Crown Jewels (Off-Limits Romance #1)

She runs her hand down my chest and looks into my eyes. “I shouldn’t be this way with you. I said I wouldn’t be,” she tells me in a husky voice. “So why am I?”

I bring her hand up to my mouth and kiss her fingers. “I don’t know, Lucy. Why are you?”

“I like you…I think.” She looks thoughtful. So thoughtful and cautious, her face makes me want to make her smile. I reach out, thumping her little nose. “You only think?”

Her cheeks redden, and it’s the cutest fucking thing I’ve ever seen. I stroke her cheek. “Then let me see if I can make you know.”

I take her mouth again, wrapping my arms around her back while I kick, propelling us both toward the dock.





TWENTY-THREE Lucy





This is not good.

So not good.

Not good at all.

That’s all I can think as Liam and I walk hand in hand back toward the tree-houses. His bicep brushes my shoulder as we move.

I’m wearing his shirt, and Liam is wearing his pants. My clothes are slung over his right shoulder, dripping down his chest and back. I had my underwear on, but they were wet and cold, and Liam convinced me to shed them. His shirt is so long, it covers everything, and anyway, he promises there’s no one on this island right now but the two of us.

When we first set off from the dock, he noticed me acting shy—I guess that’s how I was acting—and instead of teasing me about my modesty, he looked into my eyes and kissed me lightly on the lips, and since then, I swear he’s been a little softer: the way his big hand curves around my own, the way his gaze searches my face every so often, checking on me—or so it feels.

When we got back on the dock, he spread me on my back and put his face between my legs. And I let him. I let him pleasure me…because I’m weak. Because his eyes, when they moved up my body to my face, were hot and earnest and they seemed to care. He really seems to care, and it just gets me.

All I want in life right now is to keep on walking through these woods with him, to catch his eyes on me, to know someone is watching me and cares how I am doing. Not a friend. A man. Because I’ve never felt this way before. I’ve never been with any man who made me feel so cared for.

That it’s Liam… I’m still stunned.

I feel nauseated as we near the tree-houses, and I can tell he notices, because he stops, presses his lips atop my hair, then scoops me up and carries me.

The whole way back, we hardly even speak, and yet it feels…familiar. Comfortable.

I can’t hold back my nausea anymore, and don’t have time to crack open a ginger ale, so I get sick before I take a quick shower. Thank God he doesn’t know. He’s showering too, on the other end of the tree-house.

I look at myself in the mirror—still-flat stomach, haunted eyes—then step into the shower and I lean against the wall.

What do you think you’re doing, Lucy? Do you think he’d feel the same way as he does right now if he knew? If he knew you knew, and that you hadn’t told him?

I move into the corner, wrapping my arms around myself as steam wafts up around me.

You’re just like all the other idiots. You want the fairy tale. But you’ve done it backwards.

This is how you know that you’re hormonal, and a basket case. You make yourself cry with your own harsh words—mostly because they happen to be true.

I pull on a dress and a sweater, and I tell myself I have to tell him. Dinner. Tell him at dinner, and quit being such a liar, Lucy.

I rub lotion on my arms and legs and tell myself, He doesn’t really like you. This is just normal for him. He probably does this kind of thing with women all the time.

The worst thing is, I don’t believe myself. I know he rarely comes here; he said so. The way I feel when he looks at me… I squeeze my eyes shut, finding it impossible to actually believe that he’s like this with everyone.

He told you about the apps. He said that no one knows.

So what, I ask myself. He trusts you? You’re trustworthy. Not a gold-digger. That doesn’t mean he’s going nuts over you, the way you are over him.

Tears well in my eyes, postponing any makeup I might want to put on. I dab at them and eat a ginger snap and allow the evil little voice inside my head to tell me that he wouldn’t want me if he knew. You’re not a prize. You’re the baby mama.

For some reason, I see Bryce in my mind’s eye. I remember something from the emails that flowed between our family’s lawyers for months before the settlement.

My client maintains he didn’t rape Miss Rhodes. He had already moved on and was actively engaged with other women.

And how weird I am—and how pathetic—that that made me feel so awful. Almost worse than I felt knowing I was raped.

I was with Bryce for years, and he cared for me so little. I got used and hurt and thrown away. What makes me think I’m ever going to not be thrown away and cast aside?

In my whole life, no one’s ever really loved me, not romantically. The way some people idolized me and the magazines with my face on them: those things almost make it sting more. Lucy Rhodes from TRoC isn’t me. She’s just a figment. A projection. Nothing but a file under the Instagram hashtag LifeGoals.

My eyes dry, and I brush on some light eye shadow. My hair dries around my shoulders, loose and wavy. I text Am to let her know I’m still alive and doing fine.

I eat a few more ginger snaps and then I hear a soft knock on my bedroom door.

“Hey, you,” he says as I stand there in the doorway. His gaze travels down me, then back up. “You look amazing, Luce.”

His kind words, spoken softly in that low voice, make me want to wrap my arms around myself and run and hide. Since that’s not an option, I fake a smile. Fake it till you make it: isn’t that what everybody says?

Liam’s arm comes around my shoulders, and he pulls me close to him. “You doing okay?”

I nod, letting my eyes drift over his bulky shoulders, clad in a long-sleeved plaid button-up, then down to his beat-up khaki shorts. He smells good. The scent of him fills my head as his big, hard body brushes mine, as we walk into the living area and kitchen.

I smell… “Mmmm. Is that steak?”

“Kabobs,” he says, looking down at me as we stop at the mouth of the living area. “I didn’t cook them. I just warmed them up.” He winks.

I can see the curiosity flit across his face as he looks down at me. I never answered his question—and he notices. Damn him. I can see the moment that he tells himself to drop it.

He unravels his arm from around me, takes my hand, and leads me out a slider door I’ve never even noticed, leading me onto a cozy deck among the tree limbs, thirty or forty feet above the ground.

And there I find a table set, complete with a candle and cloth napkins.

“Damn.” I give Prince Liam a big smile as I assess the spread. “Sweet potatoes, bread and steak stuff. Steak kabobs,” I correct my tired brain. “This is pretty damn impressive, I don’t care who cooked it.”