“No,” I grind out, dipping my quill in the ink again and continuing to scribe my message.
“She’s still here.”
I pause, eyes closing as I release another sigh. Slowly, I set my quill on the desk, lean back in my chair, cross my fucking arms, and give Pyrok my full, undivided attention. Lifting a brow, I wait for him to continue.
“I’ve seen her at the markets.”
I quirk a brow. “Oh?”
He nods. “Buying shit.”
I stare at him, waiting for him to continue. Which he doesn’t.
“Well, what kind of shit?”
He rolls his eyes, like it’s an outrageous question—except it’s not. Not to the organ in my chest that’s far too soft for its own good.
Pyrok begins ticking things off his fingers. “Leather, soap, poultice, towels. She did go to The Curly Quill and waited outside while a kid went in to pick up a bag of something for her, but I can’t tell you what because I can’t see through leather. And I think she bought a sack of feathers from the local goggin bird breeder, but it could’ve been grain.” He shrugs. “I tried to keep my distance.”
I frown, my gaze dropping to the pile of crushed larks while I pick through his words. It sounds to me like she’s settling in, not preparing to leave. Which makes no sense. Unless she’s been … remembering things. Perhaps forming a new attachment to the place.
My chest aches at the thought, and it’s an effort not to groan as I scrub my face again—in desperate need of a bath and maybe a wall to bash my head against.
“Are you attending The Great Flurrt celebrations?” Pyrok asks, and I lean forward, getting to work unfolding the rest of the scrunched larks.
“I’ll be lifting the platforms, of course.”
“I mean the actual festival.”
I quirk a brow, sliding him half the pile. “Have I ever?”
He still makes no move to help, instead narrowing his eyes on me. “You really think now’s the right time to turn all stubborn prick?”
Perfect time, actually.
“The last Great Flurrt we spent together was the last time I saw her alive.” I flatten another lark and slap it on the pile. “We spent the slumber together, and the following dae I flew off to help rebuild a village. The next time I saw Elluin, her limp body was being carted into the sky by her mourning dragon,” I growl, slamming another lark on the fucking pile. “So no, the idea of inviting her to The Great Flurrt celebration doesn’t thrill me, nor will I apologize for my reluctance.”
“Maybe this time will be different?”
I chuckle—low and without humor. “Maybe she’ll fillet my heart in a different direction? Undoubtedly. She’s quite fond of filleting. Quite good at it, too.”
Pyrok sighs, bashing his fist against the arm of his chair. “Look, all I know is I heard her ask a merchant if they’d seen the King around. Do with that as you will,” he mutters, then shoves to a stand and stalks toward the door.
I frown. “Where are you going?”
“To get drunk in Grihm’s suite while I raid his dagger collection,” he drawls, moving through the doorway. “Since he’s probably dead already, the asshole.”
The sound of his boot steps tapers off, and I tip my head, staring at the ceiling.
Fucking … fuck.
Abandoning the larks, I push up and drift toward my balcony doors, pull them wide, then step out into the sun’s harsh glare, overlooking Dhomm and the Loff.
The western point.
I walk all the way to the vine-clothed balustrade, resting my elbows against it, my heart blocking my airway when I see a shape in the distance—right where the water laps at the bouldered shore. Frowning, I stalk into my office and snatch my seeing scope off the desk, then move back onto the balcony and stretch the tool, putting it to my eye and pointing it in the direction of the shape.
My ribs crack at the sight.
Raeve’s stepping from stone to stone—feet bare, hair mostly piled atop her head, her cheeks and shoulders a little sun-kissed. She’s dressed in the short black sleep shift she was wearing when I took her to visit Slátra, one of the thin shoulder straps falling down her arm.
She doesn’t bother to lift it back into place, like she hasn’t even noticed, instead bending down and plucking a shell from between the stones. She inspects it from all angles before placing it in a basket hanging off her arm.
I swallow as she straightens, casting her crisp, glacier eyes toward—
My heart stills.
Toward Rygun’s hutch …
Well, fuck. Guess we’re on her mind.
“Ready for another round, Moonbeam?”
She tucks a loose piece of hair behind her ear, a yearning in her eyes that messes with my heartstrings.
I slam the looking glass against my palm, closing it, considering the implications of ripping my own heart out and smashing it against the stone. Giving her a head start.
Though maybe Pyrok’s right. Maybe this time will be different.
Maybe it’ll be worse.
Either way, there’s no one else I’d willingly serve my heart on a platter to—over and over and over again—like a hopeless, lovesick stray begging for a treat.
Iattended a Tithe this dae.
Since his pah’s absent, Kaan sat on the bronze throne, accepting offerings, giving back to those who had little to offer in the first place.
I watched from the back of the hall as he spoke with each of the folk with such raw grace and fairness it reminded me of the way Mah and Pah used to run their kingdom, feeling a deep pang of homesickness at that thought …
Pah didn’t respect King Ostern. He said their values didn’t align. That Ostern had little care for anyone who couldn’t hear the elemental songs.
I watched Kaan offer a young, struggling family a plump sack of gold and decided Pah would’ve respected King Ostern’s eldest son.
Kaan saw me from across the vast space, our eyes locked, and I’m certain the world stilled.
I felt so bare before him, infused with a fiery heat that had nothing to do with the ever-present burn that scalds this place. Certain my body was going to sizzle from the inside out if we did not collide, struggling to see much else through the haze of my unquenched desire.
I moved behind a pole before anyone noticed, desperate to catch my breath that had suddenly fled.
I know the things I desire are forbidden.
I’m all out of reasons to care.
For almost two phases, I’ve existed in this Stronghold like one of the shadows …
I’m done living the life I’ve been told to live and not the one I want for myself.
He’s broad, dense, alive beneath me, his bent knees pushed between my legs, prying me open.
Entirely exposed, I jerk my hips, trying to force his touch upon that coil of tender nerves. “Please …”
“You don’t have to beg for me, Moonbeam.” His words shake my bones, his fingers sweeping around my entrance—so featherlight it’s but a breath of touch.
My body ignites, my heart a violent hammer of feisty need.
I grip his málmr, holding it close.
“If you want me”—he presses his mouth to my ear, nipping gently—“I’m fucking yours.”
Groaning, I slide my hand down the taut muscles of his strong arm, over his wrist, his knuckles.
His fingers.
I push him into me, tiding with the thrust of pleasure, thighs loosening.
Widening.
“Forever,” I whimper, working him deeper. “I want you forever.”
He makes a dense rumbling sound, his other hand gripping my jaw and turning my head to the side. I catch a glimpse of fierce ember eyes before he takes my mouth in a kiss that devastates my ability to breathe or think—prisoner to his insatiable taste. To the way he commands my lips and tongue.
Devouring me.
My hips roll to match the deep thrust of his fingers and his all-consuming kiss, my body winding up …
Up …
He flips us, knees my legs wider, then grips my hips and tugs, lengthening my spine. A firm hand presses between my shoulder blades before he rubs the solid head of his cock against my wet, pulsing entrance. So open.
So ready—
An air-shredding roar rips through my dreamscape, like snapping a book shut right at the good part.