“You want to touch them?”
“Yeah.” Her dainty fingers brush over the tops of her own feet, and it’s like she’s too nervous to even look at me. Sometimes I wonder what goes on in her head. What she keeps locked up tight, followed by the things she blurts out.
“Okay.”
It takes her a few beats to gather the courage, and I wonder if she’ll back down. Decide they’re gross. Laugh and tell me she was just kidding.
But she doesn’t.
Her left hand moves off her foot and hovers over mine before the pad of her finger trails over the raised ridges and puckered skin. Hunched over, she traces the scars—every line, every divot.
She doesn’t seem at all put off. In fact, she seems almost entranced.
I hiss when she hits a tender spot.
“I’m sorry, did that hurt?”
“Got rubbed there,” I bite out, annoyed because doing the things I used to has become a different sort of challenge.
She leans down, peering closer, hand drawn away. “Rubbed how?”
My jaw works. “When I couldn’t sleep the other night, I just stuffed my bare feet into my sneakers like I would have before the injuries. But everything chafes and rubs now. They were already sore from wearing dress shoes at the wedding. Can’t even wear sandals. Walking through the water didn’t help.”
“That sucks,” Bailey replies matter-of-factly.
I almost want to laugh. It does suck. And it’s refreshing to have someone admit that rather than tell me it will get better. Or tell me how sorry they are.
Little things she does—without even trying—make me feel like it’s okay to not be okay in her presence.
“Yeah.” I don’t want to be a martyr. I know things could be worse. But admitting this sucks feels good. Being allowed to admit it sucks without everyone rushing to patch me up is a weight off my shoulders.
A second and third finger join in her exploration of my damage. What I’d normally register as a slight touch feels electric. The newly healed skin is more sensitive, and I know she’s not trying, but the sensation of someone touching me in a way that isn’t medical has my dick swelling.
“Have you ever had a threesome?”
Yep. That’ll do it.
A strangled noise lodges in my throat, and she finally turns her face up to mine. She is so damn pretty, eyes twinkling in the dark, the warm light of the back porch shining on her dark hair.
“What?” I ask.
Her fingers pause as I stare back at her. “A threesome. Sex with two other people. Have you ever had one?”
“I know what a threesome is, Bailey. I’m having trouble figuring out why this moment is connected to that thought for you.”
Her eyes blink down to her hand. “The three fingers, I guess?”
“Three fingers on melted skin made you think about a threesome. Life is certainly never boring in your head, is it?”
“Well, no. I was thinking about sex.” When she blurts the last part out, she finally looks a little embarrassed. But not that embarrassed.
“You were touching my feet … and thinking about sex?” Disbelief bleeds into every syllable. She’s the most entertaining blend of innocent and curious.
“Yeah. I mean,”—her head wobbles—“to be fair, I think about sex a lot.”
I scrub a hand over my face, covering my eyes. “Jesus fuckin’ Christ.”
She scoffs playfully as she traces my feet again, not the least bit uncomfortable touching me. “Don’t be such a prude, Beau.”
A laugh lurches from my chest. God, I am so unprepared for this woman. “I just don’t know how I ended up engaged to a girl with a foot fetish who blurts out personal sex questions at the drop of a hat.”
“Well, you are my fiancé. Maybe I should ask another guy instead,” she muses, the tips of her fingers now twirling over my skin as though dancing across the scar tissue.
Jealousy hits me hard and fast. I have no right to it. I can’t rationalize it. All I know is I don’t want her sharing moments like this—quiet and unfiltered, safe and trusting—with some other jackass.
I want to be the only jackass who gets this version of her.
“I’ve never had a threesome, Bailey,” I grit out as I push to stand, needing to put some space between us before I do something stupid.
Her gaze follows, brown eyes staring up at me like I’m the moon in the night sky. “Why not?”
Bailey, sitting at my feet, full attention turned my way, is doing nothing to stop my hard-on from making an appearance.
“Not a big fan of sharing something once I decide it’s mine.”
Her lips part.
And fuck. I should stop, but the side of me that sees danger and runs straight toward it has made an appearance tonight.
So I reach out and run my palm over her silky hair, cupping her head. “I’ll start leaving the back door unlocked for when you decide you want to find out if I’m a prude or not.”
Her eyes widen, and I can’t help but imagine this is how she’d look as I slid my dick into her pretty mouth.
I was the one who told her we wouldn’t have sex, and it’s taken only a few days for me to be fighting off the thought of it. After a quick shake to clear my head, I turn away. Hand burning, feet tingling, dick rock fucking hard.
“What if I just come in for the air conditioning?” Her voice is smooth, surer than it has any right to be after what I just said to her.
I laugh, but it lacks humor. There’s an edge to it.
A promise.
I don’t bother looking back at her when I say, “Sure, Bailey. Call it whatever you want.”
13
Bailey
Beau: I can pick you up.
Bailey: No, it’s fine. I’ll take a cab. You’re working.
Beau: You don’t need to spend your money on a cab.
Bailey: I actually don’t need your permission, sergeant.
Beau: I’m not a sergeant.
Bailey: Captain?
Beau: Not that either.
Bailey: … Sir?
Beau: Watch it, Bailey.
Bailey: If it’s all the same to you, I’ll be taking a cab. Thank you for your help, sir.
Being engaged to Beau Eaton was supposed to be helpful. Except I’m pretty sure it’s my own special brand of torture.
I’ll start leaving the back door unlocked for when you decide you want to find out if I’m a prude or not is the one-liner that had me rushing back to my trailer to pull out my box of vibrators.
I didn’t even bother pretending one of them was Jensen Ackles.
Every single one is now Beau Eaton.
Despite my lack of sleep, I had to wake up early to clean the bar this morning. Beau drove me there in relative silence while I clutched my travel mug with both hands. I figured keeping my fingers latched on would prevent me from crawling across the center console and mauling a man who is only going along with this charade to be nice.
Or because he’s bored.
Or something.
I hitched a taxi back out to the ranch when I finished, and now I’m sprawled in a fold-out chair next to my trailer. An iced coffee in hand. A sun beam on my face.
I’m trying not to stress about my tires. Or my money. Or if making myself come while thinking about my fake fiancé was a bad idea.
I want to check out and just—
Tires grind against the gravel road leading to Beau’s house. I don’t bother opening my eyes, even when they hum onto the paved driveway on the other side of the house. Regardless of any external influences, I don’t budge, safe and protected by my trailer. The one thing I still have that’s mine.
I know Beau is gonna come here, guns blazing about me saving my money. I hear heavy footfalls, and my lips tip up as I imagine him towering over me like he did last night.
But the voice that interrupts my peaceful moment isn’t his. “You seen Beau?”
I startle and shoot straight up to see Cade Eaton, Beau’s oldest brother, with his hands on his hips, looking really bitchy.
“No,” I breathe, one hand slung over my chest because he surprised me and I’m trying to catch my breath.