I see large block writing, I know immediately what I’m looking at. A Love Actually situation.
I should wait for her to wake up, to do this her way. But when you’ve waited ten damn years . . . enough.
The first sign simply says Mark.
I slide it aside and read the posters that follow.
I know that as far as plans go,
This one isn’t the most original.
It’s not even my favorite.
For the record, I’d much prefer we live in London, And that I go door-to-door caroling.
But you like it here, and so . . .
Here I am.
Telling you on stupid posters.
That I love you.
I all the way love you
No hesitation.
No “I think.”
I love the way you look at me.
The way you challenge me.
The way you’re always there for me,
Even when I don’t deserve it.
I don’t deserve you.
I know that.
I’ve been slow, clueless, and blind.
I’ve looked in all the wrong places for love.
Listened to fortune-tellers instead of my heart, And trusted horoscopes instead of my heart.
I’m done with that.
You and I are meant to be.
Not because it’s in the stars.
Or a fortune cookie.
But because we’re perfect for each other.
I have more to say, but I’m running out of poster, even though I bought the entire inventory.
And because I love you.
I’m in love with you.
(And don’t bother telling me I’m too late.) (I’ll win you back. You know I will.)
All I want for Christmas . . .
Is you.
As I slide the last poster aside with a slightly shaky hand, I glance over at my best friend. Kelly’s awake. Watching me.
Her eyes are watering as she gives me a small smile. “Hi. Merry Christmas.”
“Merry Christmas,” I say, hoping she’ll think my voice is husky from lack of sleep, and not because my own eyes are dangerously close to watering.
She sits up and runs a hand through her messy hair. The right side of her face is lined from sleeping awkwardly on her arm, but she’s never looked more beautiful.
“Um . . .” She gestures toward the posters. “I was going to do this a little differently. Last night—”
“I didn’t get your messages until just now,” I say, clasping my hands between my knees as I stay crouched near her side. Near enough to touch her, but I don’t. Not yet.
“You were at your parents’?”
I nod.
“How are they?”
I smile. “You really want to talk about my parents right now?”
She laughs. “Well, no, I’d rather know what you think about what I said . . . what I wrote . . .” Kelly gestures to the posters again.
Instead of answering, I push up to my feet and stand. “I’ve got something for you.”
I rummage in the duffle I brought with me, pulling out both a fussy gift bag with red and gold stripes and another package, this one wrapped in ten-year-old newspaper.
I turn back to where she’s now sitting cross-legged by the Christmas tree, but before going to her, I push play on her iPhone, which is plugged into the speaker. Bing Crosby or Frank Sinatra—hell, I never can tell the difference—starts singing about snow.
Returning to her side, I lower to a seated position beside her and hand her the newspaper bundle first.
She gives me a curious look. “What’s this?”
I glare at her, my command clear. Open it.
She does, carefully pulling back the old newsprint and staring down at the dry, brownish lump in her lap.
I clear my throat, feeling a little foolish. “It’s, ah, a corsage.”
She gingerly picks it up with two fingers. “Pretty. Um, how old is it?”
I smile. “Ten years.”
“Explains why the roses didn’t make it.”
“They were pink, back in the day. To match your dress.”
“To match . . .” Her voice trails off, and her eyes go from the corsage to me. “My prom dress?”
I shrug nervously, no longer convinced this was a good idea. “I worked up the courage for a month to ask you to go as my date. We were both single by then, and I thought it’d be as good a time as any to tell you how I felt.”
“But I insisted on going with my girlfriends,” she whispers, touching a dried petal gently.
I clear my throat. “Yeah. Well. I got this just in case, told myself I was going to come by your house, make the speech. . . .”
When she lifts her eyes to mine, they’re shiny again with unshed tears. “Oh, Mark, if you had—”
“Might have avoided this train wreck, huh?” I ask, nodding at the messy pile of posters.
She laughs and clutches the corsage to her chest. “I love it.”
“I was thinking . . .” I clear my throat again. God, I am so out of my element here. But she’s worth it. She’s always been worth it.
I jerk my chin toward the tree. “I know it’s small, but I was thinking it could be . . . you know. For the top.”
Her lips part in surprise, but the smile that follows is worth every moment of my awkward discomfort. “My tree topper.”
I shrug. “It’s not blue—”
“Aqua.”
I roll my eyes. “I know it’s not aqua or white, but—”
“It’s perfect,” she says, touching my hand. “Perfect.”
I swallow. One more to go . . .
I thrust the gift bag at her. “Your real gift.”
She tucks her hair behind her ear and lifts her eyebrows. “You wrapped it. That’s a first.”
I give a little shake of my head, and Kelly smiles. “Or, your mom wrapped it.”
“Wouldn’t let me leave the house until she found coordinating tissue paper.”
Kelly gingerly lifts said tissue paper from the bag and glances inside, then gives me a skeptical look. She reaches inside, pulls out a Magic 8 ball. “In case I lose the others?”
Here goes nothing. I scoot closer to her and slide a hand to the back of her head, my thumb drifting over her cheekbone.
Her eyes go warm, and though I want nothing more than to kiss her—hell, more than that—I nod at the Magic 8 ball. “Shake it.”
“What question should I ask it?”
I’m the one asking the question.
“Shake it,” I say again.
She does as I say, and I watch, heart in my throat, as she glances down at the little screen.
I already know what it says. I’ve spent the past God knows how many hours taking the damn thing apart and hacking it to say what I want it to say.
“Mark?” she lifts her eyes to mine.
She glances down again at the ball, and I do as well. Instead of the usual yes/no/maybe shit, it has two simple words: Marry me.
I cup her face with both hands and say it out loud. “Marry me, Kelly. And don’t give me any shit about it being too soon, because if there are two people who know each other inside and out, it’s ones with ten years of history, most of that spent as neighbors and friends—”
“Best friends,” she corrects. “And co-parents of a fur baby.”
“Right. So if you don’t do it for me, do it for Rigby.”
Her eyes flit over my shoulder. “Your dog is by the door. He has to go to the bathroom.”
“Your dog can bloody wait, and that’s a hell of a topic for a time like this, Byrne. Answer the question. And remember all that cheesy stuff you wrote on the posters when you answer.”
She turns her head slightly, pressing a kiss to my hand. “Maybe I should ask the Magic 8 ball.”