“Don’t you have to keep records, like a pawnshop?”
“Nah. That’s in case someone’s trying to fence stolen property—jewelry, stereos, that sort of thing. No one’s going to jail for an old Partridge Family album. For a while, I scribbled names and addresses in one of those old composition books, but eventually, I got lazy and quit. Weird stuff does happen, though. Relatives show up demanding Grandma’s stuff back after you’ve shelled out money for it. It can get messy. Come to think of it, maybe I should buy a new composition book. That doesn’t help you now, though. Sorry.”
Ashlyn waved off the apology. “Never mind. It was a long shot. I’ll just keep sleuthing.”
“You think they might actually be worth something?”
“No, it’s nothing like that. I’ve just never run across anything like . . . whatever this is. I’m not very far into the first book, but what I’ve read so far feels so personal. Like it was written for an audience of one.”
“Like a letter?”
“A really long letter. Or a journal, maybe. But why go to the trouble of having something like that professionally bound?”
Kevin shrugged and gave his head a scratch. “If there’s one thing running this store has taught me, it’s that there’s no end to the emotional weight people attach to their stuff. Who knows? Maybe the answer is in the second book.”
“Maybe.” Ashlyn slid her tote up onto her shoulder. “Guess I better get reading.”
Ashlyn could feel the new book burning a hole in her tote as she made the brisk two-block walk back to the shop. A sequel or a prequel? An unconnected stand-alone? She had no idea which yet, but she intended to find out. Key in hand, she tore up the stairs to her apartment, not even bothering to kick off her shoes before dropping into her reading chair and flipping on the lamp.
There could be no doubt that the books were meant to resemble one another, but side by side, the differences between them were more evident. A slightly waxier leather had been used to bind Forever, and Other Lies, and the bands on the spine were cleaner and sharper.
She picked up Forever, and Other Lies, holding it flat against her palm. Like its mate, it showed little sign of wear. And like its mate, it was strangely quiet. No echoes of any kind—at least while closed.
Breath held, she turned back the cover, braced for the waves of searing anguish she’d come to expect from Regretting Belle. At first, there was nothing, but after a moment, she became aware of a faint humming in the tips of her fingers. It was a cool, shivery sensation, quite different from what she’d been bracing for. She forced herself to remain still, letting the sensation build, a curious blend of numbness and pins and needles prickling up her arm like a slow-spreading frost, curling around her ribs and along her throat. Top note . . . heart note . . . base note.
Accusation. Betrayal. Heartbreak.
Ashlyn exhaled sharply as the intensity increased. This was nothing like Regretting Belle, which had nearly burned her fingers with its festering hostility and pent-up pain. In fact, this was the exact opposite. It was cold and cutting, like a January wind, and strangely . . . bloodless.
It was an odd way to describe anger, which usually registered as hot and sharp, like a slap. But there was no heat here, only a blue-white conflagration that felt like fire but wasn’t. No, that wasn’t right. It wasn’t anger she was picking up. It was despair. A void so deep, so achingly familiar, it made her throat clench.
The echoes were feminine.
Ashlyn stared at the open book, trying to wrap her head around what she appeared to be holding—and who had almost certainly written it. She held her breath as she turned to the title page. And there it was. A single line of slanted script.
How??? After everything—you can ask that of me?
The word me was underlined, not once but twice, and there was an angry blot of ink marring the question mark. Instinctively, she opened Regretting Belle and read the inscriptions together. A question and a response.
How, Belle? After everything . . . how could you do it?
How??? After everything—you can ask that of me?
Forever, and Other Lies
(pgs. 1–6)
August 27, 1941
New York, New York
A girl isn’t supposed to fall in love at her own engagement party.
She isn’t supposed to, but I did. But then, for a skilled pretender, I was easy prey. And you were quite skilled, as I soon learned.
But I won’t rush ahead. I must set the stage first, if I’m to tell it properly. And that’s what this is about. Telling it properly—as it really happened, rather than how you have reinvented it in your pretty little book. And so I’ll begin at the beginning, on the night the whole thing started, in the ballroom of the St. Regis Hotel.
I had accepted a proposal of marriage from a young man I more or less grew up with. Teddy, whose father was one of the wealthiest and most prominent men in New York and a business associate of my father. It was all rather tidy. Or so my father thought when he arranged it. A merger of our families’ fortunes.
Oh, I fought it. I had no wish to marry anyone in those days. I was barely twenty-one—still a child in many ways—and had seen my sister obediently married off, had watched her wither under her husband’s heavy hand and the incessant needs of the children she produced at alarmingly regular intervals.
Cee-Cee was a prominent figure in my childhood, particularly after my mother’s death. Nine years my senior, she wielded a firm hand in raising me, but then in those days, she wielded a firm hand in just about everything. She ran my father’s house with astonishing efficiency, managing the help, planning meals, and at the age of seventeen, assuming the role of hostess when he entertained. She became, in my eyes—and in my father’s, too, for a time—the lady of the house. But I saw how marriage diminished her, leaving her smaller somehow, less visible and less valuable.
As far as I could see, my sister’s chief contribution as a wife was that of a broodmare, and I found the prospect appalling. I wanted a life of my own: school, travel, art, adventure. And I meant to have it too. So you can imagine my surprise at finding myself in the ballroom of the St. Regis, standing at Teddy’s side in a new gown by Worth, being toasted by a veritable Who’s Who of New York society. But then, my father can be very persuasive when he’s made up his mind about a thing. And he’d made up his mind about Teddy.
“To the happy couple!”