My vagina is saying fuck no.
How long has it been since I’ve let her go wild? If I’m being completely honest, have I ever let her go wild? It’s not like the men I’ve chosen have ever known how to draw my sex drive out of hiding.
But Uri… Uri seems like the kind of man who knows exactly what he’s doing. Uri’s the kind of man who makes me want to be the kind of woman who drinks expensive wine and wears expensive underwear and has wild, spontaneous sex on expensive dining room tables.
“Do you want to go home, Alyssa?”
He meets my gaze when he asks. And my pussy throbs loudly in answer, drowning all my doubts and leaving only the desire behind.
“No.”
5
ALYSSA
I don’t even have time to process what’s happening before Uri pulls my lips to his and starts kissing me like I’ve never been kissed before. His lips are fire and I’m kindling and we’re both melting.
When his tongue slips inside my mouth, I find myself grinding my pussy against his erection. Is he just gonna rip through my panties with his cock? Take out Garfield with one deep stab? Honestly, for as long as I’ve had this underwear, I doubt I’d even mourn.
The wildest place I’ve ever had sex was a single bed—on top of the covers. Risqué, I know. But now, here I am, spread on top of what is a very large, very antique dining table that was just moments ago piled high with gold-leaf-painted cutlery that’s just been swept to the ground like it doesn’t matter.
Uri’s hands run up and down my body. He stops kissing me only long enough to peel my black t-shirt off. He tears off the ratty old sports bra beneath it as though it has personally offended him.
“Why are you hiding this body under those clothes?” he demands. “It’s a fucking crime.”
When he says it like that, I’m inclined to agree. It’s weirdly unsettling to be the focus of so much attention, especially attention like his, which keeps veering back and forth between terrifyingly violent and so obsessively worshipful that I almost want to cry.
His bare cock nuzzling against my bare pussy feels borderline debaucherous. But it also feels so damn good that I find myself thanking the heavens that my package was mistakenly delivered to this address instead of mine. This has to be fate intervening on my behalf.
The stars knew I needed a good—
“Fuuuuck!” I gasp as he thrusts inside me.
My eyes roll back into my head as I cling to his arms for dear life. God, are they muscly. I don’t think I’ve ever been with a man who could literally carry me without breaking a sweat. Although there’s plenty of sweat on my end of things.
There’s still that little nag, nag, nag in the back of my head that’s trying to remind me that I’m forgetting something important. But it’s very hard to concentrate when he’s pushing himself deeper and deeper inside of me.
And concentration is absolutely needed, because the man is big.
His teeth nip at my neck as I squirm against him. My nails must be tearing his back to ribbons, but he doesn’t complain. He just starts pumping.
“Yes,” I moan. “Yes, yes, yes… ahh…”
I’ve never been particularly vocal in bed—er, I mean, on dining room tables or whatever. But apparently, I wasn’t actually having sex before now. Because this feels so much different than anything I’ve ever experienced. It feels like I’m flying. Except I’m not scared of falling—because I know instinctively that if I fall, he’ll catch me.
It’s weird to have that much trust in a stranger. But he’s not a stranger, right? We shook hands. We broke bread. He bandaged me up when he could’ve had me arrested instead.
A bad guy wouldn’t do that, right?
An asshole wouldn’t do that, would he?
So I let myself disappear in him. And I let myself enjoy every minute of it. I surrender to spontaneity and lose myself in each thrust.
There are moments when it gets almost violent. Like when he swirls his tongue over my nipple and then bites down so hard that I scream. Like when he twists me around on the table, grabs a fistful of my hair and starts ramming his hips against mine from behind like he’s trying to break me in. Like when he starts slapping my ass so brutally I’m equal parts afraid and excited by the thought that he’s going to leave a permanent imprint on my skin.
But at no point during any of these moments do I try to stop him.
At no point during any of these moments do I feel unsafe.
Maybe that’s why I have not one, not two, but three orgasms, each one on the heels of the last. And when I can’t possibly come again, maybe that’s why when he spins me back around and comes inside me with my legs clamped around his waist.
I don’t feel used or taken advantage of. I don’t feel ashamed or embarrassed.
I feel desired and powerful.
And extremely satisfied.
Of course, the postsex haze lingers for mere seconds before reality sets back in and I realize that I’m drenched in my neighbor’s cum and wearing only a pair of unwearable black tights.
I use one of the discarded napkins to wipe the sweat off my forehead before I grab my shirt and pull it on. “God, it’s late. I… I should get going.”
Uri doesn’t try to stop me. In fact, he doesn’t say a word or move a muscle. So I take the opportunity and retrace my footsteps back to the front door. I’m lucky it’s dark because I manage to hide my total state of undress as I rush, cat burglar style, all the way back off his property and back to the safe zone of my decrepit little bungalow.
Is he watching me? It feels like he is.
Don’t look back.
I get all the way up to my bedroom and collapse into my bed before it strikes me what that little nag, nag, nag in the back of my head was trying to tell me when we’d started to get all hot and heavy.
I just had dirty, steamy, aggressive, unprotected sex with my next-door neighbor, who may or may not be a mobster.
And just like that, I’m terrified again.
6
ALYSSA
Breathe, Alyssa.
I have a Plan A, which goes by the name of Plan B.
I’ve resolved to wake up bright and early tomorrow morning, drag my ass to the pharmacy, and correct my colossal fuck-up with that lifesaver of a pill. How on earth did I forget about birth control?
Well, I know how. Uri’s blue eyes are magnetic fields that suck you in when you least expect it. They really don’t give a girl much of a choice.
After I’ve hyperventilated myself into lightheadedness, I end up in the shower. I rinse off the blood, sweat, and cum (ain’t that a cocktail) and change into a clean pair of jeans and a white tank top. Now that I’m feeling more put together, I also feel better equipped to deal with the situation.
No. There’s no “situation.” You’ll get Plan B tomorrow. You’ll take it. And that will be that.
Except that I also know what it’s like to have my hot neighbor quite literally inside me.