The drive from our farm to Eamon’s was only a few minutes, but in that time, I’d managed to run through a hundred different scenarios in my head.
I’d been gone from my own timeline in 2023 for more than twenty-four hours now. It wouldn’t have taken long for someone to come along and find the Bronco, door open and engine running on the side of the road. When I was nowhere to be found, they’d call the sheriff.
Minutes later, Birdie’s phone would ring. Then Mason’s. They’d be asked when they last saw me. If they knew where I was headed or if they had any clue where I could be. Mason would be terrified. He was probably out combing that field for me right now. Walking the riverbank and calling my name out into the woods. But Birdie . . . Birdie would know exactly where I was.
There was no way for me to be sure just how much she knew, and now I regretted storming out of the house instead of pressing her. If I had, would I have still walked through that door? I didn’t know. It made sense that Gran had trusted her oldest friend with the truth about our family, but why hadn’t she told me?
The bigger problem was how I would explain myself when I got back. What kind of excuse could I give for leaving my truck in the middle of the road and just disappearing? Would I ever be able to tell Mason the truth? Would he even believe me?
My hands nervously smoothed the soft fabric of the dress Esther had given me as she turned onto Hayward Gap Road. I broke out in a sweat when I saw Eamon walking the edge of the tobacco fields. We pulled into the drive, and he glanced up for only a moment, but I could see the set of his shoulders change. The look in his eyes hardened before he climbed the back steps to the house.
My hand searched beneath my shirt until I found the locket watch. The metal was warmed by my skin, the small clasp familiar to my fingers. I was already scanning the fields, looking for any sign of that faded red paint that covered the door. But there was nothing. No sign of that glint of sunlight on the bronze knob or hinges amid the green.
The engine cut off, and Esther let out what sounded like an exhausted breath. “Let me talk to him first.”
“I told you he doesn’t want me here.”
“Yes, well, want and need are two different things.”
She was opening the door and climbing out a moment later. I watched from the passenger seat as she walked up to the porch and disappeared inside the house. It was beautiful against the fields and the hills that gave way to that perfect view of the mountains in the distance.
Here, in 1951, it was a modest but working farm, its roof the shelter to a family. My family. Everything about it was tranquil and serene, but in my mind, I could still see the broken skeleton that existed in my time. The heaviness of it had settled in my bones, as if I could feel the precarious weight of those bowed, sagging beams that wanted so badly to come crashing down on the earth. It was a place that wanted to take its last breaths. The mare behind the fence paced its length, head shaking and mane flipping as it watched me with that one glistening black eye. The farm was quiet except for the stamp of her feet and the soft tinkle of what sounded like wind chimes.
Slowly, my gaze moved to the porch, skipping over the rafters until I saw them. The sunlight sparkled as it glinted off a string of silver rods suspended from a wooden frame. My hand found the handle of the truck’s door and I opened it, feet touching the dirt as I stared.
That tingling at the nape of my neck was back. It was the same sound I’d heard in the kitchen that day. The one that had split my head open with its ringing. And that wasn’t the only time I’d heard it, either.
I was only beginning to work out how the things I’d written in my notebook connected to this place. I could hear the wind chimes just as clearly now as I had when I was in our house on Bishop Street. That moment had been real, but when had it taken place?
Another wind picked up and the chimes knocked together, sending another throng of high-pitched peals into the air. I walked toward them, up the porch steps, until I was standing beneath them.
What Esther had said about the fraying rope made sense where there had never been any before. The things I’d seen—the things that had happened to me—weren’t hallucinations or delusions or any of the things that Dr. Jennings had written in his notes. They were actual, real events bleeding through from another time.
Voices sounded at my back and I blinked, tearing my eyes away from the chimes. I could see Esther and Eamon through the window, Eamon standing in the kitchen with his arms crossed over his chest and shirtsleeves pulled up to his elbows. His hair was damp with sweat and falling into his eyes as he looked at Esther, but I couldn’t read the look on his face.
I took a step closer to the window, listening.
“. . . much choice here.” It was Esther’s voice.
“He’s not just going to let this go. You know that.”
The rumble of a car on the road drowned out the next words, and I caught only the end.
“. . . she’ll be gone.”
They stared at each other another moment before Esther finally made her way back to the door. When it opened, she looked surprised to find me on the porch.
Her chin jerked toward the house. “Come on, then.”
Again, I looked to Eamon through the window. He was watching me now, in a way that felt both wary and threatening. The white fabric of his shirt was darkened with sweat across his broad chest, the muscles of his arms corded under the skin. He was tense. On alert, as if he were ready to protect this place from me.
“Well?” Esther looked at me, waiting.
I took a steadying breath before I gathered the will to step inside. Esther gave me an encouraging smile as I passed, letting the door close behind me.
I found a place to stand beside the fireplace and tried not to study the little trinkets on the mantel. A speckled feather, a seashell. A small bronze box with an engraved lid. Across the room, a curtain half hid a small nook with what looked like a bed, where a little rag doll was tossed on top of the blanket. I hadn’t noticed it yesterday, maybe because the curtain had been closed. It had to belong to the little girl I’d seen in Eamon’s arms yesterday. I’d been careful not to think too much about her.
“Now,” Esther began. “The best thing we can do is to act as normal as possible. June, you’ve been in Norfolk taking care of your mother after a stroke. She’s doing much better, so you’re home for good.”
I stiffened. “For good?”
“As far as the town’s concerned, yes.”
Eamon watched me, dark eyes studying my face in a way that made me shift on my feet.