“We should water them,” he said, reining in Thunder and dismounting with the ease of a lifelong horseman.
She reined in Heath, who nickered in protest, and grinned down at Cain who reached up for her. His hands lingered for an extra moment on her hips as she slid down the front of his body. Leaning her head back, she stared up at him, daring him to pull her closer, to kiss her, to admit that this whole friends thing was bullshit on fire. But he clenched his jaw, cleared his throat, and dropped his hands.
“Thanks,” she murmured, her voice husky in her ears as he stared down at her, his eyes flinty and dark.
Taking Heath’s reins with a grunt, he turned away from her, leading the horses to the river’s edge and leaving her to follow. She leaned down to pick up a flat stone and skipped it across the slow-moving water.
“Not bad,” said Cain.
“You were always the best.”
“Nah,” he said. “Woodman was better.”
“Nope,” she countered, picking up another stone. “Woodman was good, but you were better. Remember that Fourth of July when you skipped eleven times? Eleven times. It was a record.”
Satisfied that the horses were calm and drinking their fill, Cain leaned down and grabbed a rock of his own, skipping it over the dark water.
One, two, three, four, five, six, seven . . .
“Wow!” she said, clapping lightly. “You’ve still got the touch!”
He turned to her, grinning. “You always get excited about the littlest things. What’s it like gettin’ a kick out of everythin’, Gin?”
“What’s it like gettin’ a kick out of nothin’, Cain?” she asked, her voice full of sass.
“I’m gettin’ a kick out of you right now, princess.”
A charge zapped between them as the words left his mouth, and her breath hitched and held for just a moment, but she looked down and picked up another rock. She was enjoying today too much to go back to Awkwardland.
She skipped her rock, which sank after three measly hops.
“Remember when you saved my American Girl doll from certain doom in this river?” she asked him.
He screwed up his face. “Wasn’t me. Must have been Woodman.”
“It was you!” she insisted. “Not Woodman!”
“Savin’ a dolly? Please. That has Woodman written all over it. I couldn’t have cared less if it drowned.”
“But I cared,” she said softly. “Which is why you saved it.”
“Fine. Have it your way,” he said, sitting down on a large rock near the water’s edge.
She sighed, squatting down to wash her hands in the clear water before looking back at him. “Why do you do that?”
“Do what?”
“Let Woodman take credit for all the good things?”
He shrugged, looking away from her, out at the water. “I don’t.”
“You just did. Twice.”
He sighed, giving her a long-suffering look. “If somethin’ good happened, chances are it was Woodman’s doin’.”
“How do you figure?”
“He’s the better man, Gin,” said Cain, his eyes severe, his words deliberate.
She stood up slowly, turning her body completely to face him. “Do you really believe that?”
He looked away. “It’s the truth.”
“Cain. Cain, look at me.” Her words didn’t feel like enough so she beseeched him with her eyes too. “You’re just as good a man as he is.”
“Ha!” scoffed Cain, standing up. “Not in this life, princess.”
Ginger had been witness to the differences between the cousins her whole life. Woodman came from happy parents and wealth, and his life had followed a natural course toward popularity and success, while Cain had come from unhappy parents and just-enough, and his life had followed a natural course toward rebellion and apathy. Except that Cain had somehow figured out a life for himself and pursued it, and from all outward appearances, his time in the military was a good and solid choice that was making him a better man. She couldn’t bear it that he should be so hard on himself.
“You’re wrong,” she said. “Y’all are very different, you and Woodman, but I . . . I wish you could see yourself through my eyes.”
He looked up at her then, and the tenderness, the gratitude, in his eyes made a lump rise in her throat, and it occurred to her, for the first time, that while her parents were telling her how much they loved her and Woodman’s parents were telling him how much they loved him, no one was telling Cain he was loved. Klaus was too busy at McHuid’s to be bothered with his small son, and Sarah had been a deeply unhappy, distracted mother. She thought back to nine-year-old Cain, hanging out by the barn during parties he wasn’t invited to, hoping his friends might slip away with a piece of cake. Just an unwanted little boy looking in, finding his worth in everything left unsaid.
“Lionhearted l’il gal,” he said softly.
Tears filled her eyes, but she smiled tenderly at him. “You skipped the most stones. You saved my doll. You are good, Cain.”