I’d be lost if I found out he’d cheated on me with his wife on the side…one I hadn’t realized he even had.
Wanting to change the subject, I asked, “How did the talk with Sam and James go?”
His mouth clenched and the strong muscles of his jaw started to work.
“Not good. They’re justifiably pissed,” he answered. “Don’t like that I’ve had men on them without their knowledge.”
I wondered if I should’ve said anything to that, but he sighed.
“I needed to tell them, it’s just hard to give my own kid more ammunition against me,” Silas finally admitted. “And I’m sorry that I took it out on you that I didn’t want to tell them. Getting mad at you was easier than telling them that Shovel is back in the picture.”
I blinked.
I never even thought that it was hard for him.
I just thought he didn’t think that his sons needed to know.
It’d never crossed my mind that he was scared to hear what his son would say.
“You want to dance?” I suddenly blurted.
He looked down at me. “In the sun?”
“There’s music,” I said defensively.
He laughed. “I’ll dance with you, honey. Just not here.”
I smiled. “Where then?”
His face got close to mine, so close that I could practically taste his lips on my own.
“When we get home. Promise.”
Home.
I liked the way he said that, almost as if he’d moved me in permanently.
“Sounds good,” I breathed, closing the distance until our mouths touched.
“Ewww,” a young kid squealed. “Papa’s kissing a girl!”
I looked over to see a blonde headed rug rat watching us with disgust on her face.
“Pru, darlin.’ It’s not very nice to scream,” Silas reprimanded his eldest granddaughter gently.
The girl grinned, and I couldn’t help but smile.
“Looks like you have your hand full with this one,” I teased.
He grinned. “Wait till you meet the rest of them.”
***
“Aren’t you the chick who killed those four people because you were drinking and driving?” Sam asked.
I sensed no condemnation in his tone, but it didn’t hurt any less.
He might as well have shoved a hot fire poker into my spinal column, because that was practically the effect he had on me.
“Yes,” I said softly. “I was the one who killed those four people.”
Sam blinked, surprised that I’d answered him truthfully, I guess.
“Hmm,” he said, not knowing what to say to that.
“Didn’t you go to prison for twelve years?” Shiloh asked.
I shook my head. “Eight.”
“Leave her alone,” Sebastian ordered, sitting down. “Dad’s going to be pissed if you hurt her.”
I smiled at Sebastian.
He was such a good guy.
“We were just asking her a few questions,” Shiloh defended herself.
Would it be rude to get up and leave?
Silas had asked me to wait at the table I was sitting at, yet I didn’t really want to be here right now.
“How are you allowed to be drinking? Shouldn’t you, you know, abstain?” Shiloh continued.
I closed my eyes.
Maybe I should be.
But then again, if I didn’t drink I wouldn’t be able to handle the two spoiled rotten children of Silas’ right then.
“I need to use the restroom,” I said softly.
I stood and walked carefully away from them, trying my hardest not to run.
I was surprised to find Silas on my way there, and instead of letting me go to the bathroom, he caught my hand and led me outside.
“Let’s go,” he urged.
I blinked. “You’re not going to say goodbye?”
“Why would I?” He asked. “It’s not like they’re going to miss me or anything.”
My heart ached for him.
“Let’s go home,” I confirmed, walking with him to his bike and ignoring my bladder’s reaction at not getting to use the facilities.
Once we got to his bike, he gestured to someone in the shadows, one of his men I guessed, and mounted the bike.
Offering me his hand, I mounted behind him and wrapped my hands around his waist as he started it up with a throaty roar.
My skin tingled as I felt the muscles in his stomach clench as he slowly started to accelerate forward.
I sighed in bliss as I closed my eyes and relished the alone time. My brain was a mess.
I looked over when another roar caught my attention, and smiled when I saw Sebastian and his wife, Baylee, directly beside us.
Well, not completely alone.
But I guess, at this moment in time, that having Sebastian next to us wasn’t that bad after all.
Silas could use the support.
And I’d be offering that until he didn’t want it anymore.
Because Silas needed a friend.
He needed someone to always have his back and have no other loyalties but to him and him alone.
That’s what a man like Silas needed in a woman.
Support.
Love.
Acceptance.
And lucky for him, I had all of that for him…and more.
Chapter 19
I miss you sex is always worth the wait.
- Truth
Sawyer
“What are you doing?” I asked aloud as I followed Silas.
His head wasn’t there today, and I was worried about him.