me when I’m wrong. Constructive criticism, you know?”
“What the heck are you talking about? Who’s wrong about what?”
“You, about, well, everything.” I grin at her. “We’re way more than friends, Jessie.”
“Blake—” She sounds exasperated.
“But no worries,” I finish breezily. “I’ll just sit tight until you figure that out.”
11 Cheezus
Blake
She hasn’t figured it out yet.
I was hoping it wouldn’t take long for Jess to acknowledge to herself how hot she is for me. A day, maybe day and a half, seems to be the right amount of time for such an easy thing to figure out. But it’s been four days since I dropped her off, and she hasn’t called or texted.
I told her I’d sit tight, so that’s what I’m doing. I’d way rather be naked with her at the moment, but you can’t win every game in the third period, right? Sometimes it goes to overtime. Jess and I are in overtime right now, skating around each other until one of us scores. Except in this case, we both score, which…I guess ends in another tie and another OT period?
Fuck. My thoughts are getting away from me and I don’t like it. I try not to think Deep Thoughts if I can help it.
The lake outside my apartment window looks a little purple in the sunset. The lights of Toronto shimmer above the waterline. It’s a Tuesday evening, there’s no game tonight, and I’m hanging around the ol’ apartment, considering my options. My place is awesome, but it’s a little too quiet at the moment.
There are probably a few of my teammates drinking down at Sticks & Stones, our favorite bar. I could head over there for a couple of beers. That’s always a good time. In fact…
I dig out my phone to check for messages. The guys usually let me know where they’re drinking on our nights off.
My shoulders tense when I see the screen. Someone has left me a message, all right. But it’s not the name I was hoping to see. Not by a long shot.
Fuck.
Carrying the phone over to my brand-new chair, I sit down and lever my feet into the air. Then I use the clicker to dial up a whole-body massage and press start. I lean back as the chair begins to do its thing, the rollers kneading my lower back and calves first.
Only when the relaxing powers of the world’s best chair have kicked in do I dare press play on the voicemail message.
“Hi Blake,” a soft, familiar voice says into my ear. “It’s Molly.”
Pity. There goes the possibility that she’d butt-dialed me by accident. I brace myself.
“I was hoping we could go out for coffee,” she says timidly.
“No can do!” I announce to nobody in particular.
“We need to catch up, okay? I convinced my firm to relocate me to Toronto for good.”
“Nooooo!” I yell.
“So we’re going to see each other from time to time. I’ll be at your sister’s shower next weekend. Let’s not be awkward, okay? I want to see you and hear what’s new. It would be good for us to be friends again.”
That’s it. That’s all I can take. I hit delete on the voicemail and drop my phone on the rug.
The chair does its level best, rolling its tireless mechanical hands over my back and then down past my ass. But no massage chair in the world could overpower the bad news I just received.
I’m good at staying upbeat. The team psychologist loves me, because I can always put the last game behind me and focus on the next challenge coming down the road. But when there are toxic people in your life, it’s trickier.
I need some non-toxic people. Quick!