No One Can Know

She kept it simple. The lie didn’t need to be complicated, it just needed to be consistent. But it had still fallen apart. Tiny mistakes that added up. Then the police finding out about Gabriel, combined with Hadley’s vendetta.

“I thought one of you must have done it,” Emma repeated carefully. She couldn’t quite look her sisters in the eye. “I didn’t want to know who. I didn’t want to know for sure.”

JJ’s teeth bit down on her lower lip until it blanched white. She looked like she was about to speak, but Emma cut her off.

“It doesn’t matter who killed them.” Her voice shook, but her words were clear. “We wouldn’t have all survived. We wouldn’t have all made it out of that house alive. This way we did. So it doesn’t matter who did it. It had to be done.”

“They didn’t deserve to die,” JJ said, but she didn’t sound like she believed it.

“Plenty of people die who don’t deserve it. They at least deserved it more than most,” Daphne said with a shrug. “They were abusive. The things they did, maybe they weren’t—maybe we never would have been taken away from them. We had everything we needed. Food and a good house and money and healthcare, and it’s not actually illegal to hit your children, as fucked-up as that is. But I wanted to—not die, but—”

“Disappear,” Emma said, hollow.

She’d never really had the chance to grieve her parents. The investigation had swallowed up any opportunity to pause and feel what was happening, and now it was like all that emotion had been stitched up inside of her and the seams were coming loose.

Did they deserve to die? She didn’t know. She’d hated them in a way that was indistinguishable from love, loved them in a way that might have been hatred. She had feared her father and resented her mother and wanted to leave forever, but there were good memories, too, there must be, she would remember them soon. A good birthday, a day at the park, a kind word. She knew they existed, but they skittered away from her groping mind now. All she could remember of her parents was the sound of a blade tearing through canvas and the darkening shade of red against her mother’s pale skin.

“I hated them,” JJ said. Her fingernails dug into the meat of her arm. “I thought that I could keep pretending to be Perfect Juliette until Daphne got out of school. But eventually they were going to find out what I was up to.”

“I never told anyone. Never,” Emma said. “Not about the blood, Daphne. Or your clothes, JJ. I kept quiet because I’d never been able to protect you. Not from Mom and Dad. But from the police … I could do that. But then you left me. Both of you.” She didn’t mean to sound so pathetic. “Did you think that I did it? Did you think—”

“I was afraid,” Daphne said, and Emma fell silent. “There were letters. Anonymous notes. They would say things like ‘I know’ and ‘You’ll never be safe.’ So I thought I had to keep quiet, or my sisters would die. I thought I could keep you safe by staying away.”

JJ looked startled. “I got the same kind of letters,” she said.

Emma frowned. “I never…” she started, but then she realized she was wrong. “I thought they were from Hadley. He used to call me all the time, I assumed the letters were him, too, trying to get me to talk.”

Daphne’s head tilted. “So you thought it was Hadley trying to get you to confess, and I thought they were someone trying to get us to keep quiet?” she asked. “Seems like whoever it was had a messaging problem.”

Emma barked out a laugh, startling all of them, and she clapped a hand over her mouth. She stood, pacing a bit, needing the movement.

She’d missed them. Her sisters.

They hadn’t always liked one another. They hadn’t always helped one another. But they’d been in this house together, and together, they’d stayed alive. They’d survived, and they’d needed one another to do it.

She didn’t want to know. She just wanted to be with them again. To be home. And for all the rest of it not to matter—their parents and Nathan and all of it.

“Emma,” Daphne said. She folded her hands in her lap, her expression apologetic.

She couldn’t avoid it. She couldn’t have her sisters and her ignorance, and let the rest of the world fade.

She had to know.

“Tell me,” she said, and they did.





44

DAPHNE




Then



Daphne kneels beside her mother and stares at Juliette, standing in the doorway to the study.

Juliette has the gun.

She holds it at her side with a strange ease, so relaxed that it’s almost as if she’s forgotten she’s holding it. There is a streak of blood on the side of her thumb and a speckling of it on her shirt and her face, fine glistening drops that smear when she raises her hand to wipe her cheek. “What are you doing, Daph?” she asks, her voice oddly toneless.

“I—I was—” Daphne says. She looks down and realizes her mother has stopped breathing. The pulse at her neck has gone still. Out of her misery, Daphne thinks.

“Come look,” Juliette says. She gestures with the gun. Its barrel sweeps over Daphne and she cringes.

“Juliette, please don’t—”

“Come on,” Juliette says, impatient. Daphne lurches to her feet, balling her hands into fists and forcing herself to approach. Juliette doesn’t quite have the gun pointed at her, but it isn’t pointed very far away, either. None of it makes sense. Juliette shouldn’t be here. Juliette shouldn’t have the gun.

In the study, their father’s body is slumped in his chair. There is no misery for him. No way he is still alive, or lived for more than a moment after the bullet smashed through his skull. Juliette approaches and Daphne follows.

“Look. You can see his brain,” Juliette says, pointing, her finger so close to the wound that it almost touches.

Daphne slaps it away with a sound of horror.

Juliette stares at her. “Is this real?” she asks. Her face crumples. She looks like she’s going to cry. What’s wrong with her? “No, no, no, no,” she’s saying, and she puts her hands to her head, the gun still gripped in one of them.

“Juliette. Juliette, stop,” Daphne says. She has her finger on the trigger. Daphne can see the bullets still in the gun, two chambers in the revolver empty. “Juliette, put down the gun, please.”

Juliette looks in seeming surprise at the gun in her hand. Daphne reaches for it, and Juliette doesn’t resist as she takes it. Her fingers wrap around the barrel. Her fingerprints are on it, she thinks. Juliette’s, too. They have to get rid of it.

Juliette is stumbling away. She makes choked sounds that are almost like sobbing but more animal. Daphne starts after her but then she stops. Her eyes drift across the room, to the drawer where her father put the flash drive.

She still doesn’t know what the files on the flash drive meant, but she knows they were dangerous. Could still be dangerous. She darts across the room. She snatches the drive from the drawer and turns. She is staring right into her father’s face. His eyes are open, bulging. There is a ragged hole at his temple. Even so, she half expects him to straighten up. To fix her with those hard, angry eyes and demand to know what she thinks she is doing.

She runs past him into the hallway. Juliette stands in the great room, eyes unfocused.

“They’re going to kill me,” she says, looking at Daphne.

“Stay here,” Daphne begs her. She grabs the key to the carriage house from its hook by the front door. Inside, she moves aside boxes until she finds a plastic toolbox abandoned at the back of the building. She grabs a rag, wraps the flash drive in it, and shoves it inside. She takes the gun to the corner of the building, where the floorboards have rotted through—another thing their father is always about to get around to—and the dirt underneath is visible. She digs down with a spade fetched from a table. Six inches deep, she buries the gun, and then pulls a crate over the hole to hide it. She runs back into the house.

Juliette is gone. There are bloody boot prints leading to the back door but no Juliette. Daphne runs outside. She opens her mouth to call for Juliette, then shuts it. Juliette’s gone. She’s alone. Her parents are dead inside and no one is here to tell her what to do.

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