“You think?” he echoed as he pressed the tip of the unlit cigarette to the smoldering end of the one still in his mouth. His cheeks hollowed slightly as he sucked at the filter, the ember glowing a hotter red, and then, newly lit cigarette between those long, elegant fingers, he offered it to me.
I never much cared for smoking, something that was probably more offensive to my fellow North Carolina blue bloods than all the dead husbands would end up being, so maybe it’s a good thing I was only the tobacco heir’s wife for those few months. But I took the cigarette from him all the same, and had you been alone in that room with him, you would have, too.
“Atlanta is fine and all, but … I’ve missed it here,” I replied, and he snorted slightly at that, smoke puffing from his nostrils.
“You need to see more of the world if you think this mountain is worth missing, sweetheart.”
I should’ve been offended by that, but I was twenty and the most attractive man I’d ever met had just called me sweetheart, so please cut me some slack, darling.
I moved a little closer to him, taking a drag on the cigarette, the flavor rich and bitter. “I’d like to,” I told him. “See more of the world, that is. London. Rome. Paris. Paris, especially, actually.”
“I’ll book the honeymoon now,” he said, teasing, and oh, how that thrilled me. Not just the word “honeymoon,” and all the secret, wonderful things that implied, but the idea that there might be a third door besides Dutiful Daughter and Dutiful Wife. A wife still, yes, but the kind that didn’t throw boring parties or pretend to be excited about Jell-O salads. Wife to a man like this, a man who would take her with him when he went out in the world, who wanted her to experience the same things he did.
A partner.
As I said, darling, I was twenty. Truly my only excuse. Not for believing that such men exist, because they do—I married one eventually—but believing that this man was one of them.
“Maybe you should take me out to dinner first,” I told him, and he ground out his cigarette in the heavy glass ashtray just behind him on the desk.
“Maybe I will,” he answered, and then threw me a sly glance from the corner of his eye. “Or we could have a picnic. Unless that brings back bad memories.”
It was the first time anyone other than Nelle had ever referenced my kidnapping, and it was yet another thing that, in retrospect, should have offended, but instead just made Duke all the more intriguing, all the more different from anyone else I’d known.
“No bad memories,” I confirmed. “No memories of it at all.”
That was the truth. Other than that odd moment of naming my doll Grace, nothing from that time of my life ever resurfaced, the story continuing to feel like something that might have happened to someone else.
“I remember it,” Duke said, rising to his feet. “Or remember people talking about it, I guess. You were quite the little celebrity for a while.”
“Isn’t it odd how that happens?” I asked, and, seeing his confusion, added, “Celebrity—or notoriety, really—all because of something that happened to you, not something you actually did. Like that poor girl back in the spring, the one whose fiancé fell at the falls. Daddy said her picture was in the paper for weeks.”
I’d been in Atlanta at the time, but news from Tavistock still made its way to me through phone calls and letters from home, and there had been no bigger story than the death of Peter Whalen, a UNC student who’d taken his fiancée, Jill, up to the waterfall deep in the woods a few miles from Ashby House. He’d been leaning down to tie his shoe when he’d slipped on some wet rocks, plunging down to the rocks and water below.
“Never knew why that was such a story,” Duke said with a shrug. “My grandfather had a cousin who took a tumble from those falls back around the turn of the century. It’s a dangerous place, people should be more careful.”
“It wasn’t just that he died,” I said, lowering my voice and stepping a little closer. “They didn’t put it in the papers out of respect for his family, but Daddy heard it from the sheriff himself. Peter Whalen wasn’t dead when he hit the rocks.”
Duke lifted his eyebrows at that, and the clear interest in his gaze made me a little bolder. “He was hurt, very badly from what I understand, and Jill tried to get down to him, but couldn’t. So she left him to go get help. But when she came back with the sheriff and his officers, Peter wasn’t there.”
Now Duke leaned forward, his fingers loosely clasped on one thigh. “Go on.”
I could see myself in my room in Atlanta, the pale green phone cord twisting around one finger as Daddy relayed the gruesome story to me, my mind conjuring up the falls, those sharp rocks at the bottom. The sound of rushing water not loud enough to drown out Peter Whalen’s screams or Jill’s cries of horror as he lay broken and bloody.
It had felt like a scary story, the sort of thing you tell around campfires. Not a thing that had happened to real people, people in the same woods that had once taken me.
I suppose I should now say that I feel guilty for how much I relished the darkness of the account, how vividly I could picture those horrific details, but surely there’s no point in lying to you.
“They found him—most of him, at least—a few hours later,” I told Duke, my voice barely above a whisper, the air hushed and heavy around us. “He’d tried to crawl away, they thought, get out of the water. But something found him.”
“Something?” Duke’s voice was as low as mine now, his pupils wide and surrounded by the narrowest band of blue.
“A bear, probably. Maybe a mountain lion.”
“Jesus Christ.”
“No, I don’t think it was him,” I answered without thinking, the quip entirely inappropriate, one of those dark jokes that always sat on the tip of my tongue, but very rarely slipped out in front of someone.
And Duke laughed.
I found myself smiling back, secret, conspiratorial, and his eyes dropped to my mouth. “I have no idea what to make of you, Ruby McTavish,” he said, and until that moment I had never realized that you could feel someone’s voice like a touch.
“No one does,” I said.
I didn’t say it to be cute. It was just the truth.
No one knew what to make of me. I was a rich man’s daughter who hid at parties rather than flirt with available bachelors. I was pretty enough, but there were other more beautiful girls. I did well enough in school, but wasn’t a brain.
And there was this darkness that seemed to cling to me, a past that people only ever spoke about in whispers. A suspicion, even inside my own heart, that I had been placed in the wrong life, living out a role written for someone else.
Maybe it was the darkness that Duke liked.
He had his own streak of it, I’d learn, hidden beneath that smooth, implacable sheen.
But let’s leave that for the next letter. For now, let me leave us here in the dim light of my father’s office, the low murmur of voices and muffled music from the band downstairs the soundtrack to a kiss that would change my life and end his.
You’ll let me do that, won’t you?
-R
BABY RUBY A BRIDE!
She stole hearts around the nation as the famous “Baby Ruby” during the 1940s, but now, Ruby McTavish has captured one heart in particular––that of tobacco heir and man-about-town Duke Edward Callahan.
The bride, daughter of Mr. Mason McTavish and the late Anna McTavish of Tavistock, North Carolina, walked down the aisle this past Saturday, April 22, on the grounds of her family home, Ashby House. Wearing her mother’s wedding gown from 1937 (altered and updated by Mme. Durand of Paris, a personal friend of the groom’s father, Edward Alton Callahan), Miss McTavish carried a bouquet of white roses, pink camellias, and the crested iris native to her home state. Her maid of honor was her younger sister, Miss Eleanor McTavish, and the rest of her bridal party consisted of friends from childhood and her school chums from Agnes Scott College in Atlanta where, up until her engagement, Miss McTavish had been studying literature.