Then my hands were on the gate, shoving it open.
Once I was through, I flung my body against it and dropped the bar. Not that it would keep the thing out for long—not when it could climb over.
A stable yard. Stalls with upper doors open, deer snorting as they scented the monster running up the lane towards us.
Not long. Not long at all.
I slammed shut the nearest stalls, but they wouldn’t last if the thing tried to get in. I needed something sturdy or small—somewhere to hide.
In a corner, I found a shelter full of tack and hunting weapons, but one side was open to the yard. Still, soft magic hummed over my skin. Some of the saddles and spears had to be enchanted. That would attract the Horror and give it something to feed on. It might also mask my scent.
There was nothing else here—no route out.
The gates rattled in their hinges. The bar holding them groaned.
The Horror slammed into them again. They wouldn’t last long.
Why bother climbing over when you could go through?
It almost made me laugh, but my pulse throbbed in my throat, constricting like a tight grip.
Behind a saddle stand, I spotted a door handle. A way out?
But inside there was only the scent of saddle soap and leather. A cupboard.
I had no other option—I darted inside and shut the door as the gates crashed open.
In the darkness, I found a leather strap—an old halter perhaps? Trying to keep my breaths quiet, I tied it around the inside handle and a hook on the wall.
The yard erupted with throaty bellows from the deer and the Horror’s echoing clicks.
Trembling in the cramped space, I managed to get the bow off my back, tighten the string with a whisper, and nock an arrow. If the monster opened the cupboard, I would fire off a shot and surprise it. Then I might manage to slip past it. Or I might die.
Not the most comforting set of options, but I didn’t have any others.
Outside, the bellows turned to screams and the sound of rending flesh.
I covered my mouth, holding in my fear as tears streaked down my cheeks. Those poor creatures. I couldn’t help picturing Vespera in their place. I thought Horrors only fed on magic, but…
My chest grew tighter and tighter with each cry.
Then there were no more.
I had no idea how long it took. The darkness of the cupboard felt like the darkness of eternity.
More crashing and a grunting sniff that came closer.
Breath stilling, I drew my bowstring taut. The leather shoulder pieces of my cloak dug in, but I was firing this arrow the instant that door opened.
Scratching and scraping, then the sucking sound of it feeding.
Then silence.
Gone, or…?
I let the bowstring slacken and pressed my ear to the door.
It could be waiting out there. Or maybe it had forgotten about me.
Waiting this whole thing out in a cupboard might’ve been an option if not for one inconvenient truth.
I needed my antidote before sunset. And a wonderful bonus of the Winter Solstice was that sunset came very early.
To surviving the dark, indeed.
I counted to a hundred like this was nothing more than a game of hide and sneak.
Still no noise.
Heart in my throat, I untied the broken halter and readied my bow. When I nudged open the door and peered out, there was no sign of the Horror, though upturned saddle stands blocked some of my view.
I waited. I saw nothing.
I crept out.
Saddles and tack littered the floor. It hadn’t been torn apart, but the leather had gone pale and dry, and when I nudged a harness with my toe, it disintegrated.
I picked my way through the debris in silence. Even the steel tips of the hunting spears were dull and grey like lumps of ore, rather than the polished steel they’d been when I arrived. They didn’t flake apart with a touch, but I tested one under my foot and it crumbled like charcoal.
Then I realised.
No magic vibrated against my skin.
The Horror had fed on every enchanted object here. Did that make it stronger? More dangerous?
Bastian had told me they’d been used as weapons in the war, but I hadn’t asked for specifics, especially not when he’d been in such distress from his father’s memories.
I edged out of the shelter and…
Every part of me froze.
There was no sign of the Horror, no, but I stood in the midst of its aftermath.
Blood pooled across every inch of the yard. Entrails, legs, antlered heads—they lay strewn over the ground. Bodies sat in the doorways of their stables, like they’d been dragged out and torn open.
I couldn’t do anything more than stare, but as I did, I realised… nothing was missing. The Horror hadn’t killed these stags and hinds to eat them. And their remains weren’t sucked dry as the saddles had been. It hadn’t fed on their magic.
It had just… torn them apart. For fun? Out of anger at being unable to find me?
Was this my fault?
My legs wobbled and I fell to a crouch, covering my mouth to try and hold in my gasping breaths. A dozen deer. Gone because I’d led that monster here.
“I’m sorry.” It came out again and again, then I threw up as the full stench of death and blood and the Horror filled my throat and somehow made this all the more real.
I vomited until there was nothing left but to spit bitter bile on the ground.
Emptiness felt better.
Numb and no longer trembling, I pulled myself upright. In the cupboard, I found some leather scraps and used one to tie my hair back. I deposited my cloak inside, remembering how it had interfered with my draw.
Clear water sat in a trough at the far end of the yard, untainted by deer blood. I rinsed out my mouth and washed the sweat from my face. As the ripples stilled, I caught my reflection staring back at me.
Afraid and yet determined. Practical. Ready.
Was this who I was?
I touched the surface and let her dissolve into ripples.
Squeezing my bow, I straightened. By Horror, crowd, or poison, I was not dying today.
Overhead, the sun began its descent to its early solstice evening.
51
Bastian
Nine. That was how many Horrors had entered the city.
It had taken us what felt like a lifetime to fell the first one we’d found, and we’d lost two guards to it.
Lysander had caught up to us not long after, shadow-stepping here from his estate, bringing the hellhound Fluffy.
Now we closed in on two more Horrors and the hound stuck to me like a pale version of my shadows, even though Lysander was at the other end of the road. On foot, I led half the unit and Faolán the other half, cutting in from both sides as the monsters sniffed and scratched at a brazier that had been used to roast nuts and marshmallows. Archers crept to position on the rooftops.
Movement from above. I raised my sword on instinct but recognised the darkly-dressed woman as one of the guards I’d set on watch. I lifted my eyebrows in a silent question.
“The two ahead are the last in this quarter. Two more are down, leaving one in north and east and two in the south quarter.”