I squeeze my eyes closed and cover my mouth. God, I can’t believe I just said that.
Here I am, being selfish. I want him all to myself. He’s the fucking president. What do I think I’m doing?
He looks slapped.
Oh god.
I probably sound like his mother did when his father was busy, and I never want to sound like that.
How could I be so selfish and say that aloud? This man is giving his all to his country, his whole life.
“I didn’t know you felt like this,” he says. His voice is gruff and low.
I turn away, but he stops me, raising his voice. “Don’t pull away from me. Jesus!” He lifts my chin and turns me to meet his eyes, and his fingertip sears my skin. His touch sears my heart. “I’ll do better.”
“No, you’re already doing so much. I’m sorry I said that. I want us, now and in the future,” I admit.
Regret and frustration swim like dark shadows in his eyes. “You’re my future.”
I place my hand over the one holding my chin, my palm against his knuckles. “Let’s not fight.”
He clenches his jaw again. “You’re not alone. Ever. Do you hear me?” he says sternly. “You have me.”
I nod, and he places his hand on my stomach, drawing me with his other arm to his chest. His voice becomes gruffer and his eyes darker when he notices the scrape on my arm. “Has this been looked at?”
“Yes, it’s got ointment—I just didn’t want a Band-Aid. It’s fine.”
Matt just stares at me beneath drawn eyebrows.
“It’s fine,” I groan, pulling free.
He continues to stare, stroking his thumb down my face. “I’m going to get back to work, and you’re going to put a Band-Aid on that—and tonight I’m going to take you out for a walk and dinner somewhere.”
“It’s such a hassle to move the team of hundreds so you can take me out to dinner. We could have dinner here outside. Like a picnic.”
A glint of light touches his eyes. “You, worrying about everyone.” He shakes his head. “Worry about yourself and our child.” He pecks my lips. “It’s a date tonight. Wife.”
We end up having a picnic in the most secluded area of the gardens, under the trees. I had the chef make sandwiches for us, and vegetable chips—healthy leader, healthy lifestyle—and we then lie down and look at the stars, our bodies sort of naturally fitting together, our hands slowly roaming, our lips slowly finding each other’s.
“I want you to take it easy, Charlotte,” he says, nibbling on my lower lip.
I kiss him back. “I can’t take it easy. I’m starting the Kids for the Future campaign to inspire children to step outside the box and use their talents.”
He eases back, frowning, his eyes stern under drawn brows. “You control your schedule. Pace yourself.”
I don’t know how he does it. Even when it’s thick with arousal, he still manages to make his voice sound commanding.
“I’d hate to cancel.”
“I’ll cancel,” he says.
I laugh, loving how protective he is, especially now with me expecting. “By order of the president?” I tease.
And when he only stares at me with an unreadable and unrelenting expression, I simply kiss him, swooning when he firms the kiss and massages my tongue with his. Breathless, I slide my hands up his hard chest and feel his hand curving around my stomach, then around the small of my back, easing me to his lap.
My breath hitches as he guides my legs to straddle him and whispers, “Come here, beautiful.” I close my eyes, arching wantonly.
“Matt.” A plea.
“You want me, my love,” he says against my ear.
“So much.”
He moves his fingertips over the sides of my rib cage and into the front of my waistband. I inhale a shaky breath.
“Close your eyes,” he coaxes. “Let go of everything but this moment. Me. You. This.” He dips his fingers between my legs, where I’m wet and aching, and with his other hand, he draws me to him by the back of the head, kissing me senseless as he then swiftly unbuckles and unzips and lowers me down on him.
31
CHANGE OF PLANS
Charlotte
“Is he alone?”
“Yes, but . . .” Portia trails off as I walk in.
“I was ready to leave for my Kids for the Future campaign when Clarissa told me you gave her the order to pause until I looked at the schedule again,” I tell him.
He’s in the middle of picking up a call and says something unintelligible into the receiver.
Pressing my lips into a thin line, I spin around to leave.
“Stay,” he tells me as I cross the room for the door.
I inhale and turn around, staying in place, the presidential seal right beneath my feet.
His brow furrows as he listens on the phone.
Moving forward, I place my palms on his desk and lean forward. Scowling. I’ve been working on this event for weeks; I told him that yesterday. Does he not trust that I’ll be careful? He’s being so frustrating!