Certain Dark Things

It was raining when Domingo stepped out. He pulled up his jacket’s hood and walked up the street, hands in his pockets. He went back to the tunnels, lit a couple of candles, and fell upon his old mattress, thinking about Atl. He knew plenty of assholes. One didn’t get to be his age and live in the streets without bumping into a few of them. Atl didn’t strike him as one of the bad guys. And she was beautiful. And he hadn’t been with a girl in a while.

Domingo wondered what it might be like to date someone as pretty and special as Atl. He had never really dated. There were hurried copulations in back alleys, the kind street kids manage. The rest he could only imagine, the stuff of commercials for wedding dresses and tuxedo rentals.

Domingo placed a hand beneath his head.

He remembered Belén and there was a sour taste in his mouth.

Belén liked to wear her hair braided with plastic beads. She had a gap-toothed smile but she was nice. They’d snuggled together in the park, her head resting on his shoulder. Then Belén had gone off with the Jackal and he couldn’t even talk to her after that.

Domingo blew out the candles, turned on his music player, and the happy beats of ’80s pop music lulled him to sleep.

He went to the public baths the next morning. He bought a ticket for a public bath with a tub instead of the communal showers and purchased two hours of bath time with unlimited use of water. He made a point to purchase the expensive shampoo and soap. He also bought a shaving kit.

Domingo usually brought laundry to wash at the baths, but not this day. He filled the tub with warm water and slipped in, soaking until his fingers were wrinkled. He washed his hair with lots of shampoo. Two years before he’d had lice. It had been very annoying. He had to buy a soap that smelled bad and a lice comb to get rid of the infestation. It might have been easier to shave his hair off, but Domingo thought that his hair was one of his best features.

Once he was done with his bath, Domingo stepped out of the tub and wrapped the towel he had brought with him, tying it around his waist. He did not shave often. It was not like he had a lot of facial hair, merely some incipient whiskers. But he wanted to appear well groomed. He lathered his face and shaved.

After his bath, Domingo went clothes shopping. He had never bought new clothes in his entire life. When he was still living at home, before his stepdad kicked him out, he’d enjoyed the hand-me-downs of his older brothers. On the streets, when he was washing car windows, there was little chance of new clothes. Now that he gathered garbage he found enough stuff among the rubbish to wear. Shoes, hats, jackets. If the rag-and-bone man didn’t want them, Domingo kept them. But that day he had money and he ventured into a department store.

He tried on fancy jeans, peered curiously into the full-length mirror. He’d looked at his reflection in the rearview mirror of cars and in bathrooms. Not like this, under so many lights, three mirrors angled and repeating his image.

Domingo observed himself critically. His hair was longish and a rich, pleasant brown. His mouth, when he opened it, revealed ugly, crooked teeth. He had bushy eyebrows, a broad nose. He was not handsome, but he thought that if he stood upright and if he kept his mouth shut he looked fine.

He decided to buy a gift for Atl because he’d seen an ad for diamonds near a bus stop once that had informed him that diamonds celebrate the greatest love stories.

He wandered around the jewelry department, staring at rings, earrings, necklaces, pins. They looked too frilly, too simple, too elaborate, too cheap. He settled at last on a watch. It was completely black save for the hands, which were white. He asked the lady behind the counter to wrap it.

Domingo walked out nearly broke and feeling very happy even though he had only a few bills in his pocket and he was starting to feel hungry.

It was dark by the time he made it to Atl’s apartment building. He stood outside for a while, trying to figure out how he was going to get in, before an old lady with a dog and a bag of groceries opened the front door. He politely held the door for her and was able to gain access to the building this way.

He looked at the mailboxes in the lobby. A few of them were labeled with the occupant’s name. Others said simply TENANT. None said Atl. He figured he could remember her door, just as he’d tattooed the way to her building in his mind, and climbed the stairs to her floor.

When he reached her door, he held his breath and knocked. He couldn’t hear anything inside. Domingo knocked again. Silence.

He was going to knock a third time when the door swung open suddenly. The dog growled at him. Atl leaned against the doorframe, frowning. Her eyes were a bit red, like she’d been up for a long time.

“Hi. Atl. Um … What are you doing tonight?” he asked lamely. He’d practiced his greeting. It had sounded better in his head.

“Go away,” she said.

“Wait,” he said, holding up his hands in front of him. “I figure you want a steady person. Steady food, no? And … the other day, it was, ah … it was fun. Kind of.”

“Fun,” she repeated.

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