The room was already full, too full. But Elsa had saved Florence a seat near the front and Laura managed to squeeze in next to her. When Bill began to speak, a page of his notes slipped from his hands and he had to stop and retrieve it. It was heavily written and overwritten, Laura noticed, and as he was speaking he kept screwing up his eyes to read the next sentence. ‘We must be clear …’ The rolling timbre of his voice could always fill a room, but today there seemed to be resistance in the air and his words did not reverberate. ‘This is not a just war, this is an out-and-out imperialist war to which no working-class member can give any support.’
Beside her, Florence was slumped down in her chair, not looking at Elsa or at Laura. Her legs were twisted around one another in a way, Laura thought, that must be uncomfortable. She wanted to put out a hand to those tense legs, to remind Florence that she was not alone. But they had never been physically close, had never been those girls you saw who walked with linked arms or who stroked one another’s hair when they were ill, and Laura kept her hands in her lap, linking the fingers together, noticing how sweat slipped on her palms even though the room was chilly.
‘The central committee has thoroughly endorsed the new line, and calls upon every member to endorse it too. There can be no room for wavering here: we must pay allegiance to this line not through mere lip service, but through conviction.’
As the meeting closed, Elsa and a couple of other women began the usual singing of ‘The Red Flag’ in their thin sopranos. Their dutiful octaves tried to enfold the crowd, but people remained separate, lost in individual thought. The girls did not usually go drinking after a meeting. There was not the money, after paying for rent and food, for Florence and Elsa to sit and drink beer in the evenings with the comrades; they were more likely to go back to their rooms for a cup of tea. But tonight it seemed necessary to remain with the group, to find places in the smoke-filled room, to sit down at a stained table, to shove along as more people joined them. They found themselves sitting next to Bill and two other middle-aged men. Drinks were being bought, cigarettes shared. A glass of what turned out to be beer mixed with lemonade was put down in front of Laura and, to her surprise, she rather liked the taste. Conversation stuttered around them.
‘You’ll accept the change of line publicly, but privately hold out against it?’ Elsa’s voice was already heard. ‘That’s ridiculous.’ Her glance went to Bill’s face for reassurance, and he nodded at her.
‘A communist doesn’t have a sanctum of privacy that they can hold out against the collective.’ It was the way their conversations always fell, Laura thought, into phrases that seemed complicated, but in fact had always revealed themselves up to now to be straightforward in their certainties. Now nothing was certain, nothing was straightforward.
‘But what is Pollitt’s line on all this?’ Florence asked. Laura remembered the pamphlet, Will It Be War?, with its grand rhetorical certainties, and one of the men beside her nodded, saying how well the pamphlet had been selling, how it cut through all the other nonsense.
‘Comrade Pollitt has apologised,’ Bill said, and put his hands down on the table in front of him, on either side of his pint of beer. ‘He’s confessed that he played into the hands of the class enemy by pressing the wrong position for so long. He’s resigned as General Secretary.’ Laura took another sip of her drink. Drops slopped onto her blue wool skirt. ‘Comrade Dutt has started on a replacement pamphlet. We’ll be getting it out as soon as possible. Explaining the need for the change of line. We cannot support an imperialist war. The International has made that quite clear. The directives arrived last week. We have been too slow at getting this out in public.’
Laura had been led here, to this London pub, by the light that Florence had shown her on the ocean crossing, when she had become convinced that a better world was possible. She was not giving up yet. But she felt suspended, unsure about what was happening now. This pact between the Soviet Union and Germany made too many things dark to her; and looking around her she saw she was not alone in her confusion. The table was breaking down now into separate conversations, and Elsa’s rather hoarse voice suddenly fell into a silence as she told one man: ‘Well, that’s that. Either you accept the idea of a centralised world party, or you will find yourself in the camp of the enemy.’