Marguerite raised her eyebrows. “Are there some paladins that you would suggest not fight demons?”
He nodded. “I would not allow Stephen or Galen to do so. Marcus, I would watch closely. Wren or Istvhan, I would have no fear. Judith…” He trailed off, shaking his head.
Now that’s interesting. Possibly not of much use at the moment, but Marguerite could easily see it being so in the future. “Is it all a matter of control, then? Willpower?”
“Not willpower. There is no lack of will in any of them.” He rubbed the back of his neck. “The god’s hand lay more lightly on Wren and Istvhan, that is all. Or perhaps they are simply better adjusted than the rest of us. Unless their emotions are very deeply involved, the tide is not such a danger to them as some others. Regardless, if you are concerned about Wren going on a rampage through the court, do not be.”
“Well, I wasn’t,” said Marguerite dryly.
Shane actually smiled a little at that. Somewhere in there is a rudimentary sense of humor, and I will drag it kicking and screaming into the light. “Honestly, it’s not a rampage I’m worried about,”
she continued. “I’m more concerned that she’ll wind up curled in a ball sobbing at night because a pack of spoiled beauties are being cruel to her. Some things cut deep.”
His smile was replaced with grimly set lips. “That may happen,” he admitted.
“I don’t want that to happen.”
“Nor do I. Nevertheless, our orders are clear. She will not thank you for removing her from the assignment.” He folded his arms. “The cure may be worse than the disease, in this case. She would never admit that someone else’s words had so much power over her.”
“The whole world is made of words,” said Marguerite irritably. “Treaties and contracts and secrets and laws are nothing but words, but everything runs on them. Of course they’ve got power.”
He inclined his head politely. “As you say.”
“Right.” She sighed gustily. “Well, you know her better than I do. Just…keep an eye on things, and
if you think she’s starting to crack, tell me immediately. Hell, tell me if you think she just needs a break for a day or two. Beartongue told me that Wren will never admit when she’s overmatched, but that you can tell.”
“The Bishop places too much trust in me.”
“I doubt that.” Marguerite reached for the door handle. “The Bishop doesn’t strike me as a trusting soul.”
“She trusted you on this mission.”
“Yes. But only because you’re here to watch me.” She grinned and closed the door on Shane’s sudden startled expression.
NINETEEN
SHANE LAY in bed with his arms behind his head and contemplated the sins of the flesh.
He had not wanted a woman’s body so badly in years. After the Saint’s death, lust had faded to another merely physical need. A generous servant of the Rat had met those needs, and he liked to think that she had not gone away unsatisfied from the bargain, but it had meant little more than eating or drinking. He knew that she had taken other lovers and he had been neither surprised nor jealous.
And then Marguerite had come along and suddenly those hungers roared back to life as if they had never left at all.
He had done well. He had almost convinced himself that it had simply been too long and that his response when he touched her after her fall was nothing but the aftermath of adrenaline. You made too much of it. You always do. You drag guilt into every interaction. Even the moments since were only the appetites of a man working closely with an attractive woman.
Then Marguerite had looked at him with clear admiration and grinned like a cat presented with a bowl of cream and he had been a heartbeat from doing something…rash. Something that he would definitely have to feel guilty about.
It wasn’t even that she was beautiful. She was, of course, with those curves and breasts and thighs, but she would likely have been beautiful no matter what her body looked like. Marguerite carried herself as if she were beautiful, and the rest of the world simply fell in line behind her.
It was that confidence that drew Shane the most. Having so little of his own, hers blazed like a torch before him. She reminded him of Bishop Beartongue in that regard. Both women had an assurance that owed nothing to arrogance, but to an absolute knowledge of their own abilities and a rock-solid belief that they would never let themselves down.
For Shane, with the constant whisper of failure and ruin in his ears, the pull was undeniable. Tell me what you want of me, he wanted to say. Tell me what you believe I can do. Tell me how not to fail you, and I will serve.
You could not say such things to another person.
She isn’t like Beartongue, though. She’s a spy. She tells rich merchants how to corner the market on lace. Just because this time she wants to do something that Beartongue believes is a
good idea doesn’t mean that she’s usually on the side of angels.
She’d also saved all their lives once. Shane felt like an ingrate for suspecting the worst of her, then immediately felt na?ve for assuming that she hadn’t done it for reasons of her own.
Suppose your wildest fantasies came true and she was willing to take you into her service and into her bed. How long before you were complicit in acts that only served to grind the poor underfoot and make rich men richer? Over something as ridiculous as lace?
If you were an unstoppable killing machine, it was very helpful to have a god providing your moral direction. In the absence of the Saint, the paladins had a bishop. But in the absence of the bishop…
The gods help us all. Shane thought briefly of Judith, wherever she had gone, and prayed that she did not find herself alone in some ethical quagmire. Though she’d likely handle it better than I would. And at least she wouldn’t tie herself in knots being attracted to someone.
He finally accepted that he was not going to sleep any time soon, got to his feet, dressed quietly, and went to go find the drink that Ossien had suggested.
THE BAR WAS EXACTLY as advertised, a small, unpretentious place with a number of tables and a long counter on one side. Ossien was sitting at it, and hailed Shane with a wave when he came in. “Hey, knight. What are you drinking?”
“My sins,” muttered Shane, mostly to himself.
“They got beer and whiskey. Either of those answer?”
“Beer.”
“Sorry there’s no better,” said the bartender, sliding a mug across the bar to him. “It’s the strike, you know.”
Shane didn’t actually know. Ossien explained. “The boatmen on the lake are on strike. Say they’re done working all hours moving goods for the privilege of being treated like dirt by the Court. So they’re demanding better. No goods coming here from the highlands, none going back across until they get it.” He tilted his mug. “The best drink comes out of the highlands, though, so we’re left with this in the meantime.”