Beyond the glass, Kell let out another sobbing cry, and doubled over before crumpling to his knees.
And then Rhy saw the blood. Kell was pressing his hands to his chest, and Rhy watched, horrified and helpless, as blood poured between his brother’s fingers. So much. Too much. A life’s worth. No, no, no, he thought, not this.
He looked down and saw the knife buried between his ribs, his own fingers curled around the golden hilt.
Rhy gasped and tried to pull the blade free, but it was stuck.
Beyond the glass, Kell coughed blood.
“Hold on,” cried Rhy.
Kell was kneeling in a pool of red. A room. A sea. So much red. His hands fell away.
“Hold on,” pleaded Rhy, pulling at the knife with all his strength. It didn’t move.
Kell’s head slumped forward.
“Hold on.”
His body crumpled.
The knife came free.
*
Rhy wrenched forward out of sleep.
His heart was pounding, and the sheets were soaked with sweat. He pulled a pillow into his lap and buried his face in it, dragging in ragged breaths as he waited for his body to realize the dream wasn’t real. Sweat ran down his cheek. His muscles twitched. His breath hitched, and he looked up, hoping to find morning light spilling in through the balcony doors, but was met with darkness, tempered only by the Isle’s pale red glow.
He bit back a sob of frustration.
A glass of water sat beside his bed, and he gulped it down with shaking fingers while he waited to see if his brother would come barging in, convinced the prince was under attack, the way he had those first few nights.
But when it came to nights and mornings and the dreams between, Rhy and Kell had quickly developed a silent understanding. After a bad night, one would give the other a small, consoling look, but it seemed crucially important that nothing actually be said about the nightmares that plagued them both.
Rhy pressed his palm flat against his chest, lessening the pressure with the inhalation, increasing with the exhalation, just as Tieren had taught him to do years before, after he’d been taken by the Shadows. It wasn’t the abduction that gave him nightmares in the months that followed, but the sight of Kell crouched over him, eyes wide and skin pale, the knife in his hand and the rivers of blood streaming from his severed veins.
It’s all right, Rhy told himself now. You’re all right. Everything’s all right.
Feeling steadier, he threw off the sheets and stumbled up.
His hands itched to pour a drink, but he couldn’t bear the thought of going back to sleep. Besides, it was closer to dawn than dusk. Better to just wait it out.
Rhy pulled on a pair of silk trousers and a robe—the latter plush and heavy in a simple, comforting way—and threw open the balcony, letting the night’s icy chill dispel any dregs of sleep.
Below, the floating arenas were nothing more than shadows blotting out the river’s glow. The city was speckled here and there with lights, but his attention drifted to the docks, where even now ships were sailing sleepily into port.
Rhy squinted, straining to pick out one ship in particular.
A dark-wood vessel with silver trim and blue-black sails.
But there was no sign of the Night Spire.
Not yet.
III
THE ARNESIAN SEA
Lila stormed across the Spire’s deck, glaring at anyone who chanced to look her way. She’d left her coat in Alucard’s cabin, and the night wind hit her like a wall, piercing sleeves and skin. It bit and burned, but Lila didn’t turn back; instead she welcomed the sobering shock of the cold air as she crossed to the ship’s stern, and slumped against the rail.
Bastard, she grumbled at the water below.
She was used to being the thief, not the mark. And she’d nearly fallen for it, focused on the hand in front of her face while the other tried to pick her pocket. She gripped the rail with bare fingers and stared out at the open sea, furious: at Alucard, at herself, at this stupid ship, the edges of which were so fixed, and so small.
What are you running from? he’d asked.
Nothing.
Everything.
Us. This.
Magic.
The truth was, there had been an instant, staring into the hissing fire, when it had stared back, hot and fierce, and listening, and she knew she could have made it grow, could have torched the whole cabin in a moment’s temper, burned the ship, and herself and everyone on it.
She was starting to understand that magic wasn’t just something to be accessed, tapped into when needed. It was always there, ready and waiting. And that frightened her. Almost as much as the way Alucard had been able to play her, toy with her, twist her distraction to his advantage. She’d let her guard slip, a mistake she wouldn’t make again.
Bastard.