Cheater's Regret (Curious Liaisons #2)

“My gyno doesn’t look like Brad Pitt and James Franco’s love child!”


I laughed. “Wow, and it’s funny because I so often get told I look like Orlando Bloom with blond hair.”

She slumped in her chair. “I don’t feel comfortable with your nurse seeing my breasts.”

“So, she can’t see them, but the ex-boyfriend you hate can?”

“I don’t hate you.” It was the second time she’d admitted it in the last twenty-four hours. That had to mean something.

“But you don’t exactly like me, do you?” I just had to ask.

Austin was quiet and quickly averted her eyes to her hands on her lap. “So, did I fill out the chart right?”

“Yes, you’re very good at checking boxes. Well done.”

“Hah-hah, sarcasm.”

“You know you don’t actually have to fill in the boxes, right? A simple check mark will do.”

“When I get nervous, I color!” she snapped. “You know this. Lay off.”

“Well, it looks like in order to keep your design intact,” I said as I showed her the clipboard, “you had to gain a stroke and heart palpitations.”

“Hey, the heart palpitations can be real—I’m freaking out about passing this class, and I got bit by a spider last night!”

I glanced down at her swollen thumb. “Does it still hurt?”

“No. Ariel made it all better,” she said in a sarcastic tone.

The day was getting longer by the minute.

“Alright.” I scanned the rest of the sheet. “So basically, at this point I’d ask you if you have any blood-clot issues, since you also filled that in when you were trying to create a smiley face with the boxes.”

“Nope.”

I leaned back and let my training take control. “And why a breast augmentation? What’s your end goal here?”

She was silent.

I glanced up. “Austin?”

“I guess, for the only reason any woman wants plastic surgery. I want to be noticed?”

Funny how she wrongly assumed that only insecure women stepped into my office, when really it was only about 10 percent trophy wife–types and 90 percent women who’d had a mastectomy and wanted to feel feminine again, or women who birthed beautiful children and because of nursing, lost a part of themselves they wanted back. I bit my tongue and looked her up and down. Noticed?

“A guy would have to be dead not to notice you,” I said out loud.

Our eyes locked.

Shit.

I cleared my throat. “Alright, so you want to be noticed. Do you have any idea how large you’d like to go? For example, a high-profile implant is going to look fuller and give you the lift that a push-up bra would give you. A moderate implant may look more natural, depending on your body type, but . . .” Shit, I had to keep it professional, but I couldn’t help picturing her perfect pert breasts and the way they’d always filled my hands, overflowed across my thumbs, and . . . There I was clearing my throat again. “Having seen your body,” my voice rasped, “I wouldn’t suggest a moderate because it could add weight to your small frame.”

She stared at me like I’d just lost my mind and then asked in a small voice, “So, you would perform surgery on me?”

“That is what you’re here for, right?”

“No, I mean, for real,” she explained. “You would . . . make me better?”

“Damn it, Austin.” I placed the clipboard on the table and wanted to follow after it with my head. “Listen when I say, there is absolutely nothing I would change about your body, not now, not ever.”

And there we were again, eyes locked, bodies a mere foot away from each other.

All I had to do was lean in.

All she had to do was follow.

I reached out to touch her just as a knock sounded and our head nurse poked her head in. “Dr. Holloway, are you ready for me?”

“Yup.” I shot to my feet and pointed to the gown on the table. “You can keep your skirt on, but take your top off and try to drape this the way that Nancy instructs. I’ll be back in five minutes.”

I couldn’t leave that room fast enough.

I walked down the hall into my office and slammed the door behind me, taking a few soothing breaths as I leaned against my desk.

The fact that she would even question the way I had always felt about her body, considering the way I worshipped it with my mouth and hands, completely floored me.

It never once occurred to me that she would be insecure after our relationship ended. Of course, it made sense, I was in the business of fixing flaws, so it was my job to find them.

Only, whenever I was with Austin, the only flaw I saw—was me.





Chapter Thirteen


AUSTIN

Nancy was nice.

If you liked women who should be aging naturally, but instead looked like they had had their faces frozen one too many times and had their eyebrows nailed to the top of their head.

She was beautiful in a really harsh, she-could-either-be-eighty-or-forty way.

I wasn’t against plastic surgery—I was just more a fan of its looking natural—and nothing on Nancy looked natural.

When she left to let me change, I peeled off my shirt so fast, I nearly caught my head inside the neck hole—not because I was eager to get Thatch’s hands on me, but because I wanted this whole embarrassing situation to be over.

I was uncomfortable, and I knew Thatch. I’d had sex with him, he’d seen me naked, and my teeth were still chattering.

I made a mental note to include that in my post.

That no matter who it was.

You were still topless in a doctor’s office while bright fluorescent lights peered down on you, revealing every single flaw hidden in the dark.

A loud knock had me jumping out of my skin.

“I’m r-ready,” I said, trying to sound confident.

Thatch strolled in along with Nancy right behind him.

He washed his hands.

Wait, why was he washing his hands?

“I don’t want you to be cold,” he whispered so only I could hear. “And who knows where my hands have been.”

He was making a joke.

Trying to make me feel better.

But it only made me feel worse—because my body knew exactly where his hands had been not so long ago.

All over me.

“Alright,” Thatch said, snapping me out of my pathetic trip down sexual-fantasy lane where Thatch wore an eye patch and slapped my booty. “I’m going to jot down a ton of stuff that won’t make any sense to you, basically to see if one breast is bigger than the other, measure distance from the nipple to the breastbone, so just hold still and try not to slump, alright?”

I gave him a jerky nod while he pulled out a marker.

It was like sorority hazing where they would use markers to circle every imperfection and write horrible names like “slut,” “whore,” and “bitch” on the pledges.

Only it was five thousand times worse.

Because I wasn’t drunk.

And nobody joined me in my shame.

It was just the sexiest man alive, with a marker in his hand, hell-bent on pointing out what was wrong so he could fix it.

Oh, this had been a really stupid idea.