‘Blade down, Tom Badgerlock. You’re among friends.’
Battle makes the world a small place, makes all life no bigger than the sweep of your sword’s length. It took me a time to come back to myself, and I was fortunate that they allotted me that time. I stared about, trying to make sense of what I saw, the archer and Laurel, and the folk who stood behind her, bows drawn. These were strangers, older folk than Laudwine’s band. Six men, two women. Most carried bows but a few had only staffs. Some of the arrows were pointed at Laudwine’s folk. They had dropped their swords and stood as much at bay as I was. Laudwine was on the floor, rolling in their midst, still clutching at his stump. Two steps and I could finish him at least. I drew a breath. Then I felt Dutiful’s hand on my upper arm. He pushed down firmly. ‘Blade down, Tom,’ he said evenly, and for a moment it was Verity’s calming voice in my ear. The strength went out of my arm and I let the tip of my weapon drop to the floor. Each panting breath I took was a flow of torment down my parched throat.
‘Drop it!’ the archer repeated. He stepped closer, and I heard the small sounds of a bow drawn tauter. I felt my heart begin to race again. I calculated the distance I’d have to cover.
‘Hold!’ Lord Golden interceded suddenly. ‘Give him a moment to come to himself. Battle-fury takes him and his mind is not his own.’ He came, pushing his way to the front of the massed archers and then stepped out between them and me with a fine disregard for the arrows that now pointed at his back. He did not even glance at the Piebalds who grudgingly parted to let him through. ‘Easy, Tom.’ He addressed me as if calming a horse. ‘It’s done now. It’s all done.’
He stepped forwards and set his hand on my arm, and I heard a murmur run through the crowd as if he had done something amazingly brave. At his touch, the sword fell from my grasp. Beside me, Dutiful dropped suddenly to his knees. I looked down at him. There was blood on his hand and shirtfront, but it did not seem to be his. He dropped my knife now and gathered the limp cat from the floor into his arms. He held it to his breast as if it were a child and rocked back and forth, keening. ‘My cat, my friend.’
A look of terrible concern washed over Lord Golden’s face. ‘My prince,’ he began worriedly. He stooped to touch the lad, but I caught him and turned him aside.
‘Leave him alone,’ I suggested quietly. ‘Give him his time to mourn.’
Then, tottering stiffly through the crowd came my wolf. When he reached my side, it was my turn to sink down beside him.
After that, little enough attention was paid to Tom Badgerlock and his wolf. They left us where we huddled as they moved Laudwine’s followers away from the Prince. That suited us both, for it gave us time to be together, and freed me to observe all around us. What we mostly watched was the Prince. The archer, one Deerkin by name, had brought an old healer with him. She set aside the bow she had carried and came to the Prince’s side. She made no effort to touch him, but only sat beside him and watched him as he mourned. Nighteyes and I kept vigil on the other side of him. She looked at me once. When our eyes met, her gaze was old and tired and sick with sadness. I fear mine was the same.
The bodies of the Piebalds I had killed were dragged outside, and slung over their horses. Too late I heard the clatter of departing hooves and realized that the Piebalds had been allowed to flee. I set my teeth. I could not have stopped it from happening. Laudwine had gone last, no longer their leader, swaying in the saddle atop his frothing warhorse and steadied by a young rider behind him. That had disturbed me most of all. Not only had I snatched the Prince from him, but I had slain the animal that held his sister’s soul, and maimed him as well. I needed no more enemies than I already had, but it had been beyond my control. He had gone free, and I hoped I would not live to regret that.
The healer let the Prince hold and mourn the cat until the sun touched the horizon. Then she looked past him to me. ‘Take the cat’s body from him,’ she said quietly.
It was not a task I wanted, but I did it.
It was hard to coax him to give up the cat’s cooling body. I chose my words with great care. This was not a time to let the Skill-command force him to do what he was not ready to do on his own. When finally he allowed me to lift the mistcat from his lap, I was astonished at how light the creature seemed. Usually, a dead animal, lax and lolling, seems to weigh more than a live one, but with the loss of its life, the pathetic condition of the little cat was revealed. ‘As if she were eaten through with worms,’ Nighteyes had said, and he was not far off the mark. The cat was a wasted little creature, her once-sleek fur gone dry and brittle, and bumps of bone defining her spine. At her death, her fleas were leaving her, far too many for a healthy animal. As the healer took the cat from me, I saw anger flicker over her face. She spoke softly. I do not know if Dutiful heard her words, but I did. ‘She did not even let it keep itself as a cat would. She possessed it too completely, and tried to be a woman in a cat’s fur.’
Peladine had imposed a human’s ways on the mistcat. She had denied her the long sleeps, the gorging to satiation, and the grooming sessions that were the natural right of a lithe little cat. Play and hunting had been denied her. It was the way of the Piebalds to use the Wit only for their own human ends. It sickened me.
The healer carried the cat’s body outside and the Prince and I followed with Nighteyes walking between us. A half-built cairn awaited the little corpse. All Deerkin’s people came outside to witness the interment. Their eyes were saddened, but they brimmed with respect.
Their healer spoke words, for Dutiful was too numbed with grief. ‘She goes on without you. She died for you, to free you both. Keep within you the cat-tracks she left on your soul. Let go with her the humanness that you shared with her. You are parted now.’