Zara had it wrong. If Nathan’s family were cast in a movie, his mother would be the critical mentor who was impressed only if you saved the world. Joe was the hero who walked into a zombie apocalypse, inspiring hope in everyone that they would make it out alive. But Beto was the real villain, and not the easily defeated kind who monologued while you reloaded a gun. He was sinister like a shadow, the devil that struck as soon as you forgot he was there.
Nathan liked to think of himself as the comic relief, but in reality, he was an expendable bit player who was too sensitive and emotional to survive till the end. As a kid, Nathan was quick to shed tears or have emotional outbursts. After Joe read him Where the Wild Things Are, it gave him nightmares for weeks. Even now, he could recall the terror that seized his five-year-old chest when Beto yanked the night-light from his wall, grumbling, “There are better things to be afraid of.”
Joe tried coping with the pressure of being Beto’s favorite by having modes he switched on and off like a computer. Big brother mode was the annoying, overprotective know-it-all who was obsessed with collared shirts. The Apollo mode made him the charming boyfriend who convinced Zara he’d make a good husband, even though he showed up late for his own wedding. Finally, there was the workaholic: the version of his brother who only left the office to yell at someone else for leaving work early. That mode put everything else on the back burner. Eating. Sleeping. Family. If it stayed on too long, it was almost impossible to turn off. Beto liked that mode the most.
Twelve years ago, Joe pushed himself so hard, for so long, that his body finally gave out. Nathan was fourteen when he had found his brother slumped on the floor of his office, sweaty and pale, staring at a coffee cup he swore had been put there by their dead grandfather.
When Beto arrived at the hospital, his favorite son was sleeping off sedation, strapped to beeping machines, while his youngest son sobbed incoherently in the corner. Before the doctors explained that Joe had experienced anxiety-induced psychosis and sleep deprivation, Nathan could tell Beto blamed him for Joe’s condition. That was the type of father he was, a man who viewed his children through a lens of bitter cynicism instead of empathy.
Nathan was sent to boarding school on the same day his brother was checked into an inpatient program. Joe had reassured Nathan they’d both be fine. “I know this feels big, but it’s not. We’re going to do what we have to and shrink all of this down to nothing. Things will get better. You’ll see.”
Nathan thought Joe meant he was done working for their father. What he had really meant was that he would take medication and stop eating meat because it was better for his heart. Joe could work twenty-four hours a day, whittling himself down to nothing, and never be convinced it was enough. Not for the favorite. Not for Beto’s Apollo.
Eventually, Nathan learned how to face Beto without falling apart, particularly during lectures about the family business. His father was predictable. Years had passed but the insults never changed.
“You can’t force a grown man to respect his legacy,” Beto grumbled, his eyes stubbornly fixed on Sofia. Criticizing Nathan directly would imply that his youngest son was present and visible, not a vague source of annoyance. “Particularly when it’s taken for granted.”
Joe moved closer to Nathan, ready to act as a human shield if necessary. “Come on, Dad, that’s not fair. Not everyone wants to pick apart coffee markets twenty-four hours a day.”
“Since when is work about want?” Beto punctuated his words by slapping his knuckles against his palm.
Nathan focused on a brass wall sconce and drained his voice of emotion. “It’s not the work I’m avoiding.”
“Same old excuses,” Beto sneered. “Repeating something doesn’t make it true.”
Beto had never liked that Nathan owned the laundromat, but on some level, he understood it. Nathan’s grandfather, Tomás, had started a billion-dollar corporation by purchasing a small Oaxacan coffee farm from his wife’s family. Tomás’s father was a banker who opened a chain of grocery stores that eventually became a subsidiary of Vasquez Industries. Being a true Vasquez meant taking ownership of your life and never answering to anyone but your family. Even Joe, burning through the days to keep their father happy, would never truly be respected until Beto decided he was ready to be CEO.
When Nathan told Beto he bought the laundromat, his father’s face had shown a rare glimmer of respect. But in his excitement, Nathan let it slip that he planned to use the basement as an art studio, and Beto had immediately dismissed the business as the whim of a spoiled son “too lazy to commit to something real.”
Beto moved to the head of the table and said, “Come sit down. All of you. I didn’t call you all here to chat in the hallway while my food gets cold.” Nathan chose the chair farthest from Beto. Sofia sat at the opposite end of the table, while Joe claimed a seat in the space between them.
Joe went straight for the vegetables. Nathan stacked his plate with as much food as it could contain and vowed to spend the rest of the evening silently chewing and swallowing. It wouldn’t be hard. The food was delicious. His mother hired only the best chefs to feed her family.
“Still got that appetite, I see.” Beto speared a piece of chicken. “Both of you look good—healthy. Are you still working out together?”
Joe glanced at Nathan, who bit into a bread roll instead of responding. “Yeah, we are,” Joe said. “Every other morning, I drag this one out of bed for a run. We lift at Abel’s Gym.”
“Nathan, you’re getting so big,” Sofia said. “Nice broad shoulders.” She glared at Joe’s plate. “It must be all that meat.”
Joe started grumbling about a late conference call and glanced at his watch. Nathan shoveled down more food, mentally drafting excuses about why he had to leave early. Beto recaptured their attention with a raised palm. “So, I asked your mother to extend this invitation because I wasn’t sure you would accept one from me.”
“You were right,” Nathan muttered and stabbed a potato. Joe gave him a look that would have been a kick under the table if they weren’t separated by an ocean of mahogany wood. Nathan took a breath and tried to soften his voice. “So, what’s going on?
Beto picked up his wine and took a long drink. He eyed his wife and children over the rim and took a deep breath. “I’m dying,” he said. “It’s a brain tumor. Inoperable. I’ve got… I don’t know… a few months. Maybe more, maybe less.”
Nathan’s fork slipped, crashing to his plate. He stared at the splattered mess and thought, This is just like Beto. Ruining dinner before anyone can enjoy it. But then he looked up and saw the truth in Joe’s horrified expression. Beto had a tumor. His father was dying.
“Wait,” Nathan said, and tried to push more air through his lungs. “That can’t be true.”
“How long have you known?” Joe looked like he was suffocating. “I mean, are you sure?”