“Nobody.” She holds out the receiver to me. “You’re calling Lolo.”
I jolt a little, wondering what it says about my situation that my ex-wife thought about calling my girlfriend and I did not.
And still, I hesitate.
Katherine makes an impatient noise and grabs my wrist, slapping the receiver in my palm. “Man up, Walsh.”
I take a deep breath and dial.
Lolo doesn’t pick up until the third ring. “Hello?” Her voice is hesitant, likely braced for spam or bad news, given the unfamiliar number. On the second one, I can deliver.
“Hey. Lo. It’s me.”
“Tom? Where are you calling from?”
“The airport. An airport,” I amend with a look around at the tiny space.
“Is your cell phone dead?”
“It’s . . . lost?”
“Lost,” she repeats, her voice flat. “And let me guess. You’re delayed.”
I don’t say anything. I don’t have to.
“Tom, this whole thing—”
“I know. Believe me. I know.” I drop my chin toward my chest and close my eyes.
“I’ve been patient,” Lolo says in a voice I haven’t heard from her often, one I imagine she uses with the kids in her class. “I’ve been understanding. But with all that’s happened, I can’t help but wonder if the universe is trying to tell us something.”
Of course not. Or if it is, it’s only that we can weather anything.
But the reassuring words don’t come out.
Because the truth is, I’ve been doing some wondering of my own.
Like why I haven’t minded being without my phone the past couple hours, forcefully untethered from the woman I’m supposed to love. Or why I wasn’t that disappointed that we missed the one and only plane.
Or, most alarmingly of all, why I’m not gutted to have lost the ring.
“Tom.” Katherine pokes my arm. “You’re zoning out,” she says in a loud whisper.
“Is that Katherine?” Lolo asks with the slightest bite.
“Yeah,” I say tiredly.
Lolo exhales. “See, Tom, this is exactly what I mean. How am I supposed to believe—”
Katherine holds out her hand. “Give me the phone.”
I shove her hand away. “Pass.”
“Okay.” She lets her hand drop, and I should have known better than to docilely agree because the second I turn away, she pounces, grabbing the receiver right out of my hand.
“Hi, Lolo? Okay, first, I’ve been dying to know. Is that your real name?”
Oh, Jesus. I make a grab for the phone, but Katherine moves with surprising grace for a woman who’s been in two recent car accidents.
“Anyway, doesn’t matter,” Katherine is saying. “So, this is Katherine. Or, as you perhaps know me, The One Who Came Before?”
“Give. Me. The. Phone,” I say, enunciating every word.
Katherine ignores me and continues. “Listen. Lo. Can I call you that? Woman to woman? I get it. I can’t even fathom how much this sucks. Actually, you know what? I can. I can because I was married to Tom, and I know that’s not what you want to be reminded of right now, but trust me, that’s actually a positive. Because I know what he’s like as a partner, and Lolo? He’s one of the good ones.”
I start to reach for the phone again, but I go still at her words, my heartbeat thrumming a little too fast when she turns toward me. “No, scratch that,” Katherine says, her tone softening along with her expression. “He’s one of the great ones. You would not believe the hell he’s put himself through to get back to you. And you’d be a fool to let him get away.”
Katherine sharply pivots away from me. “Don’t make the same mistake I made.”
She lowers her voice even further, but I hear it anyway. And I’m not at all sure how I feel about it.
“Nope, absolutely not,” Katherine continues after whatever Lolo’s just said. “I was a perfect lady and kept my hands to myself. Yup, him too. If we had rubber gloves, we’d wear them around each other, and if we had noise-canceling headphones, we’d have worn those too. And if I had a gun . . .”
“Okay, that’s enough of that—” I say, but once again Katherine dances away, pulling the phone cord as far as it will go, though now she faces me as she continues to speak into the phone.
“Lo, if you give up on him, I will be very angry because he’s been waiting a long time for you. You’ve seen his spreadsheet, right? Where he marks all his life’s bucket list items? Total dork—or yeah, sure, ‘cute’ works too. Anyway, my point is, you fit right into that spreadsheet, you align perfectly with his timeline. That’s what he wants, Lolo. You’re the one that he wants.”
Katherine and I stare at each other, and for an agonizing moment, I can see her entire heart in her gaze. Fear my own heart is in mine.
Katherine whirls back around. “So. Lo? You go put on the Christmas sweater I know Nancy bought for you and bake some gingerbread and get flour on your nose, or something adorable like that. Because I promise. I’m bringing Tom home to you.”
She hangs up without another word and punches a button, presumably to honor June’s request to send the line back to voicemail.
When she turns back, the soft emotion is tucked away once again, replaced with intense determination.
“Sorry I didn’t let you say goodbye,” she says with a wave of her hand that says she’s not sorry at all. “You always take forever to hang up the phone, and we don’t have time for that crap.”
“Really?” I ask skeptically. “Seems to me we have nothing but time. I appreciate your trying to give Lolo hope, but . . . it’s time to call it, Kates. We did our best, but Christmas Eve at my family’s is not happening.”
The Christmas proposal is not happening.
Katherine reaches out a hand, sets it on my shoulder, and meets my eyes. Reassuring. Comfortable. Warm. Right. Then she gives me a little shake like a coach giving a pep talk.
“Tom. Do you want to get married again?”
Staring into her brown eyes, I nod. “I do.”
“Okay then.” She squeezes my shoulder in reassurance. “Then let’s get you home.”
THIRTY-THREE
TOM
December 24, 10:20 a.m.
“You know . . . this is really not what I had in mind.” I lean down to Katherine to whisper into her ear.
Katherine leans toward me to reply. “Really?” she whispers back. “What part of this trip has been what you had in mind?”
“Fair point.”
I glance to my left just as the long-haul truck driver, who’s currently serving as our chauffeur, takes a huge bite of his hoagie. I wince as I watch a mayo-slickened piece of lettuce slip out of the bread and onto his flannel-covered chest.
Gorby—yes, that’s his real name—looks down at the rogue lettuce, causing him to swerve just enough that the rumble strip on the shoulder vibrates the cab. He overcorrects, sending me careening into Katherine, who called “dibs” on the window seat mere seconds after securing us our “sweet ride.” Her actual words.
“Gosh golly dang,” Gorby mutters in consternation before picking up the piece of lettuce and eating it. He glances over at us apologetically. “Sorry ’bout my language there.”