I released a shuddering breath.
But that brief, powerful wave of relief crashed down hard when Acaeja turned back to Nyaxia and Atrius. For a split second, I thought that perhaps I was about to witness Atrius’s death—or a battle between the goddesses that would destroy all of us.
Yet Acaeja’s voice was calm when she spoke again.
“I have great sympathy for your pain and your grief, cousin. So, I will let you keep these victories. Let you keep the head of my acolyte. Let you keep this kingdom. But.” Her face darkened, the light of her eyes tinged shifting blue. The sky above us grew unnaturally purple, soundless cracks of lightning dancing over the stars. “Know this, Nyaxia. You have crossed a line here today. Done what cannot be undone. I have fought too long and too hard on your behalf to be disrespected like this. And you know that if it were any other but me standing before you now, the punishment would not be nearly so light.”
Nyaxia smiled sweetly. It reminded me chillingly of the smile I had seen in Atrius’s vision—the smile that doubled as a death promise.
“I long ago tired of the White Pantheon’s petty threats, Acaeja,” she said. “If Atroxus or his ilk want to come for me, let them come. I will fight harder than my husband did. I have none of his compassion.”
Acaeja stared at Nyaxia for a long moment. The threads on her fingers danced and wove, fanning out behind her wings as if running through a thousand possibilities of a thousand futures.
“I tried, cousin,” she said, softly. “You will not remember it. But let the fates show that I tried.”
And then, in a blaze of clouds and smoke and wings, Acaeja tipped her head to the heavens, and she was gone.
Nyaxia barely glanced after her.
“Such catastrophizing,” she muttered, pushing a sheet of star-dotted hair over her bare shoulder. Then she turned to Atrius, and that slow, night-hewn smile spread over her beautiful mouth again.
“Atrius of the Bloodborn,” she crooned. “You have served me well. You have exceeded my expectations. In return, I lift the curse I placed upon you, just as I promised.”
She leaned down and touched Atrius’s chest.
With that touch, a sudden burst of darkness overtook the world.
A soundless scream rang in my ears. My knees hit the stone ground before I knew what was happening, my body curling in on itself. The vampires restrained on the pillars slumped, barely conscious, against their restraints.
Atrius had doubled over, clutching his chest, his pain ringing out even through the chaos.
Nyaxia offered no further parting words. In that maelstrom of night, she was gone. And when it faded, my senses slowly slipping back to me, I pushed myself to my hands and knees only to immediately sense Atrius lying on the ground before me, lifeless.
I choked out his name and crawled to him. My head swam, and my limbs were wobbly beneath me. Darkness clawed at the edges of my senses, ready to pull me away at any moment.
But I still managed to make it to Atrius’s side, my hands sliding over his bare chest.
Fragments of his memories flashed through me—memories of the way Nyaxia had cruelly killed the Bloodborn prince even after he had fulfilled her greatest demands. For one terrible moment, I thought that she had done the same thing to Atrius.
If she had, I would—I would—
I couldn’t let myself finish the thought. I used the last of the energy I did not have to reach into Atrius’s aura, as deep as my exhausted magic could take me, right down to the core of his heart.
And there, I felt his soul. Weak. But alive.
And there was no rot here. Nothing consuming him.
I let out a shaky breath and sagged against him. With the rush of adrenaline leaving me, so did the rest of my sparse energy.
Atrius shifted weakly. He lifted his head, grunted a wordless sound. One hand found its way to my arm—rested there for a moment, as if he wasn’t sure what he was feeling.
His eyes opened, awareness returning to him just as mine slipped away.
His fingers tightened, and with that pressure, the reality of our relationship crashed down around me.
I had betrayed him. He would kill me for it. Any king would do the same.
These truths took root in my heart.
Perhaps I hallucinated the way he said my name.
I opened my mouth to speak as Atrius sat up, but darkness took me before the words could come. They’d be useless, anyway.
48
I awoke in my room once again.
I recognized the location immediately. While before I had known it by its innate familiarity, now I knew it by an indescribable difference—every one of those familiar smells and sensations just a little changed, like the light had shifted in some inexplicable way.
I lay there, not moving. At first, I thought that the last day—had it been only a day? How long had it been?—had been a dream. Surely I had dreamed of betrayals and confessions and broken curses and goddesses—goddesses—standing right before me.
But my hand lifted and touched my cheek, my finger tracing the path a goddess had touched. The skin felt so deceptively normal. And yet... not normal at all.
The threads were tangled, my grip on them awkward. I sat up, re-establishing my hold—
—And came face-to-face with the conqueror.
He was lounging in the armchair in the corner, one heel propped up on the coffee table, a mirror of his pose the first time I had woken up in his presence, months and a lifetime ago. In his hands was a dagger.
The dagger.
“I was starting to think,” he said, “that you wouldn’t ever wake up.”
He looked at the blade, casually twirling it from one hand to the other, not at me.
He would execute me with it. I was sure of it.
“I’m a bit surprised I did,” I said, and if Atrius understood the implication of that sentence, he didn’t react to it at all.
He didn’t say anything at first, still examining the dagger, eyes lowered. I could not help but drink him in—the presence of him that had grown so intimately familiar to me. How could the man who was about to kill me feel so comforting? Why did I want to press his threads to my soul, deep enough I’d take their memory with me when I went?
I traced my awareness over the planes of his lowered, serious face, the tendrils of his hair—the ridged darkness of his horns, on perfect display with the angle.
“You still have those,” I said. “Even though the curse is gone.”
The corner of his mouth twitched. “She couldn’t be too kind, apparently.”
No, no one could say that Nyaxia was too kind. But then, no one could say it for any of the gods, I supposed. I had the distinct feeling that the only reason Acaeja had declined to take my head as repayment for the Sightmother’s was, somehow, entirely selfish, even if I didn’t understand why.
Useful, she had called me.
He picked up the blade again, turned it slowly between his fingertips. “So. This was the weapon that was intended to kill me.”
My jaw tightened.
I was prepared for this, I told myself.
I inclined my chin. “Yes.”