I didn’t break eye contact. His sparkled with vicious delight.
“Let me touch you,” he rasped. And Goddess, yes, he was begging, every word desperate. “Let me feel you. Even though I don’t deserve you. Please.”
I slowly crawled over his body, until my hips were aligned with his. My dress was hiked up, silk pooling at my upper thighs—I knew we were both so agonizingly conscious of how close we were, as I let my hips lower just enough that his length brushed my folds. I bit down hard on my own moan at even that momentary, barely-there touch.
I wouldn’t let him see how much I wanted it.
I lowered myself to my elbows, leaving us inches apart.
“And?” I said.
His gaze glinted with pleasure, like a cat enjoying a game of chase. And yet, beneath that feral delight, something deeper lingered. His fingertips raised to my cheek. Not quite brushing it. Still obeying.
“Let me make you the queen that you are. Let me guard your body, your soul, your heart. Let me spend the rest of my fucking pathetic life at your mercy. If I need to die, then let me do it by your hand. Please.”
My chest ached, nearly as fiercely as my desire did.
My hips shifted, and I felt him twitch again, that tiny movement making my breath tremble.
“And?” I whispered.
He loosened a shaky exhale, the smirk twisting his lips. “And for fuck’s sake, princess, I’m begging you, let me go to my knees for you.”
We lingered like that, our bodies so close to total intertwinement, and yet not touching at all.
And then I whispered, “Fine.”
The thread of self-control snapped. If Raihn’s injuries slowed him down, he didn’t show it. His mouth crashed against mine, rolling over and pushing me down to the bed, his hand running up my body as if the last minutes of not touching me had been torturous.
And then, just as quickly, his weight was gone. Instead, he was off the bed, grabbing my legs and sliding me down.
And just as he promised, he went to his knees.
I couldn’t help but watch him, transfixed, as he gently pushed the silk of my skirt up around my hips, pushing open my thighs. In the presence of gods, he had not looked so reverent.
His gaze slowly raised to meet mine.
“Is this acceptable, princess?”
My brow twitched. “Princess?”
He laughed, low and rough. “Queen.”
He started at my inner thigh, his kisses so gentle they almost tickled, lifting my leg and placing it over his shoulder.
“My queen,” he whispered again, the words pressed to my skin with each kiss, trailing farther up the sensitive flesh of my inner thighs.
Mother help me. My thighs opened, making more room for him, my body conscious of nothing but the anticipation of his touch, his kiss.
When it came, right where I wanted it, he was gentle at first, pulling aside my delicate lace underwear and planting soft kisses along my slit.
So light. So gentle. And yet the shock of pleasure wrung my body tight, my back arching.
He hummed his approval against my skin, the vibration echoing through my core.
“Better,” he murmured. “Better than I remember. Better than your blood.”
Another touch of his tongue, this one a little firmer, ending it in a long, lingering kiss.
I clenched my jaw against the whimper of pleasure, my hands clutching the bedspread. Mother, I wouldn’t give him the satisfaction. Not yet. Even if it killed me.
Another touch, another gasp, another shock of pleasure.
Keeping my moans quiet now took herculean will, my teeth so tight I distantly thought they might crack.
More. The word was on the tip of my tongue. But I wasn’t asking Raihn for anything now.
“Let me worship you, Oraya,” he whispered, and something about the vibration of my name on his lips against the most sensitive parts of me made me shiver. It was wrought with such utter desperation. I had told him to beg. He was begging. “And let me taste you when you come. Please.”
His tongue met me firmer now, in a long lick up the length of my slit, swirling around my bud with just the faintest brush of his teeth.
Goddess help me. I—I couldn’t—
A strangled moan escaped me, breaking free from my attempts to swallow it.
His mouth still to me, Raihn met it with a groan of equal strength, like the sound was water to a man dying of thirst.
“Again,” he whispered. “Please.”
And Mother help me, I couldn’t have denied him. Not even if I’d wanted to. Because that sound broke the remaining vestiges of Raihn’s self-control, and suddenly his slow, languid work became fierce and desperate.
He worked at me like his singular purpose in life was to wring the most pleasure from my body—his mouth now firm and unrelenting, strokes hard and definitive, moving from my entrance, to my clit, and back, kissing and suckling. My hips ground against him, chasing his movements—I couldn’t help it, couldn’t control my own muscles anymore.
“Good,” he murmured. “Just like that. Let me help you.”
Yes, I thought, blindly. Yes, yes, yes.
And I didn’t realize until his growl of pleasure that I was saying it aloud, over and over again—giving him the answer he had been asking for. Giving him everything he wanted as he gave me everything I needed. My hands had found his head, tangling in red-black waves, unsure whether I was pulling him closer or pushing him away.
Closer, I decided, as his tongue worked at my clit in just the right way, as his fingers slid inside me, as his curse of pleasure shot up my spine like a bolt of lightning.
I loved his voice. I couldn’t even deny how much I loved his voice.
That was my last thought, before the wave of pleasure consumed me, wiping them all away.
When my orgasm faded, I was breathing heavily. A faint sheen of sweat covered my skin. My muscles felt loose and shaky. And yet, when I opened my eyes to see Raihn, naked, climbing back onto the bed, desire already stirred again.
He looked so damned beautiful—the lantern light playing over the bare panes of his body, marked by time and wounds and scars and a life well lived, flames reflecting in the lustful rust-red of his eyes, locked to me as if nothing else existed.
Seeing, as always, more than I wished he did.
Seeing, as always, me.
Suddenly I felt so wildly exposed, even though he was naked and I was fully clothed. The facade of my games had collapsed. The final heat of my anger had fizzled away like a candle dying in the night.
I blinked and felt a tear streak down my cheek.
Raihn settled beside me. He wiped the tear away with his thumb.
“I hate you,” I choked out. But the words weren’t an admonishment. They were weak, sad, bare.
They did not say, I hate you because you killed my father.
They said, I hate you because I let you hurt me.
I hate you because I grieved you.
I hate you because I don’t.
There was no hurt in his eyes. No anger. Only gentle, affectionate understanding. I hated when he looked at me like that.
Or maybe I hated that, too, the same way I hated him. Not at all.
He kissed me on the forehead.