“I’m sorry,” I repeat, my voice more confident this time. “I need to cancel my interview with Mr. Bolt.”
“He’ll be with you in just a moment—.”
“It’s not that. And please pass along that I was very thankful for the opportunity to meet with him.” I take a deep breath. “Unfortunately, today’s not going to work out.” I smile at her, and then turn to head for the door.
Just then, the door to an office located across the lobby opens behind me, and a man calls, “Ms. Reeves?”
“I’m sorry,” I say over my shoulder in passing, giving a wave. As I step into the waiting elevator and press the down button, I see the receptionist standing, saying something to the man who must be Mr. Bolt.
This is going to be my last life shake-up, but I’m not going to rush it.
I know exactly what I’m going to do.
Chapter 42
Alec
It’s been a week since Jessica left.
Seven interminable, agonizing days.
I didn’t realize how much having her here in Saintland meant to me—until she was gone. I don’t know how many times I’ve headed for the queen’s rooms without thinking, only to stop halfway there when I remember that no one is there. They’ve been cleared of everything…all the clothing I had sent there for her, the sheets and bedding, and even the paintings I hand-picked from the royal collection especially for her have been taken back to storage. There’s no longer a single trace that Jessica was ever here.
Every day, I wait for the gnawing pain from her absence to subside. But every day, the pain only gets stronger and stronger until it affects every part of me. My muscles ache, my head aches, my entire body hurts. I’m in agony.
For lack of anything better to do, I throw myself into my work as the crown prince, more determined than ever with a dogged insistence on doing everything my father suggests to the letter. I schedule more media appearances—the summer festival starts in two weeks, and we’ll be welcoming tourists from all over Europe.
I wish I could say that I cared about the goddamn festival.
I care about it in that it’s always a boost for the Saintlandian economy and without a doubt our nation’s biggest event of the year, for tourists and citizens alike. But mostly, I’m only putting so much energy into the minute details of my appearances, into the plans for Sainthall Palace, into other random aspects of it because I have to focus on something other than the fact that Jessica isn’t here.
I’m sure everyone notices my joyless participation, but I only realize how obvious it is during a meeting with my father at which he brings up something entirely unrelated to the summer festival.
We’re sitting in his council chamber, he with his papers, me with the portfolio of notes I’ve taken to carrying to every meeting. Scribbling down important points gives me something to keep my mind from wandering back to Jessica, Jessica, Jessica.
That’s who I’m thinking about when my father says, “I’ve scheduled a social outing for you with a woman named Mariana Moretti.”
“What kind of social outing?” I say hollowly while I scribble the name Mariana Moretti into my portfolio.
“Dinner and drinks,” he says, his voice cautious.
“The Diamond Circle, I assume?” I write that down, too.
“Yes.”
“When?”
“Next week. I had to rearrange one of your media appearances, but I assumed you wouldn’t mind.”
“Not at all. Did you have anything else on your agenda? Points of conversation that I should bring up with her?”
I finally look up from the portfolio when it occurs to me that my father has been silent for too long. He’s peering at me, his hands folded on the desk.
“Alexander.”
“What?”
“Are you going to tell me what’s going on with you?”
I shoot him a look. “I’m just meeting my obligations as crown prince. Is something wrong with what I’ve been doing?”
“No,” he says with the hint of a sigh as he slips off his reading glasses. “I’m a bit alarmed by your reaction to this conversation.”
I quickly glance back over the notes. “Why is that?”
“Alexander,” he speaks again, looking at me like I’ve just lied to him about sneaking out through the basement window and he knows the real truth. “You’re just going to blithely accept that I’ve scheduled a date for you? Not long ago, this same kind of discussion had you fleeing the country.”
I shrug one of my shoulders. “Things have changed since then.”
“And you’re completely satisfied with that?”
“Yes.”
He puts both hands on the surface of his desk and cocks his head. “Are you sure?”
“Of course.”
“If that’s the case, why are you walking around with a stone-cold face like you’ve had an overdose of Botox? Why is every word out of your mouth flat and sad unless you’re giving an interview in front of a news crew?”
I look away. I don’t want to admit my answer out loud.
“Does this have to do with Jessica?” he asks point-blank.