Everyone Brave Is Forgiven

Tom tipped the blackberries into a pan, stooped to retrieve the ones that had missed, and ran in a cupful of water. “Was there a note with Caesar?”


“An apology. Shop closing down, regrets etcetera, we herewith return all materials. I can’t imagine there’ll be much call for taxidermy until the war is over.”

“They should just call it off,” said Tom.

He set the pan to simmer, and turned to watch Alistair sewing up the cat’s belly. He was handy at it, putting in a row of small, neat stitches that would disappear when the fur was brushed over them. Tom had always admired Alistair’s hands, strong and unfairly capable. Alistair could mend their gramophone, play piano—do all of the things that made Tom feel like a Chubb key in a Yale lock—and he did them without seeming to worry, as if the hands contained their own grace. Alistair rather overshadowed him, though Tom supposed his friend didn’t notice. Blond and robust, Alistair had the stoic’s gift for shrugging off war and broken plumbing with the same easy smile, as if these things were to be expected. He was good-looking not by being ostentatiously handsome but rather by accepting the gaze affably, meeting the eye. It was Tom’s experience of Alistair that women sometimes had to look twice, but something drew the second look.

Alistair tapped out his pipe. “I shan’t be home tonight. I’m taking Lizzie Siddal to the countryside.”

“Oh? Which painting?”

“The ‘kiss me, I can’t swim’ one.”

“Ophelia?” Tom mimed the gaze and the pious hands.

“We’ve built a box for her, and we’re driving her to Wales in an unmarked truck.”

“I didn’t know there was such a thing as a marked truck, in this situation. Is there actually a fleet of government lorries labeled PRICELESS ART TREASURE?”

“Do leave it out,” said Alistair. “You take all the romance out of mundane logistical operations.”

“Anyway, if it’s so secret, should you even be telling me?”

“Why? You won’t tell Hitler, will you?”

“Not unless they give me back my secret radio transmitter.”

“It is all rather evil and sad,” said Alistair. “I spent five months restoring the frame on Ophelia—just the frame—and now we’re boxing her up and burying her in some old mine shaft for who knows how long.”

Tom poured the whole of their tea sugar from its Kilner jar into the pan, brown lumps included.

“I wouldn’t mind,” said Alistair, “only I hate to think of it down there in the dark. It makes one think: what if we lose the war?”

Tom stirred the sugar into the fruit. “There won’t be a real war.”

“What if all of us are swept away and no one remembers Ophelia, and she remains there for all eternity, in the dark, under a mountain?’

‘They’ll always have Caesar. They can reconstruct our aesthetics from that. Even if you have overstuffed him.”

Alistair eyed the cat critically. “Have I? No. The old man always had to be careful about his weight. This is him in one of his especially sleek periods.”

“It’s not an entirely terrible fist you’re making of it. You really might consider being a conservator or something of that ilk.”

“You should see the Tate now,” said Alistair. “The light is boarded out, the great gallery echoes, and the paintings are all dispersed.”

“Well, sign it and call it Modern. Anyway, damn you. I have a dinner date with an actual woman this evening. Marriage is a certainty and you should prepare a best man’s speech forthwith.”

Alistair lifted the half-stuffed cat to his ear and listened to what it whispered. “Caesar decrees that you tell all, without leaving anything out.”

“Well, she’s called Mary North and—”

“God in heaven, Tom Shaw, are you actually blushing?”

“It’s this jam. It’s the heat of the pan.”

Alistair stuffed paper into the cat’s hindquarters. “Caesar assumes she is beautiful, brighter than you, and unable to cook?”

“Caesar knows my type.”

“Then you’ll pardon me if I don’t wear down my quill with a wedding speech right at this minute. This one will end where all of your romances do, Tommy: with you gazing wistfully at the receding figure of a nice girl who has grown fond of you but has reluctantly concluded that you are neither wealthy nor gifted at dancing.”

Tom turned up the heat under the pan. “It’s different this time. I have already talked with Mary quite a bit. We have things in common.”

“Such as?”

“Such as our attitude to children, for example.”

“The two of you have discussed it already? I don’t believe I’ve even told you where babies come from.”

“Not having them, you fool. Educating them.”

“You haven’t been talking shop at her?”

“She came to talk to me, if you must know. I couldn’t get a word in.”

“And what was the gist?”

“That teaching has to change. That the teacher must be an ally of the pupil, and not just a disciplinarian.”

Alistair yawned. “Caesar proclaims that Mary gives him a headache.”

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