“Watching his house.”
“Were you watching his house?”
“Well, I may’ve stopped and looked at it. But I weren’t watching it. I was coming back from having a game of chess with Rory. You can check; he’ll tell you—Rory Lemar, lives over his tobacco shop in Knightsbridge. You ask him, and he’ll tell you I was there.”
“You told me you never left your coffee shop that Sunday.”
Thistlewood sniffed. “What you think? That I’m gonna step forward and volunteer the information that Preston and me had words an hour or two before he got himself killed?”
“It does rather make it look as if you have something to hide.”
“Just ’cause I hid the fact I saw him that day don’t mean I killed him!”
“Some might interpret it that way.”
The curiosity collector pressed his lips together and thrust them out in a way that made him look somewhat like a disgruntled turtle.
Sebastian said, “It was Rowan Toop who showed you the lead-wrapped bodies of the woman and child you told me about; wasn’t it?”
Thistlewood’s eyes widened. “I read about what happened to him in the papers. What are you saying? That I maybe killed him too? I didn’t.”
“But you did know him.”
“I knew him. Never bought nothin’ from him, though. I told you before—I can’t afford to pay for the things I put on display.”
“And Toop wanted to be paid?”
“He did indeed.”
“Did Toop ever sell items to Stanley Preston?”
“I can’t say for certain, but I ’spect so.” The curiosity collector shot Sebastian another one of his sideways glances. “You think whoever lopped off Preston’s head also done for Toop?”
“I think it more than likely.”
“Well, all I know is, it weren’t me. Ask anyone, they’ll tell you: I’m not a violent man.”
“Despite your fascination with swords and headsmen’s axes and executioners’ blocks?”
“You don’t find ’em fascinating?”
“In a macabre sort of way, I suppose I do. But they also repel me.”
Thistlewood tore off another piece of bread and chucked it at the ducks. “I reckon we’re all afraid of death. We know we’re gonna die, but none of us wants to.” He gave a strange, watery chuckle. “Some folks, they’ve got this notion that if they think about death, they’re inviting it closer. So they don’t want to be reminded of it in any way. But then there’s others who think that by gettin’ close to death—by staring it in the face, so to speak—we make it less scary.”
“I take it you fall into the latter category?”
Thistlewood gave another of his odd chuckles. “Reckon I do. And you too.”
“Me?”
“Why else would you do what you do? Look for murderers, I mean.”
Sebastian started to deny it. If asked, he’d have said his dedication to finding a measure of justice for the victims of murder had far more to do with guilt and a need for redemption than with a fear of death. And yet . . .
He watched as the curiosity collector crumpled the last of his bread and scattered it in the water. The branches of the elms overhead cast shifting patterns of light and shade across the waves washing gently against the riverbank; the air smelled of damp earth and the wild mint that grew in the hollows between the gnarled roots. He listened to the splash of a wherryman’s oars farther out on the Thames, heard the squeals and laughter of children playing in a nearby pasture. And he was forced to acknowledge that, in a sense, Thistlewood was right. Except it wasn’t his own death Sebastian feared but the death of those he loved, lest they be forced to pay with their own lives for the lives of the women and children he’d failed to save.
“Have you ever killed anyone?” Thistlewood asked suddenly. “Surely you have—you being in the Army and all.”
“Why do you ask?”
“I attend the hangings at Newgate, sometimes. I watch the hangman pull that lever and I think, What must it feel like, to kill someone? To know that one minute they’re living and the next they’re not, and it’s you who’s done that.” He looked at Sebastian expectantly, his lips pulled back in a hopeful, almost eager half smile.
But Sebastian only shook his head, unwilling to satisfy the man’s ghoulish curiosity.
Until that moment, Sebastian would have said he doubted that Thistlewood had anything to do with the recent string of murders. Despite Thistlewood’s lies, despite the public arguments and intense professional and personal jealousy, Sebastian had largely discounted him as a suspect, instead becoming more and more convinced that the grisly killings were the work of someone hired by Sinclair Oliphant or Priss Mulligan, or perhaps even by Preston’s own daughter, Anne.
Now he wasn’t so sure.
Mica McDougal leaned against his donkey cart, his beefy arms crossed at his chest, first one cheek, then the other puffing out with air as he stared thoughtfully at Hero.