Mine to Have (Southern Wedding #1)

"Four years ago," I tell the truth. I leave out that every time Jennifer asked me to go, I would bow out at the last minute. I just couldn’t do it.

She picks up her pink ball and holds it up. "There are two things I hate in life." She walks over to the middle of the lane and holds up the ball. "One, surprise." I laugh because I already knew that. "And two, losing." She takes four steps before she lets go of the ball, and it looks like it’s going to be a strike, but the two back pins stay up. "Fuck," she hisses out, turning and going back to get another ball. "What about you?" she asks, bowling the other ball, and it ends up in the gutter. "What have you been up to?"

She stands in front of me, waiting for me to answer. Her green eyes glisten in the almost dark lane. "After I graduated, I stayed on with the emergency clinic for two years. Then I ventured out on my own and opened a practice here with two other people," I say.

"That’s amazing," she says. "It must be so good to have to share the responsibility with the other two." She walks over to the chair and sits down, drinking some beer. "So jealous." I walk back to the chair instead of taking my turn. "What do you do in your spare time?" she asks, and I wonder if she’s as interested in finding out everything about me as I am with her.

"I don’t really have spare time," I admit to her, taking my glass of beer and finishing it. "I’m the only one without a family, so I work most weekends, and I’m on call for the holidays." As soon as I say the words, I feel a little bit of emptiness inside me that I didn’t know was there. "What about you?"

"I wish I could say that I’m out galivanting, but the truth is I barely have spare time, and when I do, I usually spend it with Sofia." She smiles at me, and even when we were dating, she used to call her all the time. I used to tease her during her FaceTimes with her. "She’s a teenager now." She beams. "Thirteen going on thirty."

"Thirteen." I shake my head. "I remember her when she had two missing teeth in the front." We both laugh.

"It’s funny that I don’t see myself as older, but then I look at my nieces and nephews, and I’m like, how did they grow up?" she says, and I can hear a hint of regret in her voice also. She fills me in about her family, and hearing her speak, I know that regardless of how much it hurt when I let her go, taking her away from her family would have been too much for her, and I couldn’t do that to her.

I’m about to say something when the lady from the front counter comes to us. "Sorry, folks, but we are closing up." She looks over at the screen and sees that we’ve been here for over an hour and have played two frames.

"Of course," Harlow says, walking over to the other chair and taking off the shoes and socks.

"Looks like I won," I say once I take off my shoes and look up at the scoreboard.

"Um, I don’t think so," she says, standing up and taking the shoes in her hand. "It’s incomplete."

"But I have more points than you." I point at the board.

"But I could have had five strikes and won." She cocks her hip to the side. "Or you could have had four gutter balls," she scoffs. "Anything could have happened."

"Fine," I give in. "But rematch." I hold out my hand, and she laughs.

"Fine, rematch." She puts her hand in mine to shake it, and it’s as if a lightning zap has been put in my veins. An electric shock, and my whole body lights up in ways it hasn’t before.

She drops my hand, and we turn to walk out. My hand comes out to hold hers, but then I catch myself and place it on her lower back. "I haven’t had this much fun in a while," she says to me when we walk out and toward the waiting car. She looks up at the stars. "I almost don’t want this night to end." She looks at me, and her eyes widen. "I mean, you must be dying for this day to end so you can forget about it."

I smile and look down. "It doesn’t have to end," I say the words that I might regret if she turns me down, "at least not yet anyway."





Chapter 12





Harlow

He smiles at me and looks down at his feet. The need to reach out and run my hands through his hair is overwhelming. Even more overwhelming than me being a hussy and trying to sway my hips while I bowled. "It doesn’t have to end." He says the words almost in a whisper, his eyes full of mischief. "At least not yet anyway."

I smirk at him. "What else do you have in mind?" I ask, and he throws his head back and laughs.

"I have no idea," he admits. "But we can improvise." He opens the car door to the limo, and I get in. I hear him talking to the driver, but I can’t make out the words. I put my head back on the seat; it’s whirling from everything that has happened today. Or maybe it’s the booze. Either way, I don’t want tonight to end. Talking to him about what he has been doing and indirectly asking about his life with Jennifer, I found out that he wasn’t as happy as I thought he would be. Not once did he mention her or their life, and from the sound of it, he worked just as much as I did. Every time he sat next to me and his leg touched mine, I would feel goose bumps start to form and would hope that he wouldn’t comment on it. I already had the excuse that I was cold, hoping he wouldn’t see me lying. When I feel the car bounce, I open my eyes, looking out the window into the darkness.

"Where are we going?" I ask when the door shuts, and I hear the driver get into the car.

"You’ll see," he says. I look out the window and remember the time he brought me here or around here and I made him that promise.

I got on my knees, lifted my dress, and moved my leg over to straddle him. I held his face in my hands and said the words that I’d bitten my tongue on for the past five months. "I love you." I looked into his eyes when I said the words and then saw his mouth open, and I put my finger on it. "You don’t have to say it back. I just wanted you to know that these past six months with you have been more than I could ever imagine." I leaned forward and kissed him softly.

His hands rubbed up my back. "Promise me something.” He said the words so softly.

"I will promise you anything," I said, knowing that he could have asked me anything and the answer would always be yes.

"Promise me that you’ll be there by my side on the happiest day of my life."

My fingers pushed back the hair on his forehead as the image of me walking down the aisle to him filled my mind. "I promise," I assured him.

"Good,” he said and kissed me softly. My heart sped up so fast in my chest I thought I was going to throw up from all this happiness. I didn’t think it could have gotten better than this, and then it did when he said the words I’d been dying to hear. "I love you, Harlow."

The car comes to a stop, and I look out the window at this little cabin. "What in the world?" I say when my door opens, and the driver is there to help me out.

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