Every Wrong Reason

He paused midstride and smiled disarmingly at me. “That’s the goal.”


We parted ways and I headed off to my classroom. I noticed that it was easier to face the day after our pleasant exchange. My stomach didn’t feel quite so violent and my headache had receded to a muted jackhammer.

Either the Tylenol had kicked in or Eli had healing powers on top of his superhero-lunch-bringing skills.

I thought about Eli the entire time I set up for the day. His interest in me was so unexpected. Sure, there had been mild flirting over the last couple years, but it had been harmless. He was just a good-looking guy that liked to have fun and I had been a married woman that liked the attention.

But I had never been serious, and I had never thought he was serious either.

My morning was a blur of unruly students and lectures on grammar. When I reached third period, which was a mixture of juniors and seniors, I was thankful for a class that didn’t need to learn the basics of the English language. Even I knew my morning lectures were boring. I had been fighting yawns for hours.

Third period was my most challenging class of the day, but it turned out to be exactly what I needed. I finally woke up thanks to the livelier class and our discussion on the Scarlet Letter. It was one of my favorite books to read and to teach, because even if I couldn’t get my students to actually read it, they all loved to share their opinions on adultery.

I mean, who didn’t?

“These people are so stupid,” Jay Allen declared, punctuating his opinion by slamming his book down on his desk. “It’s just a baby. It’s not like she was a serial killer or ate people or anything.”

I tried not to smile. Ate people? Tried and failed. “But it’s a different time period, Jay. The culture back then took sex, marriage, children outside of marriage and all other sins very seriously. It was their way of life.”

“Well, it’s a stupid way of life,” he grumbled mutinously. “Leave the woman alone. She already had a kid to take care of by herself. She had enough problems. It’s not like she had food stamps.”

“That’s true,” I agreed, happy with the direction of his thoughts. “There was no system put in place to protect her from starvation or poverty.”

Jay continued, shaking his head at Hester’s tragic circumstances, “Being a single mom is hard anyway, but at least my moms has help. And nobody’s making her stand in the middle of the city so they can yell bullshit at her.”

Andre Gonzalez snickered from the other side of the classroom. “That’s because ain’t nobody wants to stare at yo’ mom for longer than they have to. Hester was a hottie.”

Jay half rose out of his seat to defend his mother’s honor. A nervous twitch pulled at my gut and I wondered if I was going to have to call for help.

“Shut your mouth, Gonzalez,” Jay hollered. “Talk about my mom like that again and we’re going to have words.”

“Alright, enough,” I demanded with my most stern teacher voice. “Andre, if you talk about another student’s mother in my class again, I’ll send you to detention.” Jay smirked proudly until I turned to him and said, “And you, Mr. Allen, if you threaten another student again, you’ll find yourself in the same place.”

Silence reigned once again so I tried to refocus them. “How do you know Hester Prynne was a hottie, Andre?” I doubted he had read his assignment so it took me by surprise that he was making judgment calls on her.

He stared at me for a long minute before finally deciding to answer. “She got the pastor to do the nasty with her, didn’t she? That was like a… a… sin or whatever. He was probably a virgin and he knew he’d go to hell for it. It takes a certain kind of woman for a man to choose hell.”

I rocked back on my heels, amazed at his insight. Andre was just as bad as Jay most days, at least when he chose to come to class. Some days he was worse.

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