Did he think I was threatening her? It’s what Neculai would have done.
But no. I just didn’t like that Vale had Turned some human woman and dragged her over here. I didn’t like it at all.
“It went as well as it could have,” he said. “She’s resting. A bit seasick on the journey. I wanted to get her settled.”
His expression softened, and that… that, I wasn’t quite expecting. It looked oddly close to actual affection.
I wasn’t sure if that made me feel any better. Neculai had loved Nessanyn, his wife. Hadn’t saved her from anything.
“Well. I’m glad you made it.” I gestured to the table and the maps strewn across it. “Plenty to catch you up on, as you can see.”
The consensus, after hours of talking, was that we were in deep shit.
Vale thought it was stupid that I had taken Septimus’s deal.
He thought it was very stupid that I had done so without negotiating his terms.
And he thought it was monumentally stupid that I had kept Oraya alive.
I dismissed these criticisms as casually as I could manage. I couldn’t justify why I had made those decisions without revealing more than I wanted to about my true motivations—motivations that held none of the vicious cruelty they wanted to see from me.
Still, the reality of our situation was bleak. The Hiaj were not backing down. They held on to several key cities. Two hundred years of power had made their forces strong. Vincent, even at the height of his power, hadn’t rested. He’d continued building his strength and whittling down the Rishan until we had almost nothing left.
That meant our brute strength relied almost completely on the Bloodborn. And yes, the bastards were efficient at what they did. They had bodies, and they were willing to throw them at anything. With the Bloodborn’s help, we’d managed to beat back many of the biggest Hiaj strongholds.
But it also meant that if Septimus decided to withdraw, we would be fucked. The Rishan forces just weren’t capable of holding up against the Hiaj alone.
Vale did not hide his frustration with this situation. A couple of centuries away from polite society had made him even more blunt than he used to be, which was saying something. Still, I had to admit that he was good at what he did. He ended the meeting with a list of recommendations to strengthen our position, and when we disbanded, he was already following Ketura out the door with a list of questions about our armies.
Cairis, though, lingered after Vale and Ketura were gone. I hated that—the hovering. He used to do it back then, too, when he was going to try to whisper something in someone’s ear and make it seem like it had all been their idea.
I sighed. “I don’t need to be handled. Just say it.”
“Fine. I’ll be straightforward. That went badly. We already knew the nobles hated you. Now—”
“Nothing was going to stop them from hating me. Actually, maybe we should’ve thought of that as a test. Which noble would bow willingly?”
“If it was a test,” Cairis said drily, “then no one passed.”
“Exactly. So let’s just execute them all.”
He gave me a long, steady stare, like he was trying to decide if this was a joke.
It was not. I raised my eyebrows, a silent, Well?
“Do you have people to install in their places?” he said.
“I could find someone.”
He leaned across the table, weaving his fingers together. “Who? Do tell.”
I hated when Cairis was right about things. He was just so damned smug about it.
“I’m just saying that you need to be careful.” His voice lowered, as if to evade prying ears. “We already rely far too heavily on the Bloodborn.”
Understatement. Septimus practically had me bent over his desk.
“The last thing we need,” he went on, “is to destroy the loyalty of the scant forces we do have. Appearances are everything. Which brings me to…” He cleared his throat. “Her.”
I rose, my hands stuffed in my pockets, and paced the room.
“What about her?”
A beat of silence that said, You know what.
Cairis seemed to be choosing his words with uncharacteristic care. “She is a danger to you.”
“She can’t act against me.”
“She won the Kejari, Raihn.”
My hand found its way to my chest—right where her dagger had pierced it. There was no scar, no mark. There wouldn’t be—with Oraya’s wish, the act had been undone. I could’ve sworn I felt it sometimes, though. Right now, it pulsed with a vicious throb.
But I hid all that as I turned to him with a smug smirk. “You can’t say it doesn’t look good, to have Vincent’s daughter leashed at my side.”
I’d always been a good mimic. I slipped a little of Neculai’s cruelty into my voice, just like I had that day in the ring, when I justified letting Oraya live with a litany of atrocities.
Cairis’s face was stone, unconvinced.
“After what he did to Nessanyn,” I added, “don’t you think we deserve that satisfaction?”
He flinched at the mention of Nessanyn. Just like I knew he would. Just like I often did, when old memories caught me off guard.
“Maybe,” he admitted, after a long moment. “But it doesn’t do anything to help her now.”
I swallowed and turned to the wall of books, pretending to admire the trinkets on the shelves.
I didn’t like to think about Nessanyn. But I’d been doing it a lot these last few weeks. She was everywhere in this castle. All of it was everywhere here.
I couldn’t help Nessanyn when she was alive. I couldn’t help her when she was dead. And here I was, just using her memory to manipulate the people around me.
She had been used her entire life. Now she was being used in death, too.
Cairis wanted me to be just like Neculai. He didn’t even know how close he was to getting that wish.
I withdrew my hands from my pockets. Some of Martas’s blood still remained under my fingernails.
“Don’t you hate them?” I said.
I’d meant for the question to sound more lilting, more casual, than it really did.
Because Cairis had been there for all of it, too. Just another one of Neculai’s pets.
And yet now he could sit here and advocate for an alliance with the people who had inflicted unimaginable degradation upon us. It genuinely amazed me.
“Of course I hate them,” he said. “But we need them. For now. Who wins if you kill them all and we lose the House of Night to Septimus? Not us. She used to say that, too, remember?” I turned to see a soft, distant smile on his face—a rare expression from him. “‘Remember who wins.’”
He said it fondly, but my teeth ground.
Yes, I remembered. Couldn’t even count how many times I got right up to the edge, just about to strike back. And whenever it happened, Nessanyn would stop me. Don’t let them win, she would beg, her big brown eyes deep and damp. Who wins if he kills you?
“I remember,” I said.