No One Can Know

Why had he even had Hadley’s number?

Emma’s unfocused gaze went to the wall. She could imagine it perfectly. Hadley sidling up to Nathan. Hadley offering an apology for that scene in the hardware store, Nathan insisting that no, it was Hadley who was owed the apology. A business card slipped into Nathan’s hand. In case you need anything.

In case you notice anything.

In case you wise up to the fact that your wife is a nutcase who probably murdered two people.

Nathan had found a flash drive—the flash drive?—in the carriage house. He’d checked what was on it and immediately called Hadley.

Now Nathan was dead. And Hadley hadn’t mentioned getting a call from him.

There was one place she was certain she could find Hadley alone. His house.

She took an Uber. She sat at the bus stop down the street for almost three hours before Hadley’s SUV pulled up in front of the meticulously maintained two-story Craftsman. Emma waited another few minutes before she stood and crossed the street.

The doorbell had a camera in it. She pretended not to see it as she rang and stared straight ahead at the door, schooling her face into neutrality. Inside, a dog barked wildly, and she heard Hadley’s gruff voice telling it to shut up.

Chris would be incandescently angry if he knew she was here. Gabriel would call her an idiot, and she couldn’t deny it. But she wasn’t waiting around for the police to find the wrong answers to the wrong questions again. This was on her.

The frantic barking approached at high-speed, accompanied by the skitter of dog claws on hardwood. She heard the dog smack paws-first into the door and start scrabbling, followed by heavy footsteps and Hadley’s voice again.

“Goddammit, get off,” he said, and then he opened the door, using his body to block a caramel-colored, curly-haired dog that appeared to be constructed from springs by the way it was bouncing up and down. Despite herself, Emma had to suppress a smile.

Hadley was dressed in his off-duty uniform of a black T-shirt and jeans. He looked her up and down, then scowled at the dog. “I said off. Sit. For fuck’s sake,” he told it. The dog, which looked like something between a teddy bear and a muppet, finally sank down on its wiggling haunches. The strain of holding in its boundless enthusiasm made it quiver. Hadley took a steadying breath through his nose and turned his attention back to Emma. “What are you doing here?” he asked. He sounded genuinely baffled.

She steadied herself, planting her feet. “Nathan called you,” she said. “Last night. Why?”

He looked at her, his hand on the door, then gave a slow nod. “Why don’t you come inside, Emma?” he suggested with faux cordiality, stepping back to give her room.

She hesitated, suddenly wary. No one knew she was here.

“Come on, Emma. You came here to talk. So let’s talk. Before the mutt makes a run for it,” Hadley said, and the spike of annoyance at his tone gave her the spur to step over the threshold. He had left little enough room that she had to brush past his solid chest, catching the edge of his body heat and his scent, Old Spice and shoe polish. She didn’t like putting her back to him but forced herself to walk inside.

The instant she was past the threshold the dog’s obedience reached its limit, and it sprang in her direction with a delighted whimpering. Its paws caught her in the midsection, only to be immediately yanked back by Hadley’s hand on its collar.

“Damn it, dog,” he said.

“It’s fine,” Emma said quickly, flinching at the rough way he handled the dog. When he released it, this time it wriggled forward without jumping up, and she extended a hand to be bathed.

“He’s my wife’s,” he said defensively. “She doesn’t train him.”

“I don’t mind,” Emma said. She’d always wanted a dog. Dogs didn’t give a shit about your past, they just wanted your love. Nathan was allergic.

With the dog trotting happily at her heels, she followed Hadley deeper into the house.

The house had hardly changed at all since she’d last been in here. They’d had dinner with the Hadleys at least once a month. Marilyn would cook, which she’d hated, and they would pretend it was delicious. The girls would sit in silence as the adults talked, and then at the end of dinner, Hadley and their father would go out to the back porch to drink and talk while the girls did the dishes and the “ladies” slid poisoned barbs under each other’s skin while smiling over their glasses of chardonnay. A choreographed dance that rarely changed.

“Is Marilyn home?” Emma asked. Everything in the house was white. White kitchen, white dining table, white couch in the living room in front of a white marble fireplace. There was a mug of coffee out on the kitchen counter and a stack of dishes next to the sink, which she couldn’t imagine Marilyn tolerating.

“Marilyn moved to Portland eight years ago,” Hadley said. “Married some accountant.” He said this like she’d married a cannibal.

“Sorry,” Emma said, without particular inflection.

“Alison,” he said. She blinked a moment before realizing it must be his new wife’s name. He nodded toward the mantel, where a series of artfully arranged photographs showed Hadley with a blond woman who had to be at least fifteen years his junior. They were outnumbered by pictures of the dog.

“I’d ask you if you want coffee, but somehow I doubt this is going to be that kind of visit,” Hadley said.

She grunted in agreement. He jerked a hand toward the kitchen table, and she took a seat. The dog immediately settled at her feet with a contented sigh. Hadley leaned up against the kitchen counter nearby, forcing her to crane her neck up at him. The heat of the imminent confrontation flickered and faded in her chest, leaving her feeling tentative, vulnerable. He crossed his arms and looked down at her with a frown.

“Emma Palmer,” he said, like her name was a revelation. “You’ve been through the ringer, haven’t you?”

“What’s that supposed to mean?”

His face remained calm. “I mean you’ve had a hell of a life. Losing your parents and your husband so violently,” he said. “I’m saying you’ve been through a lot, and I’m sorry for your losses.”

“You think I killed my parents,” Emma pointed out.

He made a noise like he disagreed. “I think you lied about where you were, and there’s good evidence that your boyfriend—your friend, sorry—was in that house,” Hadley said. “I know you thought it was me causing all your problems, but I wasn’t in charge then, and I’m not now.”

“You made it very clear you thought I did it,” Emma said.

“Sure. I did. I’m not completely convinced I was wrong. But Ellis was the one running the show. He was the one fixed on you. He played things nicer than me, that’s all.”

“Nathan called you,” she said. That was why she was here. Nothing else.

“Did he.” He looked at her steadily.

“He talked to someone right before he died. I called the number. You answered. It was you,” she said, but the corner of his mouth curled and her certainty wavered.

“That was you, then,” he said. “Do me a favor, Emma. Google that number.”

Emma hesitated. Then, reluctantly, she pulled out her phone and did as she asked. The first result was a directory for the Arden Hills Police Department. Chief Craig Ellis.

“I answer the chief’s phone when he’s out. All of us do, from time to time,” Hadley said, and Emma remembered now the card Ellis had handed to Nathan, that night with the fire. “Yes, your husband called the station the night he died, a fact that Detective Mehta is perfectly aware of, for the record.”

“Why?”

He gave her a considering look. “I am not your enemy in this situation, Emma. I could be a help to you. And God knows you need all the help you can get. Your husband is dead. Shot. By someone who knew how to avoid the cameras on the house.”

“Meaning me.”

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