Again, she couldn’t find her voice. “Connie, you keep blindsiding me. A loan? No, I’m okay. I have some savings, too. And I’m still helping Sully, though not as much as I was—but I can sit behind that counter and ring up sales all day and night. And if I run into trouble, there’s always Cal.”
“I thought of that, but he’s got that house. I built a house—it can really be a pocket suck.”
“You built a house?”
“Uh-huh. The one I live in. Just outside of town. I put money down on some land when I was just a kid—I was twenty-two. I’m still paying on it. It’ll be paid for when I’m forty-two. And the house—when I’m a hundred and ninety.”
“Must be some house,” she said.
“It’s a pretty simple house, but I’m a firefighter. We do all right, but we’re not rolling in dough, though some of ’em act like they are. Thing is, it wouldn’t put me out to help if you need it.”
“Conrad Boyle, I think you must be about the nicest guy I’ve ever met.”
He grinned at her. “See, you’re coming around. That’s good.”
“Don’t get any ideas.”
“Sierra, I’ve had ideas since about the minute I met you. I figure it’s only a matter of time.”
“Is that why you offered me a loan?”
He made a face. “Of course not. I thought you might need a hand, that’s all. That’s how you treat friends, Sierra. Don’t be a pill.”
“I do like you, Connie. That’s why I wanted to be honest with you. I’ve had a lot of problems over the past few years—most of which I made myself. I’m going to be working my way out of them for a long time. I think you could do better than me.”
“That’s very nice of you to warn me, Sierra. Now let me make up my own mind about stuff like that. And you make up yours. What you see is what you get.”
And there’s really nothing better than that, she found herself thinking.
*
He was completely serious and she knew it. Connie Boyle wanted to be her boyfriend. And frankly, she didn’t know when she’d had an offer so good. He was completely unfazed by her confessions and seemed to like her just the same. He was, in fact, the first normal guy she’d been attracted to since she was about fourteen.
Over the next couple of weeks, just in the course of conversation, she learned something else about him that should have been obvious from the beginning. He’d been a firefighter for seven years. And a paramedic and a search and rescue volunteer almost as long. It was in his nature to help, to serve. But also—he’d seen some stuff. Some ugly stuff.
“It’s a little town, but we have a big highway, some vast rural land, huge mountains and a lot of people passing through. The police handle the crime but we usually get the mop-up—after a crash or suicide or even homicide, except we haven’t had one of those in a long time. If you think just because it’s a small and friendly place that nothing interesting happens, think again. All people have complicated lives, get in trouble, have problems and emergencies. We’re a busy little fire department.”
He had a medic’s knowledge and perspective. His stories were daring and fascinating. One of their search and rescue guys fell out of a helicopter and was killed—they spent hours looking for his body. It was a freak accident—the guy with the best balance and safety record in the state somehow slid right out of the chopper. Then there was the time some dipshit blew up a house because of an unsettled debt and blew up himself in the process; he was cut in half, his upper body up in a tree three hundred yards from his lower body. An old man died alone while eating a bowl of spaghetti and it was a while before someone realized he might be sick or dead. Hikers and campers were continually lost; farmers and ranchers had mishaps with heavy equipment. They rescued a seventeen-year-old from a grain silo—usually a death sentence but they got him out. They even tracked a fugitive once—that was dicey. He was wanted, they worried about the complications of actually catching him, though he was supposed to be unarmed. “Someone just decided to cut our losses and punched him in the face. Knocked him out cold. No one can remember who did it. But he’s behind bars again.”
“No one can remember who did it? Did it ever occur to you to check the knuckles in the firehouse?”
With a twinkle in his eye he said, “I guess not.”
Sierra lived for stories of his work and she realized her first impression of him was correct—he was a pretty simple man with some shining qualities. He was honest and loyal, and he was incredibly gentle, especially with Molly. Yet there was no doubting his profound strength. She began to think of him as her gentle giant.
One day he showed up around lunchtime and asked her if she could go for a short hike. She told him that might be pushing her luck on her ankle and he said, “I thought we’d go piggyback and take the dogs. Just a half mile. Maybe less.”
“Why?”
“I haven’t had my workout today and...well, it’s a good way to stay in shape and get close to you. Let’s go. Just a half mile, come on.”
It was his plot from the beginning, to get her up against his body like that, and they talked while he hiked. Then he put her down to rest and pulled her around to his front, put his hands on her waist and said, “Come on, Sierra. Quit stalling.”
She put her arms around his neck and met his lips softly. Then she pulled him tighter and went in for the kill, kissing that sweet mouth of his like a starving woman. She moved over his mouth with passion, letting him tongue her lips apart as he lifted her off her feet. The spectacular kiss didn’t stop until Molly barked. He broke away from her lips, but didn’t set her back on her feet.
“Hello,” he said.
“You planned that.”
“Very well, it seems.”
“It was just a kiss,” she told him.
“One of the best I’ve had,” he said. “Hit me again.”
She did. Because the best part of him was that he was playful. And she was a little hooked on it.
She hadn’t been kissed in such a long time and kissed so thoroughly—maybe never. What would Moody say? But no—she was not telling Moody or anyone. She was just going to enjoy Connie while she could, before any new disasters befell her.
He put her on her feet. “Told you,” he said. “Good idea.”
“Well,” she said, breathless. “That’s where the ideas stop. I’m not going any further with you.”
“Water please,” he said. She handed him a bottle and he took a long drink, then shared with the dogs. “Ahh,” he said. “Take your time, Sierra. I’m stronger than I look. I can wait you out. But I bet pretty soon we’re going to do it.”
“I don’t know about that,” she said. “But a word of advice—that armpit thing you’ve got ideas about? Forget it.”
And he roared with laughter.
*