“They really do look like chicken cutlets,” he marvels as I rush to peel off the sticky boobs, giggling and batting his hands away as he tries to get a closer look. “Fascinating.”
I fling them in the direction of the desk, then launch myself at him, throwing my arms around his neck and planting my lips on his—and there it is, skin-to-skin contact at long last. Finally. I’m enveloped in everything hard—his muscular arms flexing around me, his strong abs, his stiff arousal——and yet the way he holds me is gentle, tender, sweet. He has one hand cradling my face, fingers threaded into my hair, and the other braced against my rib cage, his large palm fanned over my breast, his thumb teasing my nipple and sending lightning bolts of desire straight to my core.
I let out a moan, and I think it triggers him to pick up the pace because his arms tighten around me and he walks us backward, guiding us toward the bed. His hand moves down to knead my ass, and now he’s the one who’s clumsy as he tries to tug my panties down my hips one-handed.
“These need to go,” he growls against my lips, and as soon as I kick them off we tumble into the sheets, a cloud of soft linens puffing up around us, shielding us from the world.
Sensations swirl and collide in an erotic, all-consuming blur. Jack lavishes my body with attention, caressing my breasts and tracing my collarbone with his tongue, his stubble tickling my skin. I straddle his hips and nibble his ear, grinding against him while my breasts skim his chest. He kisses up my spine; noses across my navel; fists a hand in my hair. I nip and bite my way down his torso, savoring the salty-sweetness of his skin, stroking his shaft until he groans me for me to stop. He drops his head between my thighs and tastes me until my back arches off the mattress, fingers clenched and scrabbling at the sheets. His tongue is like fire licking up my skin; I’m surprised I haven’t burst into flames.
Seeing him like this now, unconstrained and unleashed, I’m realizing just how much he’s held himself back, how thoroughly he’s subjugated his needs for mine all this time. He’s insatiable and demanding, as dominant in bed as he is in life. He’s indefatigable in foreplay in a way I can hardly withstand. He’s taking his time, cherishing every inch of me, and it makes the rusty hinges on the door to my heart crack open that much wider. I feel wanted, body and soul. It’s like he won’t rest until he’s unearthed every one of my hidden emotions, drawn out all of my deepest desires and claimed them for him and him alone.
“Please,” I plead, and I’m not even sure what I’m begging for at this point—for him to end my torment, yes, but also to obliterate me, to fill this space in my soul that only he can fill, to take my heart, brand it with his initials, and never give it back.
He must hear the desperation in my voice because he settles me back against the pillows, blanketing my body with his and caging me in with the strength and sinew of his broad shoulders. Sweat’s gathered at his temples, one unruly lock of hair fallen onto his forehead, and for some reason that little detail makes my heart squeeze in my chest.
He grabs my hand and pulls it above my head, lacing my fingers through his. “Don’t close your eyes, okay? I want to see you.”
I swallow thickly and nod, a powerful swell of emotion threatening to pull me under, and if possible, I fall deeper in love with him. This is the most intimate moment of my entire life.
I do as he says, staring into his eyes as he slowly guides himself inside me, inch by glorious inch—but it’s when he breathes out a hoarse I love you that I lose all control, grabbing the back of his neck and slamming his lips down on mine. He jerks into me, burying himself to the hilt, and when I clench around him he groans into my mouth.
He starts to rock against me, his rhythm steady and deliberate, and I surrender to the pleasure, knowing he’s got me, that I’m safe in his arms. Jack makes love like he does everything else—he’s in control, confident and authoritative, yet still earnest and devoted in a way that makes me weak in the knees. I seem to have stumbled upon a unicorn of my own: a guy with serious alpha male energy but none of the ego that typically comes with it. He’s my white whale. I’ve found the perfect man.
Everything I’m discovering about him sends me tumbling further down the love rabbit hole. He has a spray of freckles stippled across his shoulders that’s like a hidden constellation for my eyes only, and I trace a path along them like it’s my own private star chart. I’m addicted to the noises he makes—his panting breaths, broken grunts, the low groans that come from deep within his chest, as melodic and captivating as any musical notes. I press a fingertip into the dimple in his cheek, noting that I seem to have unlocked a new, boyish version of his smile. It’s extraordinary to me that despite staring at his face for weeks, there are still things I’m seeing for the first time. I hope I never stop.
He moves over me, spoiling me, learning my body and minding my reactions, but it’s torturous—he’s setting a loose, languid pace when all I want him to do is annihilate me, press me into the mattress, suffocate me with his weight and his kisses. I writhe against him in an underhanded attempt to steal his control, but he doesn’t give an inch; he won’t be rushed. I think this must be part of his master plan—he wants me mindless and pliant, holding nothing back, so wild with lust that I’m twisting out of my skin, screaming his name, begging for mercy.
And maybe I’ll give him what he wants. Our relationship has always thrived on competition, the push-pull dynamic between us as intoxicating as any drug, but maybe this is where I let him lead. Maybe this time, I’ll let him take me where he wants to go while I relax and enjoy the ride. Going head-to-head and toe-to-toe with him has been fun, but I think I’ve finally found a kind of submission I can embrace. Betty would be proud.
Once I make that decision, it doesn’t take me long to break.
Jack continues his carnal assault, his hands and tongue and body relentlessly pushing me to the limit, taking everything I have to give, and I surrender it all until I’m nothing but a quivering mass chasing release. This is the most intense sexual experience of my life, and I tell him so.
His mouth curls up. “For me too.” And then: “Tell me what else you’re thinking.”