It had been designed for medium-sized Demons. The reason for its creation had been unknown to Emerie – until now.
Horror befell her features, hidden behind her mask, when they began to cut the Duskwalker open... while it was alive. While it screamed, roared, and jangled its chains to escape.
The doctor was eventually able to examine inside its cracked-open chest cavity after using bolt cutters, hammers, and other heavy tools to get into it. It was bloody, disgusting, and felt so wrong, so immoral, that bile rose in her throat.
Even her eyes watered in sympathy for the Duskwalker, threatening to spill every time he yelped, and even more so when he whimpered.
“Why are you doing this while it’s alive?” Emerie finally blurted in outrage. “The least you could have done was give it the mercy of death before you began playing with its damn insides!”
Wren cast her a knowing look, one that said she’d predicted Emerie would react this way. “Because they don’t die. I thought that would have been made obvious to you after tonight’s events.”
“This...” Her hand fisted at her side. “This is wrong. We shouldn’t be doing this.”
She wished she had known this was why Wren brought her here. It would have given her the opportunity to deny the order. And she would have. Down to the pit of her soul, she would have denied it – no matter the repercussions.
“I must admit, it is easier to watch this when it’s the corpse of a Demon.” Then Wren faced her, giving Emerie all her attention. “However, this is something that needs to be done. Just like the Demons we’ve been forced to cut open, we need to know how they are made, why they are so much stronger than us. We need to learn how to kill them. I refuse to not seek answers when they lie before me.”
Emerie’s eyes tightly clenched shut at a particularly hollowing sound that came from the Duskwalker being tortured. The squelching of blood and muscle between fingers made her vision split in two from disgust.
Her voice was weakening, growing croaked and hoarse. “I still can’t get past how cruel this is.”
“Do you know how many Demons have wanted inside our keeps, using tricks, asking for false mercy, only to turn on the very humans that let them inside? None of these monsters deserve a shred of your pity.” Wren then stepped closer with a commanding gait, and lifted her chin superiorly when she was barely a foot away. “I have decided that I will begin training you to take over my position when I die, or when I am too old to be of use anymore. This is the start of that training.”
“Why me?” Emerie asked. “There are other members who would be far better at it. Those that have perfected all weaponry and trades.”
“Because it’s not a sword that leads, but a mind. You are smart and have saved members of your teams time and time again by using unorthodox methods. This choice wasn’t made lightly.”
With her eyes drifting over to the poor creature, Emerie confidently stated, “If this is the cost of obtaining your position, then I sincerely don’t want it.”
Wren sighed and shook her head. “You will learn to be desensitized to it, as I was. I’ll forgive any transgressions for now.”
Emerie wished she hadn’t been looking at the Duskwalker when they pulled its still beating and attached purple heart from his chest. It looked mushy and weird, with black veins.
She pulled down her mask, spun to the furthest wall right next to the door, and proceeded to violently vomit. I can’t. Emerie didn’t have a weak stomach. She wasn’t usually squeamish or queasy from staring at the insides of another creature.
If she could have crawled out of her skin and disintegrated, it would have happened the moment the Duskwalker let out a harrowing squeal.
“Well, it’s definitely a male.”
Emerie heaved again, harder than before, having to place her hand against the wall to steady herself. Acidic liquid splattered against the ground between her boots.
This is disgusting. Nothing deserves this torture. I don’t care what it is... it – he – doesn’t deserve this. It doesn’t matter what he’s done, who he’s eaten. It’s wrong.
“Stop,” Emerie whispered, her legs wobbling like she was going to pass out. “Stop torturing him.”
When they didn’t, a blaze lit up within her. She bolted forward to grab the arm of the doctor to stop him. She never made it there.
Two Elders grabbed her and forced her back. She attempted to claw and kick forward, her feet scraping and sliding against the ground as she fought.
“I said fucking stop!”
“Hold her there,” Wren commanded, before she came over to grasp Emerie’s jaw and keep her gaze steady on her older reflection. “You are just like me. From your face, to your abilities, to you wanting to save this horrible creature.” She yanked Emerie’s face forward with her nose crinkled in determination. “And just like me, you will be better for witnessing this – just as I was once forced to.”
For the first time since she’d joined the guild, Emerie no longer cared to follow the rules. She didn’t want to do as she was told, to stand there quietly and turn a blind eye to what was happening around her.
“I hope to the gods that a Demon eats me if I turn out like you.”
Wren chuckled and released her face so she could playfully tap her cheek. “Atta girl. That resolve will be the reason people will blindly follow you.”
“Why don’t you choose someone who actually wants to take over your position?” Emerie bit through gritted teeth, her eyes dark and narrowed.
“Because those that don’t crave a seat of power are often the ones most suited for it.” Then Wren turned back to witnessing the doctor pull out other... inhuman parts of the Duskwalker. “Keep her awake. It’s going to be a long night.”
It had already been far too long.
Against her will, Emerie was shoved back into the Duskwalker’s holding cell the following night.
She’d barely slept a wink.
The sun had been breaking through the clouds when she was finally pulled from this dungeon the first time and locked inside a bedroom. It wasn’t her own, and it wasn’t even near the normal sleeping dorms. She was being kept separated from the rest of the guild.
Sleep had eluded her.
Then she had been taken to Wren, who explained her new tasks, what was to be expected of her, and how things were going to operate for Emerie from now on.
Anytime she spoke out against it, Wren silenced her – or just outright ignored her outrage.
Apparently, she’d been put in Emerie’s exact same position once, but with a Demon they wanted to dissect while it was alive. That was many years ago, and her Head Elder at the time had seen potential in her, just like Wren did in Emerie.
Honestly, it was like the crazy bitch wanted someone to suffer the pain she had. Just because they wore the same facial scar, just because they were similar people, didn’t mean they were the same person. People in the same environment with the same life experiences often became very different.