My insides twisted. I wanted to give her this. Cady deserved to have raucous family dinners and to be surrounded by people who loved her. But the idea of exposing myself to Roan’s scrutiny each and every week had me on edge.
“Let me check my work schedule. Hopefully, we can make it.”
Lawson gave me a warm smile. “I know it’ll make Charlie happy.”
“Can we have a sleepover, Dad?” he asked.
Lawson’s lips twitched. “It’s a school night, buddy.”
“We’ll go to sleep early,” Charlie promised.
Lawson chuckled. “Likely story.”
His oldest son slunk by, heading for the door to the basement. Lawson clapped Luke on the shoulder. “Say goodbye to Ms. Barlow and Cady. They’re leaving.”
Luke looked at me briefly, and I didn’t miss the shadows in his eyes. “Bye.”
“So verbose,” Lawson muttered with a shake of his head.
Luke just grunted and disappeared into the basement.
I sent Lawson a reassuring smile. “I don’t think the teenage years are easy on any parent.”
“I’ve got one who’s going to be breaking hearts left and right and another who won’t say more than two words to me.”
I winced. “That’s quite the combo.”
Nathan came up and thumped his son on the back. “This might be payback for what you and your siblings put us through.”
“We were angels,” Nash called from the living room.
Nathan snorted and then grinned at me. “If we haven’t scared you off, please come again next week.”
“I’m made of stronger stuff than letting Hartley chaos run me off.”
He laughed. “I knew I liked you.”
There was a warmth to Nathan that made my chest ache. I couldn’t imagine what it must have been like growing up with him as a dad instead of one who took off when I was less than a month old.
Cady waved to him. “See you next week.”
Nathan smiled at her. “I’m counting on it. I want a rematch in Go Fish.”
Cady beamed. “You might want to practice.”
Kerry choked on a laugh. “I’ll try to get him up to snuff, Cady.”
I hated that I looked for him as we left. Roan had disappeared without a word after dinner as if he’d hit his threshold for people time. Now, he was nowhere to be found.
Cady chattered on and on about the Hartleys as we walked to my station wagon. I loaded her into the back seat and climbed behind the wheel. I turned the key in the ignition, and the engine sputtered. I winced and tried again. Still nothing.
My palms started to sweat. This wasn’t happening. Not here. Not now.
I closed my eyes and tried again. Only sputtering.
A knock sounded to my left, and I jumped.
Roan’s face filled my vision: slightly wild light brown hair, angular jaw, and piercing blue eyes. He made a motion for me to roll down the window.
I did it automatically.
“Problem?”
“This happens,” Cady answered helpfully.
Roan arched a brow, and my cheeks heated.
“It just takes a second to catch sometimes,” I explained unhelpfully.
“Pop the hood.”
“You don’t need—”
“Pop the hood,” Roan repeated, his tone brooking no argument.
I ground my teeth together but did as he asked. “Overbearing, grumpy, too gorgeous for his own good,” I grumbled.
Roan lifted the hood, blocking himself from my vision.
“Is he gonna fix it?” Cady asked.
“I don’t know. I hope so.”
“Mr. Grizz is the best,” she said with a sigh.
He was certainly something.
A few minutes later, Roan shut the hood and came back to my window.
I rolled it down again.
He bent, the faint scent of sandalwood teasing my nose. “You’ve got some corroded cables. Need to get them replaced.”
I winced, wondering how much that would set me back. “I’ll take it in tomorrow. Is it drivable?”
“Give it a try.”
I turned the key again, and the engine caught. The air left my lungs on a whoosh. “Thank you.”
“I’m going to follow you home.”
“What?” The word came out as more of a squeak.
Roan’s expression hardened. “It’s not safe for you to drive an unreliable vehicle home in the dark.”
I bit back an annoyed retort. “It’ll be fine. It never dies while I’m driving. It’s just hard to start sometimes.”
Roan’s gaze drifted to the starry horizon as if he were searching for control. “Just gonna make sure you make it home. Should check on the deer anyway.”
I started to argue, but Cady cut in. “Dory would love to see you, Mr. Grizz.”
Roan’s gaze shot to her, and his expression gentled. “Came up with a name, huh?”
Cady bobbed her head in a nod. “You like it?”
“Fits her.”
Cady grinned as if he’d just paid her the highest compliment.
Roan glanced back at me. “You gonna let me follow you home, or you gonna make me stand out here all night freezing my ass off?”
“That’s a bad word, Mr. Grizz. Words can hurt.”
Roan’s lips twitched. “Sometimes, a situation calls for harsh language.”
I scowled at him. “Let’s go before you teach my girl the F-word.”
Roan simply grunted and headed for his truck.
“What’s the F-word, Mama?”
Great. Just great.
8
ROAN
Aspen’s taillights glowed in front of me, a taunting, aggravating reminder. Her station wagon needed more work than it was probably worth. My back molars ground together at the thought. Based on the state of her barn, I doubted she had the cash for it.
My gut twisted as I thought about her and Cady making their way around town in an unsafe vehicle. And it just pissed me off that I cared. Grae loved them. That was why I gave a damn. It sounded like bullshit, even to my ears.
Aspen’s blinker flashed, and she turned right onto Huckleberry Lane. At least the snow was mostly gone on the road. The rest would melt in the next couple of days. That was good. The wildlife around here wasn’t ready for winter. They still needed time to prepare.
The station wagon pulled to a stop in front of the farmhouse. They needed a garage. There was too much snow in these mountains to get by without one, not to mention they were exposed walking into their house in the dark.
I threw my truck into park and turned off the engine. Sliding out, I drew up short as Cady grabbed my hand.
“Come on! We gotta check on Dory.”
Something foreign shifted in my chest. The little girl had no fear of me. It was a bizarre sensation, that innocent trust. So kind it almost hurt.
Cady tugged harder on my hand. “Come on,” she urged.
My lips twitched. The little thing was strong, too. I had no choice but to follow.
Cady pulled on the barn door, and I helped her open it. The animals were already in for the night, making sounds of greeting. There were too many for me to identify.
I glanced back at Aspen. “How many animals do you have?”
She rolled her lips over her teeth. “I think I’ve lost count at this point.”
I heard pigs, donkeys, ducks, chickens, a pony, and who knew what else. I shook my head.
Aspen shrugged. “Everyone needs a place to belong. Somewhere they feel safe. I like being that for them.”
My gut burned as I stared into those green eyes. But I couldn’t get words to form. It didn’t matter. I never said the right things anyway.
I forced my gaze back to the aisle that Cady led me down.