I sang a few songs with the band, swapped numbers with Ben, and finally decided to join my people again. Jemmy and Rachel kept giving me drinks, and the natural high of performing again had me oblivious to the crush of bodies that was surrounding me. I looked up at the catwalk and noticed that two other girls that were on other Knights teams had joined Remy.
I decided I had enough. I marched my way over to the steps. I had enough of his crap! As I got to the steps he turned around and looked at me, with hooded eyes.
“Leave,” I told the girls.
“Blake.” One of the older girls, dressed as a ‘sexy’ nurse, had the audacity to speak to me in a slightly condescending tone. “What’s wrong, sweetie? We’re just up here keeping Remy company.”
“Which one of these girls are you hooking up with?” I demanded of him, looking over the other older girls. One was dressed as a devil, one a witch, and ironically, the last was another Wonder Woman.
Devil girl grabbed me by the arm. “Blake, you’ve been drinking. You’re young. You can’t possibly understand what it takes to keep a man like Remy…satisfied.” She smiled suggestively to Remy.
“None of them,” Remy finally said. “I’m not sleeping or hooking up with any of them.”
“Not anymore.” The witch pouted.
“Leave,” I turned to all four of them, my fist clenched. “I’m not sure if you are aware of this or not, but I am his connection and you…girls…” I curled up my lip in distaste. “…are no longer needed.”
“But, you can’t poss—" Wonder Woman began.
“I said leave,” I said between clenched teeth. I didn’t know if I had compelled them, or if they just saw the fury I was about to unleash if they didn’t leave.
When I ensured they left, I grabbed Remy’s hand and dragged him into his office, slamming the door behind us. “What the hell is your problem?” I asked him in anger. Those girls knew how to crawl under my skin. They knew how to hit below the belt.
I didn’t know when or if I would ever feel like I was enough for my guys. I didn’t know if at one point in the future they would decide that they were tired of sharing or waiting on me and leave me. Jace and Jaxson’s mother had left not only Will, but them as well.
“Why did you leave last night without telling me? Why have you shut us all out today, but you’re okay with hanging out with all your exes? I refuse to compete with them. I won’t compete with them. Either shit or get off the pot,” I yelled at him.
He looked at me with a raised eyebrow, crossing his arms across his broad chest. “You shouldn’t let those girls get to you. They never meant anything to me. I work with them. They were a means to an end. They knew where they stood.”
“Yet instead of spending any time with me tonight, you spent all night up here with them,” I accused him with narrowed eyes.
“Blake.” He sighed. An enigmatic look crossed his eyes. “You can’t take it personally. When I get to a certain…place, I need to get away and just be, so I don’t hurt anyone. You especially.”
I could feel the tears enter my eyes. I angrily wiped them away. “You hurt me last night, you hurt me this morning, you hurt me in the past. You would disappear for days at a time, and I didn’t know who you were hooking up with then. It made me feel worthless, like I wasn’t good enough to satisfy you.”
He growled deep in his throat, before he advanced towards me. His height and size should have frightened me, but they didn’t. He picked me up and slammed me against the wall. “There were never any other girls when I left, now or then,” he said roughly. “I just didn’t trust myself not to physically hurt you. In the past, I used girls to get rid of my anger and excess energies from my gift. I don’t know if you noticed or not, but I’m not a small guy and you’re tiny, I could tear you apart in that state of mind.”
“Then why did the guys hint at the string of girls in and out of your bed?” I glared at him as I wrapped my legs around his waist.
“Because that was my life before you,” he said between clenched teeth. “I knew the girls that liked it rough, that liked me pounding in them, that could take me, all of me. I swear to you that there has been no other girl since I’ve met you. Now or then.”
A little of my anger was fading as I saw the sincerity in his eyes. “Then how are you…coping?” I was mortified to realize his words had turned me on. That the thought of him being rough with me, could make me want him.
“With a lot of cold showers and lotion,” he muttered in a peeved voice. “Now run along. You shouldn’t be around me right now. Especially after watching you move those hips on the dance floor, wearing that costume, and singing your soul out on stage, mesmerizing people with your siren’s song. I’ll be home in the morning,” he said in a slightly defeated voice.
“No.” I felt my anger rising once more when he went to put me down. I wrapped my legs tighter around him now. “I’m not going to let you continually push me. I know you have demons. We all do, but I’m not letting you run from them anymore. If you need to get lost in anyone, you should be getting lost with me.”
He ground his hips against me, so I could feel his large arousal. “Blake,” he tried to say in a calm voice. “You have no clue what you’re asking. You are young and tiny. I’ll break you.”
“Then break me,” I muttered as I grabbed his manhood in my hand.
He growled once more. “Knock it off, Blake. I don’t want hurt you.”
“You won’t hurt me,” I said as I reached up to take his mouth with mine, cupping his jaw with one hand and stroking his manhood with the other.
“Blake,” he snarled. “Remember, you asked for this.” I could see the slightly wild look in his eyes, but his inner beast still didn’t scare me. I could feel him fumbling with his pants with one hand as he cupped my rear with the other.
I heard the tearing of my spanks before he was there. I almost cried out in pain as he drove into me. He sucked in a deep breath as if cold water was doused on him.
“Shit, Blake, I’m sorry, dammit,” he muttered as he stilled.
I don’t know how long he stood there, but finally I felt the pain recede and I moved my hips against him.
“We should stop,” he quietly said and tried to pull away from me once more, tried to lift me off him.
“No,” I begged him as I slowly sank down on him further. My eyes widened when I realized he hadn’t even entered me all the way. “Be with me,” I begged him.
He kissed my lips with a pent-up passion he had never shown me. I could feel myself responding to him and my desire elevated. I rocked against him once more. Taking more of him. I waited for my body to adjust to him.
“Shit, Blake,” he hissed. “You’re so damn tight.”
“Be with me,” I repeated to him, when I knew he was completely in me.