Fall of Ruin and Wrath (Awakening, #1)

“Was that not true?” I asked, not daring to open my senses to him. Not then.

“Hyhborn cannot lie.” The green circles churned slowly around his pupils. “Prince Thorne is unaware of your abilities, isn’t he? He’s unaware of what you are to him?”

“No, he doesn’t know about my abilities.” My throat tightened. “And I’m nothing to him.”

“That’s not true at all, Calista,” he said, and my skin chilled at the sound of my name. “He may not yet be aware of what you mean to him on a conscious level, but on a primal one? I’m confident he does. He’s drawn to you, whether he understands why or not.”

I jolted, recalling Thorne’s own confusion as he admitted as much. “I . . . I don’t understand.”

“Well, it’s quite simple,” Lord Samriel said. “You are everything to him.”

A shivery wave of awareness swept through me. “Ny . . . ny’chora.”

Lord Samriel’s pale brows lifted. “So, he has spoken to you about something.”

“It was . . . I was asking why his heart didn’t beat.”

Everything about the Lord changed in an instant. The friendly if cold smile slipped from his face. His entire body tensed, and when he spoke, gone was the gentleness. “And what did he say to that?”

My jaw clamped shut with the sudden feeling that I . . . I needed to be careful. It was the faint stirrings of my intuition. “He just said that his heart doesn’t beat because of his ny’chora.”

His lips thinned as they curled slightly on one side. “Did he tell you what the ny’chora was?”

“Only that it was everything. That was all he said,” I quickly added. “It was at night, and he was tired. He went to sleep.”

Those unblinking eyes didn’t leave mine. “He slept with you?”

I wet my dry lips. “Do you mean literally or figuratively?”

Lord Samriel chuckled. “Literally.”

“Yes.”

“And figuratively.”

“No,” I lied, and I wasn’t even sure why I did. It slipped from my mouth so quickly that it sounded genuine.

“Interesting.” His gaze flickered over me. “But you two have been intimate in other ways, I imagine?”

“Yes.” Swallowing, I looked away, my gaze settling on the door. “What does that have to do with anything?”

“Nothing. I’m just being impolite and nosy.”

I huffed out a dry laugh.

“What do you feel when you are with him?” he asked. “And this is not an impolite question, Calista. It’s one I need you to answer.”

Unfolding my arms, I clasped my tightly pressed-together knees. “I don’t know how to answer that.”

Lord Samriel raised his brows. “Are you drawn to him? Attracted to him? Or does he frighten you like I do?”

My heart skipped, and that faint smile returned. The Lord was . . . how did Thorne put it? Tuned in?

“I’m enjoying the openness of our conversation,” he shared in my silence. “I hope it continues to be pleasurable and easy.”

“Or?” I whispered.

“Or I will simply make it an easy conversation, though it may not be enjoyable for you.”

I looked up, understanding what he meant. He’d use a compulsion— seize my will and take control— like he’d done with Grady in Union City. A whole new kind of terror seized me. That I didn’t want. Ever. “I am drawn to him and find him attractive. After all, he is a Hyhborn prince.”

Lord Samriel smirked. “Are you afraid of him?”

“No.”

That smile returned. “He’s the only one you won’t fear.”

“And yet I’m his to kill?” I forced out the words that felt so very wrong to say.

“If he wants to survive, yes.”

I sucked in a shaky breath, chest tightened until I felt like I would suffocate. “I don’t understand.”

The Lord was quiet for a few moments. “Do you know anything about your birth? Your bloodline?”

“No,” I said, thinking of what Maven had shared— gods, was Maven still alive? I shuddered. “I just know I was given to the Priory of Mercy as a babe.”

His stare sharpened as he stared at me; then a slow smile spread across his face. “Did you ever tell Prince Thorne that you were given to the Priory?”

My heart was pounding once more. I shook my head.

“Calista?” He drew his booted foot from his knee, lowering it to the floor. “I have a very important question for you. Was Prince Thorne unknown to you when you met him here? Am I unknown to you?”

A tremor started in my hands and traveled up my arms. “No,” I admitted in a hushed voice.

“Oh, the irony is so sweet.” He scooted to the edge of the settee. “You were right there, in front of us, and yet neither of us knew,” he said, letting out a thick laugh. “You were glamoured even then.”

That word again. “Glamoured?”

“Your divinity was hidden, likely by the Prioress. You wouldn’t be the first that they’ve attempted to hide. Their actions are . . . righteous in nature, if infuriating. They see themselves as protectors of those born of the stars.”

I stared at him. “So . . . you believe me to be a caelestia?”

“I believe that you’re more than just that. You see, quite a number of mortals carry the blood of Hyhborn in them,” he said, and I thought of what Maven had said about the conjurers. “There could even be more caelestias than there are mortals. It’s hard to tell, but when the stars fall, a mortal is made divine.”

That phrase again. “And what does that mean exactly?”

“It means the gods blessed those born in the hour that the stars fell with certain gifts— with abilities that would make them useful in times of . . . strife.”

I thought of Vayne Beylen. “There are others like me.”

“There used to be many ny’seraphs,” he said, and my breath caught. “One for every Deminyen. You see, the ny’seraph is bonded to a Deminyen at birth, becoming their ny’chora.”

Why doesn’t it beat like that now?

Because I lost the ny’chora.

“Bonded?” I whispered.

He nodded. “If you weren’t glamoured, Prince Thorne would’ve recognized you the moment he laid eyes on you, but even so, he was still drawn to you and vice versa. That is how powerful the link is.”

“You’re saying that the gods bond a mortal to a Deminyen at birth?” I swallowed. “Why?”

“Because once the bond is completed, the Deminyen gains their ny’chora— their connection to humanity. The ny’chora keeps them— ”

“Humane. Compassionate,” I whispered.

Lord Samriel nodded. “The gods found that necessary after, well, that is a conversation for a different day.”

I thought I already knew what conversation he spoke of. The Great War. Based on what Thorne had told me, the Deminyens had gone to rest because they’d been losing their ability to connect to mankind and when many awoke they did so without compassion.

My gods, I didn’t . . . I didn’t know what to think about that— any of that. It was almost too much to consider. “How is that bond completed?” I asked.

“A few ways, but that’s not what you need to worry about,” he said, and I started to open my senses to him. The white wall shielding his thoughts throbbed as he leaned forward suddenly, his movements severing the connection. “The completion of the bond will not happen.”

I looked away. Just for a few seconds. “Why . . . why would he need to kill me to survive?”

“Because the ny’seraph can be a strength to a Deminyen, but also their greatest weakness,” Lord Samriel explained, his tone gentle once more. “Through you, he can be killed.”

My lips parted as my breath caught.

“But we won’t allow that.” He rose. “Prince Rohan will want all of this confirmed, just to be sure. You should rest till then.”

Rest? Was he serious? I stayed seated as he crossed to the door, treading over the smear of blood there. “And then what?”

“Then you will be taken to Augustine,” Lord Samriel said. “And you will be given to King Euros.”





CHAPTER 37