My body felt steady and grounded like a tree with deep roots, while my mind was light and flowing in the breeze. This was my journey. While I never would have chosen what happened with Shane, it had led me here in my search for something better. Opaline was right – I felt powerful. Not in an egotistical way, but in a calm, knowing sort of way. Like I was finally ready to take ownership of my life.
Then I remembered something Henry had said, or rather had held back. My instincts told me that it was significant. I was ready to know the full truth.
‘What was it you came to tell me?’ I asked, sitting on the bed beside him.
He stretched and yawned. ‘What?’
‘When you came here today, you said you’d found something?’
He rested on his elbow and blinked a few times, like a computer restarting. ‘Oh yes, hang on.’
He swung his legs out of bed and pulled on his boxers before grabbing his jacket from upstairs. I felt chilled the instant he left and smiled to myself.
‘It’s okay,’ I whispered. I had to reassure myself that it was safe to have these feelings. It would not be easy, learning to trust him. I was only starting to trust myself.
‘Opaline’s baby,’ he said, bursting back into the flat. ‘She didn’t die at all. They just told her that.’ He sat on the end of the bed and handed me the time-worn certificate. It was an unofficial adoption record for a baby girl. Her name was recorded as Rose.
‘My God, how could they do that to her?’
‘Money, I imagine. It was quite common at the time.’
Henry squeezed my hand and I felt so glad that he was there. I couldn’t face this alone.
‘My eyes are playing tricks. Can you read out what the name of the couple is?’
‘Clohessy. Am I pronouncing that right?’
My teeth began chattering from the cold.
‘Hey, what’s up?’ he asked, pulling me close and putting his arms around me.
‘M-my grandmother was adopted by a couple called the Clohessys.’
Chapter Fifty-Four
HENRY
‘How are you so calm? Your grandmother’s name was Rose Clohessy. I mean, how many Rose Clohessys could have been born that year? It’s a pretty big coincidence, right?’ I realised how loud I was being, as I paced around her basement flat, in relation to her almost zen-like poise on the bed.
‘I’m not sure if I’d describe what I’m feeling as calm, Henry,’ she said, unflinching in the face of this monumental twist in her family ancestry.
‘You’re processing. Good. Right.’
Well, this was nuts. I had met the woman of my dreams only to find out that she carried the missing manuscript of Emily Bront? ON HER SKIN, and now, it seemed, was the great-granddaughter of Opaline Carlisle, one of the greatest book dealers of the twentieth century. A fact that, up to now, she had been completely unaware of.
Wait until I told the faculty about this – I finally had my thesis!
‘That’s what you’re thinking about?’
‘Huh? What? Wait, how did you—’ I hadn’t spoken that part aloud, had I?
She got up and pulled on her clothes with an urgency that suggested some activity other than my preferred one.
‘Of course you should write about it. Everyone needs to know Opaline’s story. And you’re the one to tell it.’
‘Okay, how did you know that’s what I was …’
‘It’s a gift, Henry. And I don’t plan on hiding it any more.’
I tried to pretend that this wasn’t unnerving at all and then immediately tried to not think of anything, lest she pluck it from my brain. The branches of the tree fluttered in an imperceptible breeze and the door slowly swung open with a theatrical creak.
‘As for Emily’s manuscript, no one’s going to believe it, are they?’
She was right. We had no proof that it was real. But we knew and that was enough. The realisation blew me sideways. The recognition didn’t matter to me any more.
‘You’ll have to settle for being the only one who sees it,’ she said, kissing me on the cheek.
‘I think I’m okay with that.’ I was very okay with that.
‘Right, should we give it a try?’ she asked, pulling on her shoes.
‘Climbing Everest? Dinner at the new Asian place?’ Apparently I did not share her gift.
She batted my arm and gave me that heart-melting smile. ‘Finding the bookshop. You read the last page, didn’t you?’
I tried to summon up the words in my minds’ eye.
The soul of the night turned upside down …
‘I’m not even sure what it means … the soul of the night?’
‘Don’t be so literal,’ she said, with a new-found confidence I’d never seen. It looked good on her. ‘If I am to be the custodian, and everything that has happened since I arrived here has been screaming to tell me that, I need to believe. I’ve been in denial for so long. I suppose I just never dared hope—’
She broke off, her voice thick with emotion. I put my arms around her waist and told her to slow down, take a breath.
‘You are so special. Only you can’t see it.’ I bent my head and let my lips touch the softness of her mouth, feeling the sweet scent of her breath pulling me in. ‘I’m just not sure where I fit in,’ I said, reluctantly breaking away. Stupid thoughts.
‘You’re the only one who has seen the bookshop. That has to mean something.’
It was true. The search for the manuscript had led me here and now I’d found the treasure I never knew I was searching for. She took my hand and led me upstairs. No light was on, but the rooms were lit by an incredibly large moon shining through the windows.
‘What about Madame Bowden?’ I asked, as we rounded the ground floor and headed up to the first landing.
‘I don’t think she’s coming back.’
Any hint of anxiety had left her voice. What was going on? She stopped for a moment and turned to face me.
‘Would you think it strange—’
‘Martha,’ I said, taking her by the shoulders. ‘I think the strange horse has bolted, don’t you?’
She smiled and physically shook off whatever last doubts were holding her back.
‘Apart from us, there isn’t one other person who has actually met Madame Bowden. I asked my friends from college – none of them saw her that night at my birthday party. Not even my mother.’
‘Right. Okay. That is strange.’
‘Apart from Shane,’ she added, her forehead creasing as she became lost in troubling memories of the past. ‘Why was that?’ she whispered almost inaudibly to herself.
I began to wish I hadn’t seen her either. Was she a ghost?
‘I don’t think she’s a ghost.’
‘So you’re just reading my thoughts at will now, is it? I don’t know if I like this!’
Martha smiled and assured me her ‘gift’ wasn’t that refined.