“Really?” I lift the frame up and turn to Nate. “You can’t even stick a picture in this frame? You do know that the ones that come from the store aren’t meant to be kept in here, right? If you need a picture, I’m sure my mom could help you out.”
There was an unfortunate portion of my life when my mom was at one-hour photo every other day. The amount of film she went through was criminal. I bet she has the boxes stacked up in the attic and she’s waiting for an excuse to bring them back down.
I expect him to laugh, or at least smile, at the memory of my mom posing us in the garden as she tried to find the perfect light. But instead, I watch as his back goes ramrod straight and he loses the little color he has.
“I’m sorry.” I don’t know what I’m apologizing for, but I put the frame back where I found it. “I was just giving you a hard time. I didn’t mean anything by it.”
He sits for a moment longer before his jaw ticks and a look of determination crosses his stoic face. He unfolds his long body from the couch and slowly closes the space between us. When he picks up the frame, the air in the room goes static. The hairs on my arms rise as I watch him study the picture with a look of longing I’ve never seen on him before.
“That’s Elizabeth,” he says, his eyes never leaving the photo. “My fiancée.”
My stomach crashes through the floor.
“Your fiancée? Wow.” I blink rapidly and try to regain my composure as I struggle to process this information I shouldn’t care about. “Congratulations.”
He doesn’t respond.
He doesn’t even move.
I’m not even sure if he breathes.
He stands next to me, staring at the picture for what feels like a millennium.
“Sorry.” He shakes his head and places the frame facedown on the empty spot on the shelf. “She’s not my fiancée anymore. It’s been about a year actually.”
When I came to his house tonight, I was prepared for an all-out brawl—with words, of course. I spent the afternoon envisioning the many comebacks I’d throw at him and the way his skin would burn with embarrassment when I owned him in front of his guests. I prepared for every possible scenario.
But I can say, with one thousand percent certainty, that I did not prepare for this.
“Oh my god, Nate,” I say, all bad history between the two of us forgotten in a moment. “I’m so sorry. I had no idea.”
“Of course you didn’t.” He lets out a humorless laugh. “How could you?”
Resentment colors his words, but for once, I don’t think it’s directed at me.
“What happened?”
The question slips out before I think better of it. I’m sure I’m the last person he’d want to confide in about this, but for some reason I can’t put a finger on, I can’t let it go.
He walks back to the couch, and for a moment, I think he’s not going to tell me. I don’t like it, but I understand it. We aren’t friends.
The quiet whoosh of the dishwasher punctuates the uncomfortable silence looming over us. But just as I open my mouth to change the subject and pretend this never happened, Nate’s hoarse voice cuts through the room.
“She called everything off the morning of the wedding,” he says, and I’m sure I heard him wrong. “Her maid of honor came to tell me. I was already in my tux. She wasn’t ready to settle down and didn’t think we wanted the same things. She didn’t want the kids and suburbs. Which is fine. I just wish she would’ve figured that out sooner. I haven’t heard from her since. Not even an email. That part hurts.”
Despite the way things ended with us and the joy I find in pissing him off, a fire ignites inside me at the idea of someone other than me hurting him. My heart breaks for the kid I knew who wanted nothing more than a family of his own and the thought of him losing it when he was so close to having it all.
“Are you fucking kidding me?” The urge to go track this bitch down and give her a piece of my mind is almost too much to handle. “The day of the wedding?”
He nods but doesn’t say anything. He leans back in his seat, his gaze trained on me as I try to process this information.
It’s a familiar feeling, this dynamic between the two of us. Nate sitting quietly, taking in everything and carefully observing while I shoot off the handle. He was always the calm one of the two of us. My body is physically incapable of holding emotions back. Even if I manage to stay silent for a moment, it all comes rushing out sooner rather than later. For better or worse, I wear my mangled, battered, and partially black heart on my sleeve.
“I don’t know her and maybe she’s a very nice human, but I really hope she gets a mosquito bite on the bottom of her foot every day for the rest of her life and that every restaurant she goes to is out of her favorite item.”
Some people believe in good vibes only, but I don’t subscribe to that BS. I believe in all vibes at all times. There are a lot of garbage humans on this planet who deserve nothing more than a truckload of negative energy sent their way in the form of the smallest, most annoying punishments possible.
Petty vengeance is one of my greatest strengths . . . something the man sitting across from me can vouch for.
“It’s okay.” Nate attempts to wave off my curse, obviously not privy to how they work. “It’s probably for the best anyways. This house was going to be my gift to her, but since we weren’t married yet, I was able to keep it. It might not be everything I assumed it’d be, but I joined the HOA, made friends with my neighbors, and I’m still loving living here.”
“It’s not okay, though, Nate. She can’t just change plans and break your heart like that,” I tell him, more upset for him than he seems to be. “What’s wrong with these people who think they can walk all over us? Why are we supposed to be grateful for the scraps they throw us?”
I don’t realize I’m yelling until Nate approaches me and, with a painstaking gentleness, takes my hand in his like I’m some wild animal to be tamed.
“I appreciate your passion.” His eyes never leave mine as he speaks. “But why am I getting the feeling that this isn’t about me and Elizabeth anymore?”
I clamp my mouth shut.
My skin heats as Peter’s face flashes in my mind. The way he looked down at me—literally and figuratively—as he broke the news. Approximately ten million strangers have watched the video of me freaking out in the run-down parking lot outside my apartment, but other than Ruby, I haven’t told anybody what happened that night. The story is on the tip of my tongue. The anger and resentment have spent so much time building up inside me, they’re begging for a release.
I just don’t know if Nate is the person I can trust to hold my pain.
“Are you okay?”