“Your counselor.” He points at the fax. “When were you planning on telling us that you’re failing all your courses? Just last week you told us that everything was going fine, and now I find out that you were lying to us again.”
A wave of embarrassment flushes over me. All of a sudden, I’m a ten-year-old kid again, being chastised at the dinner table for hiding my report card. I can feel everyone’s eyes on me, waiting for me to explain myself. Apparently, we can’t go a single holiday dinner without me giving a Sorry for being the family screw-up speech. It might as well be a course on the menu at this point.
“Thanks for the warm introduction, Dad.” I take a sip of the club soda Marie hands me, trying my best to play it cool. “It’s good to see you too.”
“Cut the crap, Penelope.”
His tone is harsher than I ever remember it being. It stings like ice water to the face on a snowy day. The corners of my eyes prickle with tears.
“Calm down, Carter,” Nana Rosie says. Her voice is calm but stern. “We’re supposed to be sitting down to Thanksgiving dinner. Not a boxing match.”
“We’ve talked on the phone every week this semester and never once did you mention you were struggling.” His face is red with heat. He jabs at the fax with his index finger. “Why would you lie to us? If your mother and I knew you were in trouble, we would’ve found a way to help you. You promised that we would be a team this semester, Penelope. You swore it.”
“Dad, she really did plan on telling you both today,” Phoebe says.
“Have you been blowing off classes like you did last semester?” my mother asks. “What about the money we sent you for private tutoring? Where did that go?”
I roll my eyes. “Mostly to my cocaine dealer, Mother.”
“Not funny,” my mother snaps. “Why is everything a joke with you?”
“Genetics are a mysterious thing,” I fire back. “Phoebe got the brains, and I got the jokes.”
“I’m going to fly back to Princeton with you,” my father says. “You and I are both going to meet with your counselor and whatever dean I can get a meeting with. I’ll see if I can get your academic probation extended, and you’ll go along with whatever option they give us. Do you understand, Penelope?”
I don’t. That’s the problem. And it’s not just Princeton I don’t understand. It’s my parents. Why do they so desperately want me to fit in at a place I so clearly don’t belong? And how do they not see that I don’t belong there?
“I’m sorry, but I’m not cut out to be who you want me to be.” My voice shakes despite my best efforts to steady it. “I wanted to go to school to major in creative writing.”
“Writing is a hobby.” My father shakes his head twice. “Do you have any idea how many students your age would kill to have the advantages you’ve been given? Do you know how many kids fresh out of college my company turns away? All you have to do is pass your classes, Penelope. That’s all I—”
I push my seat away from the table and toss my napkin on the chair.
“Where are you going?” my mother asks frantically. “Penelope, sit down.”
“I’m going across the street,” I say over my shoulder.
My father growls. “Let me guess. That damn Mackenzie boy is back.”
“You can’t run away every time a conversation doesn’t go your way, Penelope,” my mother says.
“I’m not running away,” I say. “I’m going to dance under the full moon with that damn Mackenzie boy’s mother. Naked. Open the blinds tonight if you need to find me.”
Chapter 10
Penny: I’m doing it again.
Jackie: Doing what?
Chelsey: Kegels?
Penny: Turning into the worst version of myself.
Penny: I swear, the minute I land back in this zip code, I go all Paris and Nicole from the early ’00s.
Jackie: I’m going to need you to be more specific.
Chelsey: At least you’re not wearing a velour tracksuit with JUICY on your ass.
Penny: Honestly, it’s too much to text.
Chelsey: Video chat?
Jackie: Maybe in the morning before I’m completely drunk with my NJ cousins?
Jackie: 10 AM?
Chelsey: I can make that work.
Penny: I’ll try.
Chelsey: And Penny, just remember that we love you.
Chelsey: No matter what version of yourself you are.
Jackie: Seconded.
Those smut witches are the best humans on the planet, and I am simply not worthy of their friendship.
Penny: Love you hoes.
“Knock, knock.” Martin pushes open the door warily. “I’ve been instructed to inform you that your guest has arrived.”
“Thanks,” I say dryly. I walk across the room to my purse and empty it out on Phoebe’s bed. “I’ll be down in a sec.”
“I’ve, uh, considered your request.” He clears his throat. “While I think it’s the strangest favor anyone has ever asked of me, I’ll do it. Under one condition.”
“If you’re hoping there’s going to be a second peep show—”
“No. Believe it or not, I haven’t asked a girl to show me her boobs since high school. And for the record, that was a dare.”
“All right, then.” I unclasp my necklace, which has gotten tangled in my hair and Diane Keaton dress. “What’s your condition?”
“You help get me out of playing golf with your father on Friday.”
“Not a golfer? You look like a golfer.”
“What’s that supposed to mean?” He quirks his brow. “It doesn’t seem complimentary.”
“That you look like a guy who likes to swing a stick around while smoking a cigar and riding in a little car?” I struggle to clasp my necklace over the turtleneck. “I don’t know. I thought liking golf was a requirement at my father’s office.”
“Let me help you with that.” He holds out his hand for the necklace. “I’ve got four sisters. I’m pretty good with clasps.”
I turn around and hold my hair to the side and out of his way. “All right. I’ll find a way to get you out of it. I can’t promise that you’ll like it more than golf, though.”
“Virtually anything would be better.” His hands hover above my shoulders, sending a thousand shivers across my skin. “There. You’re all set. It’s a beautiful necklace.”
“Thanks.” My cheeks flush with heat. “It’s my favorite.”
“So, we have a deal?” He holds out his hand for me to shake.
I shake his hand. “Deal.”
He opens the door and presses his hand to my lower back. His touch is light, almost imperceptible, but to me it feels like a hot knife slicing through butter. It’s been far too long since someone’s touch has melted me, real or not, and I’d forgotten how exciting it is.
“After you,” he says. “By the way, you look very nice tonight.”
“Aw, I’m sure you say that to all the girls you fake date.”
“Actually, you’re my first.”
He smiles at me devilishly, and I somehow manage to resist the urge to make a joke about virginity. No matter what performance Martin and I put on this evening, keeping my mouth closed right now is my Academy Award–winning moment.
We breeze down the hallway at a steady clip. I give him the abridged version of my history with Smith, and he gives me some basic details about his life. He’s the youngest of five and the only son. He’s originally from Kentucky, went to college at Yale, and moved to California a few months ago after my father hired him.
“Why not go back home for Thanksgiving?” I ask. “I mean, believe me, I understand not wanting to go home, but isn’t staying with your boss’s family just as stressful?”
“I don’t know if you know this,” he whispers as we round the corner to the dining room, “but your dad is a pretty cool guy.”
“No one in my entire life has ever called my dad cool,” I say. “Is your family the Donner Party?”
“They’re actually gluten-free vegans.”
“From Kentucky?”
“A rare breed.”
“Somehow that seems worse.”