I take in his broad shoulders and crooked smile—?the very expression that has always devastated me. In the fifteen months he’s been gone, my foolish heart hasn’t forgotten a single stitch of Cohen. If not for evading Captain Omar, for this reason, I should say no.
It would be wise to protect my heart. To remember that Cohen left without a goodbye. But all I can think of is Papa saying, Bravery is a choice that is yours to make. Don’t let fear steal your will.
Something tells me this hunt won’t end well.
But since I am a brave fool: “Yes. I’ll go.”
Chapter
11
FOLLOWING COHEN, I STEP CAREFULLY AND softly as we sneak out of the room into a dark hallway.
“Stop lurking, Britt. They’re already gone.”
I scowl and straighten. Cohen’s genius plan entailed hiding directly under the guards’ noses. Typical of him. “I wasn’t lurking. It’s exercising caution.”
“Roosters and hens. A fowl’s a fowl.”
“Something’s foul all right.”
He chuckles. “They left early this morning. I watched them mount and leave, headed straight for the border. You were too busy snoring to notice.”
“I was sleeping. I don’t snore.”
“Ha! Like a tavern rat, you do. Especially after a night of slugging ale.”
He’s baiting me, much like he used to, and it shoots a twinge of ache straight through my center. Those days are over, and though part of me might wish for us to be like we were, another dose of his rejection will destroy me, so I keep my mouth shut and follow him to the door.
My bow peeks from the top of the bag slung over Cohen’s shoulder. He insisted on packing our weapons together so we don’t have to do it later when we meet up with his horse, Siron. I reluctantly agreed with the exception of Papa’s dagger, which is in my boot.
“Something for the road.” Molly, the innkeeper’s widow, steps into the sitting room. A simple apron cinches over her dress, and a cloth-covered basket rests in her hand.
“Thanks, Molls.” Cohen hugs the woman.
I stand there, unsure what to do with my hands while I watch them say their goodbyes. I forgot how comfortable Cohen is around people. Or rather, I forgot how much others like him.
“Archers watch the stretch from the town to the border posts,” Molly cautions Cohen.
“We’re going to head south for the wooded hills to get some distance from the guards. We’ll cross there.”
I gape at his openness. He is always so quick to trust others, while I trust no one.
Worry is etched into her wide eyes. “The watchmen scour those woods for traitors.”
“Fewer watchmen are on the border now that they’re needed at the front. One man still stationed to the south is a friend. We’ll be fine. Siron will help navigate those woods, and Britt here is the best tracker in both countries.”
His comment fills me with pride. I glance up to see him watching me.
Molly wrings her hands on her apron. “You should at least change your clothes once you’re in Shaerdan so you fit in. They don’t take kindly to our people.”
Papa told me they could be a ruthless people. Shaerdan is ruled by a council of judges, led by a chief judge. Kinsmen are fiercely loyal to their local judge. If they see we’re from Malam, they may strike first before asking questions. My skin prickles at the thought.
“I’ve already planned to do so.” Cohen taps his pack, and then makes a joke about Shaerdan’s awful bright colors.
“Of course, my boy.” Molly pats his arm. “You’ll do just fine.”
It’s like she’s talking to her own kin. I shuffle away from them, closer to the door, where I’m not as much of an interloper, listening to their conversation.
Molly reaches for me before I can escape, as if she might fold me into a hug. The motion catches me off-guard and I stumble back, flushing a slight magenta all over.
By the gods, Cohen must be mortified by my strangeness. I know I am.
Forcing myself to Molly’s side, I give her arm a pat like the one she gave Cohen. I don’t want her to think I’m not grateful for her help.
We head south, away from the amassing war, away from the main road littered with guards and soldiers, away from Omar, Leif, and Tomas. As we slink through the wheat fields and grasses at a snail’s pace, our movement isn’t detectable. It takes hours to reach the hills and woods south of Fennit.
Cohen’s horse, Siron, waits for us where the woods grow thick and wild and dark. His black coat is perfectly camouflaged in the inky shadows, with only the flash of his yellow eyes to give his location away. Cohen said whenever he enters a town, he commands Siron to remain in the forest because the horse is too noticeable.
Siron drops his nose, pushing out a thin whinny as we approach. He never cared much for anyone besides Cohen.