Julie tried to go back to that horrible day on Tuesday, but she just couldn’t. All kinds of horrible scenarios of what Parker might have done to Ashley siphoned through her thoughts like water. It was easier to try and block it out as best she could . . . at least until she got hold of Parker and asked her the truth. Then again, did she actually want to know the truth? She was undoubtedly an accessory in her friend’s crime—if Parker had even done it. And if she hadn’t, well, Julie still was an accessory to someone.
She squeezed her eyes shut as she remembered Ashley’s slack limbs and blue lips; the way her head bobbed and fell forward as Julie dragged her heavy body through the woods; the mud that covered Julie’s feet after she weighed down the body and rolled Ashley into the river behind her house; the disgusting thunk of Ashley hitting the water. And then there was the deep abyss of thoughts that kept rearing their heads, scaring Julie even more: What about all the other awful things that had happened? Nolan, Granger, Parker’s father? Parker had hated all of them—could she have been the one behind all those murders? Julie had kept such poor tabs on her friend lately; whole days had gone by when she didn’t know where Parker was. She had meant to be a better friend, to keep watch on Parker, but her personal life had spun out of control, and she hadn’t been able to keep track of both of them.
But she hadn’t thought Parker was off doing . . . this. Julie shut her eyes, terrified to even think it.
“Julie?”
She looked up sharply, then gasped. Carson stood at the edge of the playground, his arms at his sides. He was staring at her not unkindly, though he looked worried.
She jumped off the swing and grabbed her jacket off the nearby bench. “I have to go,” she said abruptly, not meeting his eye.
“Wait!” He followed after her. “I want to talk to you.”
Just a few days ago, the sound of his voice had made her heart skip a beat. Now she felt . . . nothing. “I can’t see you anymore,” she said bluntly.
Carson looked like he’d been slapped. “I don’t understand,” he said. “What did I do?”
Julie lowered her eyes. At first she’d thought Carson had baited her into going back to school as a favor to Ashley. A crazy thought, but she just didn’t know who Ashley had under her thumb. But in one of the many messages Carson had left for Julie over the past few days, he’d somehow sensed she was worried about this and told her it absolutely wasn’t true.
She believed him now, but it didn’t matter. She couldn’t be with him anymore. Carson may have been willing to understand that her mother was a hoarder, but there was no way he’d understand that she was now an accessory to murder. If he found out what she’d witnessed, what she’d done, well. He’d want nothing to do with her.
And Julie couldn’t afford to be close to anyone except for Parker. She needed to protect her friend at all costs. She’d ruined Parker’s life once; she wasn’t doing it again. It was just easier this way.
She turned and faced him. “I just have a lot of stuff going on right now. I have to get my head straight. I’m sorry.”
“Is it the cats stuff? Animal control? How are you holding up?”
Julie wanted to laugh. She wished her life was that simple. “It’s not that,” she said. “It’s . . . complicated.”
“I’m here to listen, though,” Carson insisted, his voice gentle. “Who else do you have to talk to?”
“I’m fine.” Julie shoved her hands in her pockets and walked on. “I have Parker.”
Carson followed her. “Actually, Julie, we need to talk about Parker.”
Julie whipped around, the blood draining from her face. What did Carson know? What was he suggesting? “No, we don’t,” she whispered, and then she started to run.
She careened down the block, her jacket flapping in her hands. The streetlights had come on, and she could barely see, but she didn’t want to stop running until she got to her property. At one point, she peeked over her shoulder, relieved that Carson wasn’t following her. We need to talk about Parker. She should have known better than to ever get involved with Carson. Now he was trying to interfere with her and Parker. She wasn’t going to let anyone come between them.
Just as she reached her curb, her phone buzzed again. It was a text from Ava, who’d been trying to reach her a lot lately. Leslie pushed off balcony, the text said. In a coma.
Julie’s stomach swooped, and her knees felt wobbly. Another person off the list. This couldn’t be happening. Then her heart stopped.
Could this be Parker’s work, too?
She frantically dialed Parker for the millionth time. No answer. Spinning off her porch, she fled to her car and threw herself into the driver’s seat. She had to go to Ava’s now.