Mickey killed his own wife.
Michael and Erin must not have even been teenagers at the time. Michael never spoke of his mother, but her picture was everywhere in his house; he obviously loved her. Erin never spoke of her either, and as far as I knew she had only that one photo of a family of five in her house and none of only her mother. The older boy in the photo must have been the son Mickey was referring to who had been arrested.
The words sins of the father echoed through my head. And for the first time, Logan’s theory that Michael had killed my sister didn’t sound so insane. I couldn’t dismiss the thought.
Logan pushed to his feet. “Kill a man’s dog, he’ll kill your best friend; kill a man’s brother, he’ll kill your mother; take a man’s girl, and he’ll kill you,” he muttered.
“What?” I asked.
“Something my gramps told me once.”
Frank nodded. “Old unwritten code of conduct, but in Mickey’s case he killed his own girl.”
“He must have blamed Patrick,” Declan commented.
“I’m sure he did, but he was so much weaker than Paddy, there was nothing he could do about it. He didn’t have any power. His own gang had already collapsed years before when he went after another gang’s leader for flirting with Rose, and both gangs tore each other apart. He was just a florist by then. He really was powerless.”
“I heard about that. Do you think Killian knew how Rose died?” Logan asked in a tone that was steely and sharp.
Frank slowly shook his head. “No one knew but the three of us. They both disappeared right after and I called the BPD. I claimed a guy wearing a ski mask came in, shot her, and then ran. They never questioned me. Gang violence was everywhere.”
“You never told anyone else?” Miles asked.
“No! My life and my daughter’s were on line. I knew to keep my mouth shut.”
“You don’t think Mickey could be pulling Patrick’s strings somehow?”
“I don’t see it,” Frank said.
“So why would Patrick kill his own son?”
“I don’t have a fucking clue,” Frank answered.
“Like you said, a life for a life,” Miles said to Logan.
Miles had grown up in Southie and still lived there. He was a beat cop before he went to work for the Gang Unit; he knew the way the streets worked here in Boston in a way I never would. But then again, so did Logan.
“That has to go much deeper than any of us could even have imagined,” Logan said.
His words were spoken in an eerie context. One that made my pulse thunder through me and my heartbeat become so erratic, I thought my heart might pop out of my chest. I was clenching my palms so tightly that the indentations from my short nails were sure to draw blood.
My mind was spinning.
Would this information impact Clementine?
I started to feel like there was a black cloud over me that was never going to clear.
Uncertainty made me wary.
Worry controlled me.
Fear owned me.
If knowledge was dangerous, this was deadly information.
LOGAN
The back door to Molly’s had served well as my escape route over the past four months, but today I needed it more than ever.
My lungs felt like they were filled with rocks and I couldn’t breathe. I pushed the door open with a force that made it bang against the brick wall.
Out in the cool night, air seeped into my lungs and I took two controlled breaths.
In.
Out.
I arranged my thoughts in my mind. A distant memory was nagging at me. One I’d been trying to place since Frank first mentioned Mickey O’Shea’s wife.
Darkness was everywhere.
The night was so still, the water looked like a sheet of glass, the sky like a blank slate, and the wind was dialed down to a mere warm breeze.
The perfect summer night for chillin’.
I kicked my feet up and stretched my arms behind my head, letting my body rest comfortably on the canvas cushion beneath me. Relaxed in this way, I was in prime position for the swaying motion of the boat to lull me to sleep.
I was wiped out. My grandfather and I had spent the day moving fast through the open water and finding the best spot to fish. Now, we were cruising on the sea of glass, doing nothing, and I could tell my grandfather wasn’t ready to head back in yet. I didn’t care; I had nothing better to do, and the truth was, I liked being out on the open water. It made me feel like my world wasn’t crashing in all around me. Whether it was hormones kicking in or the simple fact that my parents didn’t get along, and their constant arguing was making all of our lives miserable, I didn’t know, and really, I didn’t care. Life just sucked.