But we need the darkness right now. It’s the only thing protecting me.
I walk back over to the bed and grab the hem of her jeans. “Unbutton and unzip,” I say. I can’t hear her heart, but with every passing minute that we reconnect who and what we are to each other, I can feel it. I can feel her anticipation and her fear. Her excitement and her need.
“Done,” she says quietly.
I pull hard and her pants come sliding down her legs. “Take off the rest and then put your hands up against the wall,” I say. Her hips lift up as she slides her panties down, and then her knees bend and I’m wishing for the lights again.
Her panties go flying past my shoulder and I let off a little grunt of a laugh. “You think you’re cute—”
“I did what you asked,” she says. “Now you have to do something for me. Take off your gloves.”
“No.”
“Why?”
“Because I don’t ever take them off.”
“Liar. You have to shower.”
“You’re not in charge here, Molly. I am.” It might piss her off, but I don’t want to go there yet. I just want this one time where we don’t have to think about who and what I’ve become since she last saw me. “So don’t start acting like you are. I’ve got you down in a cave, on my bed, and naked. If there’s any doubt about why you’re here, you better get up and walk out now. Because in five seconds I’m gonna fuck the ever-loving shit out of you. I’m gonna make you my prisoner. I’m gonna keep you here until I’m good and satisfied. And if I ever let you leave, I’m going to expect a date and time when you’ll be back. And do you know why I’m gonna do all that?”
“Because you’re my Alpha.”
“No,” I growl. Goddamn her. “Because I love you.” She sucks in some air through her teeth. “I love you. I loved you so fucking much when we were kids, it killed me, Molly. It fucking killed me inside each time they brought you to the lab.”
“I loved you too,” she says. “You were the only good thing in my life.”
“I hurt you. They made me hurt you and I’m sorry.”
“They made me hurt you too. We couldn’t stop that. We were just children. Just let it go, Lincoln. Please don’t look at me and see the past. I’m not holding a grudge.”
“And now what do you feel?”
“I feel like my soul was ripped apart and now it’s whole again.”
“Molly,” I say, lowering myself to the bed and crawling up, my knees on either side of her legs. I stop and sit on her thighs, pinning her down. “I will never hurt you again. You never have to fear me, Molly. Ever.” I hold her face, wanting her to believe me. “Do you believe me?”
Her eyes go wide as the implications of what I just told her sink in. “I believe you.”
“But I want to take you hard right now. I’ve thought about you constantly since I took you home that first day. I’ve thought about this.” I lean down and take her face in my hands and I kiss her. I bite her lip and then her tongue, making her squeal. “I want to fuck you sore. I want to—”
“Jesus Christ, Lincoln. Just do it.”
I want to laugh. I want to laugh and hold her tight and promise that everything is OK. Everything will be OK from now on. But I can’t. I can’t allow myself to believe that until she knows the whole truth. And if I don’t believe it, she won’t either.
So I grab her hair, sit up straight, and ease her face towards my cock. Her hands come off the wall, ready to grip me. But I say, “Put them back. Now.”
She looks up at me, her eyes wide in the dim computer light. But she obeys. She reaches for the headboard, needing something to hold onto, even if it isn’t me.
I don’t give her any more time to think, just thrust her mouth over my cock and hold her there. I’m not all the way inside her, but enough to know she’s not going to be able to take me the way I like it. “Easy,” I say. “Relax. I’ll go slow, I promise. I’ll go slow.”
Her lips wrap around my shaft, sealing against my skin as she sucks. My head falls back and I open my mouth to groan. “Yeah, do that again.”
She hums, her little moans vibrating against my cock, and that’s it, man. I’m about to lose control and break my promise. All I want is to shove myself in deeper and come down her throat.
She gags and pulls back, gasping for breath, bringing me back to my senses. I grab her hands and throw her down on the bed sideways, and then position myself behind her. I reach in front and find her * wet and waiting as I begin to stroke her clit in small slow circles. She bucks her back against my chest.
“More,” she whines. “I need you, Alpha.”
I’m not even capable of correcting her about the name. My mind is blown with desire to take her. My other hand reaches down for my cock so I can position it up against her ass. I let go and grab her leg, thrusting it up to give myself room, and then she reaches down and pushes on my tip until I find her *.