“Hey, sorry I let myself in—” The words are barely out when he smashes his body against mine.
The breath is knocked out of my lungs as we both go crashing down on the sofa. I lift my hand to try and get some balance, but he grabs my wrists and slams them above my head and shoves his knee between my legs, forcing them apart.
“Nikolai, what are you—”
“Shut. Your. Mouth.” He bites my lower lip with every word, eliciting a shudder from me.
My head spins and a shiver spreads across my skin and ends in my dick.
Am I supposed to feel this turned on by a kiss? It’s not even a full kiss.
Fuck.
I exist in his vicinity, then I’m on edge.
He touches me and I catch fire.
This is why I did everything in my power to put some distance between us. Get back control over my shameless reaction to him.
Nikolai doesn’t understand the concept of distance, though.
His teeth pull rougher than usual and tingles explode on the skin trapped between them.
But I like this type of pain. This pain isn’t mental or emotional. This pain means I’m right here, not swallowed up by black ink or pulled under by disgusting nausea.
“Who the fuck is she?” he growls against my mouth, his coarse words vibrating on my skin.
I try to clear my head, which is impossible under the circumstances. “Who’s who?”
“The girl who was throwing herself in your arms at my fucking fight.”
“A-Ava?”
“Ava. Her name would look fucking pretty on a gravestone.”
“What the…” I sober up a little and try to release myself from his grip. His fingers dig into my skin, prohibiting me from moving.
Christ. I’ve always loved how big he is, but it’s a nuisance when I try to get him off me.
“Didn’t take you long to find a replacement for Clara.” He snarls her name as if it’s a curse word and bites my jaw, my throat, and my Adam's apple. “But I’m going to make them all disappear. Mark my fucking words.”
I groan at every nip, my cock thickening until it’s straining painfully against my trousers. Why do I love it so much when he’s rough?
“A-Ava…is my childhood friend. You…met her during that game at the pub.”
He lifts his head abruptly, eyes flicking and brow furrowing. I still don’t like the look on his face, but it eases a bit, harsh but recognizable. “So that’s where I’ve seen her. She’s not Clara’s replacement?”
“What? Of course not. My cousin would kill me.”
“I will fucking kill him or anyone who dares to touch what’s fucking mine.”
I gulp past the lump in my throat as I search his wild features, and my lips part when I realize he means every word.
It should repulse me, send me running again, but my cock has turned as hard as stone and I’m delirious.
My lungs fill with his scent—mint, blood, and all male. It coils and rattles inside me with overwhelming strength.
No one has ever said that to me. No one has ever been so obsessed with me that they act like they’d move heaven and earth to protect me.
I shouldn’t even want protection or this toxic connection.
But the reality I’ve been trying to ignore crashes into me.
I want him.
I fucking crave him. So much it hurts.
So I lift my head and capture his lips in a punishing kiss. I thrust my tongue inside his mouth and taste the metallic blood. I taste the desperation. The aching lust.
I fuck his mouth as hard as he fucked me over.
The constant fear of falling apart vanishes when he gives back as ferociously as he takes, robbing my breath.
The constant pain that I breathe day in and day out crumbles and caves like it does every time Nikolai touches me. My insides don’t feel as hollow or as desolate, and I can breathe air that’s not soaked in black ink or filthy nausea.
It scared the shit out of me the first time and every time after, but now, I couldn’t care less about the aftermath of the pleasure.
If fear and pain are the price I must pay for another taste of him, then so be it. I wrench a hand out of his grip and sink it into his hair, tearing the elastic band away and letting the strands fly free.
He’s right. I fucking love kissing him.
But most of all, I love how he kisses me. It’s hard and dominating but also overwhelmingly passionate.
His tongue slurps on mine and his fingers dig into my jaw so that he can feed me his.
I’m intoxicated.
Enamored.
Absolutely fucking unhinged.
How can a simple kiss feel so good…?
He wrenches his lips from mine with a growl and I release a protesting sound. “I’m going to fucking ruin you as badly as you’ve ruined me, my lotus flower. I’ll get so far beneath your skin, you’ll never fucking get rid of me.”
For some reason, that makes me smile.
I’ve always lived on the right side of things. Perfect scores. Perfect manners. Perfect image. I never toyed with danger. Never wanted to live outside of my little bubble. Never crossed a line.
But then this man bulldozed through my walls, and now, I’m breaking apart piece by piece.
My fingers tighten in his hair. “Shut up and fuck me.”
A spark rushes to his previously dead eyes and he growls, “Bedroom. Now.”
He drags me by his grip on my hand, but the moment I stand up, his mouth is claiming mine again and we stumble over the table, only breaking the kiss to tear each other’s clothes off on our way to the bedroom.
Or more like my clothes. I’m way too overdressed, damn it.
By the time we reach his room, we’re finally naked. I want to study his glorious muscles and tattoos, but he presses his chest to mine and thrusts his hip forward, rubbing his hard, thickening cock on mine
I groan in his mouth.
The sound shatters when he pushes me onto the bed and lands on top of me. He kisses his way down my throat, my collarbone, and my chest.
“Fuuck…” I breathe out when he bites a nipple, teeth nibbling on the tip. Precum slides down my length and drips on my abs.
“Mine. Every inch of you is fucking mine.” He grunts against my skin, making my cock harder, my muscles tighter, and my head lighter.
He moves his attention to the other nipple, sucking and biting and probably leaving all sorts of marks, but I can’t seem to focus on that.
Later. I’ll think later.
Now, I want to feel.
His dick slides up and down my length. Our precum trickles over the skin and he uses it as lube. The maddening friction heightens until I’m releasing unintelligible noises, groaning and moaning. My hips jerk, instinctively rubbing my cock against his. Drops of our precum coat our abs as we hump and rub and growl in unison.
“Niko…” I rasp, writhing against the pillow as I pull his head down with a handful of his hair. “Just…fuck me.”
I’m reduced to begging for it, but I’m too far gone to care about it at this point.
My heart nearly spills from its confinement when he flashes me his sexy grin. “You called me Niko. Fuck, baby. I’m really going to fucking devour you.”