A Spool of Blue Thread

“You don’t remember that Denny came and stayed with me?”

 

 

“I didn’t know you were afraid you’d smash Alexander’s head in.”

 

“Oh. Well, forget that part.”

 

“You could have told me that. Or Mom. She was a social worker, for God’s sake!”

 

“Amanda, forget it. Please.”

 

There was another silence. Then Amanda said, “But anyhow. The rest of what you said, Denny had coming to him. He was mean to Stem. And he did give Mom and Dad grief; he made their lives a living hell. And he is unemployed, and if he’s got any friends we certainly haven’t met them. And I’m not so sure he cares the least little bit about us! You told me yourself he sounded kind of unhappy when he telephoned that night before he came home. Maybe he was just looking for some excuse to come home.”

 

“I still feel awful,” Jeannie said.

 

“Listen, I hate to run, but I’m late for an appointment.”

 

“Go, then,” Jeannie said, and she stabbed her phone to end the call.

 

Denny and Nora were in the kitchen, cleaning up after supper. Or Nora was cleaning up, because Denny had done the cooking. But he was still hanging around, picking up random objects here and there on the counter and looking at the bottoms of them and setting them down.

 

Nora had been talking about Sissy Bailey’s apartment. She had taken Red to see it earlier that afternoon. But he had claimed he could poke a hole in the walls with his index finger, so on Saturday a friend of the family who was a real-estate agent …

 

Denny said, “Is Stem pissed off about something?”

 

“Excuse me?” Nora said.

 

“Jeannie says he’s in a bad mood.”

 

“Why don’t you ask him?” Nora said. She angled one last saucepan into a tiny space in the dishwasher.

 

“I thought maybe you could tell me.”

 

“Is it so hard to just go talk to him? Do you dislike him that much? ”

 

“I don’t dislike him! Geez.”

 

Nora closed the dishwasher and turned to look at him. Denny said, “What, you don’t believe me? We get along fine! We’ve always gotten along. I mean, it’s true he can be kind of a goody-goody, like ‘See how much nicer I am than anybody else,’ and he talks in this super-patient way that always sounds so condescending, and legend has it he behaves so well when his life doesn’t work out perfectly although face it, how often has Stem’s life not worked out perfectly? But I have no problem with Stem.”

 

Nora smiled one of her mysterious smiles.

 

“Okay,” Denny said. “I’ll just ask him myself.”

 

“Thanks for making supper,” Nora told him. “It was delicious.”

 

He raised one arm and let it drop as he walked out.

 

In the sunroom the evening news was on, but Red was the only one watching. “Where’s Stem?” Denny asked.

 

“Upstairs with the kids. I think somebody broke something.”

 

Denny went back out to the hall and climbed the stairs. Children’s voices were tumbling over each other in the bunk room. When he entered, the little boys were snaking that racetrack of theirs across the floor while Stem sat on a lower bunk, studying two parts of a bureau drawer.

 

“What have we here?” Denny asked him.

 

“Seems the guys mistook the bureau for a mountain.”

 

“It was Everest,” Petey told Denny.

 

“Ah.”

 

“Could you hand me that glue?” Stem said.

 

“You really want to use glue on it?”

 

Stem gave him a look.

 

Denny passed him the bottle of carpenter’s glue on the bureau. Then he leaned against the door frame, arms folded, one foot cocked across the other. “So,” he said. “Sounds like you’re moving out.”

 

Stem said, “Yep.” He squirted glue on a section of dovetailing.

 

“I guess you’re pretty set on it.”

 

Stem raised his head and glared at Denny. He said, “Don’t even think about telling me I owe him.”

 

“Huh?”

 

The little boys glanced up, but then they went back to their racetrack.

 

“I’ve done my bit,” Stem told Denny. “You stay on yourself, if you think somebody ought to.”

 

“Did I say that?” Denny asked him. “Why would anybody stay on? Dad’s moving.”

 

“You know perfectly well he’s just hoping we’ll talk him out of it.”

 

“I don’t know any such thing,” Denny said. “What is it with you, these days? You’ve been behaving like a brat. Don’t tell me it’s just about Mom.”

 

“Your mom,” Stem said. He set the glue bottle on the floor. “She wasn’t mine.”

 

“Well, fine, if you want to put it that way.”

 

“My mom was B. J. Autry, for your information.”

 

Denny said, “Oh.”

 

The little boys went on playing, oblivious. They were staging spectacular wrecks on an overpass.

 

“And all along, Abby knew that,” Stem said. “She knew and she didn’t tell me. She didn’t even tell Dad.”

 

“I still don’t see why you’re going around in a snit.”

 

“I’m in a snit, as you call it, because—”

 

Stem broke off and stared at him.

 

“You knew, too,” he said.