He was sitting at his desk when the phone buzzed. It was his secretary, Agatha. “He’s here,” she said. She hadn’t even finished that short sentence before the door opened and in strode The Man himself.
Howard was up and around his desk, hand extended. “Hey,” he said. Morris returned the handshake with a firm grip. He walked over to the bar Howard kept in the corner of his office and poured two scotches.
“I had a very interesting conversation this morning,” Morris said, handing one to Howard.
“Who with?” Howard said.
“Bridget.”
“Is that a fact,” Howard said, settling himself into a chair as Morris did the same. “What did you talk about?”
Morris grinned. “A lot of things. We talk all the time, you know.”
“I’m sure you do.”
“But today, it was kind of special. She told me it was time.”
Howard drank. “Did she?”
Morris nodded. “She told me to follow my dream. She said to go for it. She said I’d waited long enough. She told me she didn’t want me waiting any more because of her.”
“Well.”
“Because, honestly, she’s been the only reason I’ve still been waiting, Howard. This thing with Goldsmith, it’s over. When’s the last time you saw the Times do a story on it? The man’s secrets died with him.”
“Other people know. Other people in the agency.”
“They won’t talk, Howard. They’ve closed ranks. It’s over.”
“We can’t ever be certain of that.”
“So what are you saying? That we never move forward? That we never get back on the horse?”
“I’m not saying that, Morris. But we still need to proceed with caution. We can’t lose sight of our long-term objectives. Morris, you can make it all the way. You know that, don’t you? You can get there, right to Pennsylvania Avenue. I know it. I have faith. But it can’t happen if we take the short view. We have to make our decisions with the future in mind.”
Morris knocked back his drink, set the glass on the table between them, and looked down into his lap. He went very quiet.
“Morris? Are you okay?”
“Bridget said something else,” he said.
“Morris, do you really think—”
“She said she forgives me.” He raised his head and looked at Howard. “That’s what she said. She forgives me.”
“Well, that’s good, Morris, but I don’t see how that relates—”
“Do you know what that meant to me? Do you have any idea the guilt I’ve been feeling?”
“Of course I do. God knows, we’ve been over it. And I’ve told you, you don’t have anything to feel guilty about. You weren’t the only one who didn’t see the signs. None of us did. Some people, they keep their troubles to themselves, buried deep inside.”
“I still can’t get my head around it. I asked her, you know.”
Howard swallowed. “You asked Bridget.”
“I did. I asked her, when she appeared to me, I asked her why. Why didn’t she just talk to me? We could have worked it out. You know what she said to me?”
Howard closed his eyes. He didn’t know how much more of this he could take. “What did she say, Morris?”
“She said not to blame myself.”
“Well, that’s terrific. That really is.”
Morris gave his friend a sharp look. “Don’t be flip about this, Howard. I don’t appreciate it.”
“I’m sorry. Really, I am. But, Morris, we can’t move forward based on what Bridget tells you. I’m dealing with the real world. With the press, and federal investigators, a scandal that could still bite us in the ass.”
Morris seemed not to be listening. “It’s just, when you compare what Bridget is saying now, to what she told you on the phone—it’s very different. She told you I was sucking the life out of her. Wasn’t that what she told you?”
“You have to consider her state of mind at the time.”
“What if, at that moment, she was thinking as clearly as she ever had?”
“Jesus Christ, Morris!” Howard exploded. “Enough.”
Morris sat back in his chair as though he’d been shoved.
“You can’t keep doing this to yourself. You have to stop. You have to move on.”
“Haven’t you been listening, Howard? That’s exactly what I want to do, what Bridget wants. You’re the one holding me back.”
“And you should thank God I am,” he snapped back. “While you’re having chats with ghosts, I’m dealing with political realities.” He was on his feet, pointing a finger at Morris. “And you need to wait. You get back into this too soon, those goddamn pundits, you know what they’re going to say? That you got over her pretty fast, that’s what they’ll say. You’ll look insensitive.”
Morris looked away. “Two wives,” he said.
“What?”
“It would be hard enough for a man to have one wife kill herself. But two? What does that say about a man? What does that say about me? First Geraldine kills herself in the garage. And then Bridget.” He looked imploringly at Howard. “Just what kind of monster am I?”