HE WOKE WITH THE FIRST LIGHT OF DAY, MOSQUITO-BITTEN AND barely able to stand straight from the few hours he had slept in the ridged bed of the truck. He walked around the campground, stretching his back and reaching toward the sky and twisting and trying to get himself right. The Volkswagen was gone and the old couple sat in the same chairs around the same circle of stones that they had been sitting around in the late hours of the night as if they had never moved. Russell waved to them and the elderly man raised his tin coffee cup in response. Maben and Annalee slept and he didn’t wake them. He lit a cigarette and walked around. The air seemed smoky in the earliest light and he came upon a springfed creek no wider than a doorway and he knelt and stuck his hand into the cold, trickling water. The honeysuckle climbed into a thatch of pines and he smelled its sweetness and it caused him to lick his lips with a morning thirst. He cupped his hands and took a drink.
So. What if it is her? So what?
That’s what he had been thinking all night. So what? I don’t owe her anything. I don’t owe Larry and Walt anything. I fucked up and I paid for it and that’s that. The only person I still owe is the dead boy and I’ll pay for that soon enough. It’ll come for me like it comes for everybody. And when it comes I’ll stand there and then I’ll be judged again and I’ll pay again if I still owe something. But I don’t owe nobody down here. Nobody.
It was easy to think of the brothers in that way. Not so much Maben and the child. There was something about her. The way she looked, like she’d been picked up and put down time and time again and like she held on to the girl and shot a man because she couldn’t take it anymore. At least that’s what she had said and he found himself believing the story. Hoped it was true so that he wouldn’t end up the dupe. But she had been shaky with the pistol, so shaky that he had been able to reach over and pick it from her hand like it was a straw. Didn’t hold it like someone who wanted to shoot. He thought he understood the way she felt and no I don’t owe her anything but goddamn it. She was right. They wouldn’t believe her. They would take the child. She would end up in the same type of place that he had just left. She was right.
He had told her he could help her but he was wrong. He didn’t see anything ahead that would be in her favor if that pistol was found. He didn’t see anything ahead that would be in her favor if someone didn’t hold out a hand to her and the child. He remembered himself in the first days and weeks of being put away, alone and scared and isolated and confused and waiting to be jumped on. He figured the look on his face was much like the look on her face now. By the time he stood up from the side of the creek and wiped his hands on his pants, he had resigned himself to the fact that he was going to play the fool and then he walked back toward the truck where he saw their heads in the window.
He tapped on the glass and opened the door. Each of them was sweaty on the side of the face that had been down. Annalee rubbed her eyes and said she had to go to the bathroom and she and Maben got out of the truck and walked into the woods. Russell sat down behind the wheel. The gas tank was close to full and would probably last until they could get back to McComb. All he had to do was get them rolling and if they wanted out they’d have to jump. He looked over at the man and woman and they had a fire going and the woman held a skillet. Russell walked over to them and said good morning and the old man tipped back the hat on his head. His neck was bumpy from a bad shave and he wore a long-sleeved shirt buttoned at the collar. The woman wore a sweatshirt and a hairnet held down her gray hair. She wore a work glove on the hand that held the skillet and she was cooking eggs over the fire.
“Smells good,” Russell said.
“I ain’t got no money,” the old man said.
“We ain’t got nothing,” the old woman said.
“I don’t want nothing you got.”
“My wife can shoot.”
“Shoot what?”
“Anything. She don’t miss.”
“If I wanted to do something to you don’t you think I would’ve come over here in the middle of the night?”
“I was watching,” the old woman said.
“So was I,” he said.
“All I want is some food. For that little girl over there. She’s gonna need something to eat before we start riding.”
“We ain’t got enough,” the woman snapped. A loaf of bread and a tub of butter sat on an aluminum table next to their truck. Russell looked over at it. A pan of some kind of meat sat next to it and a band of flies buzzed around the pan. Paper towels and paper plates and a quart of beer.
“How about a few slices of that bread?” Russell asked.
“We ain’t got enough,” she said again.