“There’s nothing down there but rats.” It strikes me then that it’s no coincidence Tomasetti is here. He didn’t drive by and see my headlights. The son of a bitch followed me.
The realization rattles me further as I slide behind the wheel. Tomasetti circles the pit as I move the Explorer into position. I need to get that grate over the pit before he decides to act on all that suspicion I see in his eyes.
I back the Explorer to the grate and slide out. My hands shake so badly now I can barely get the hook around the undercarriage.
“You nervous about something, Chief?”
“Just cold.”
“You’re in an awful big hurry to cover that hole.”
“I just want to get home.”
He pauses. “Kate, what the fuck are you really doing?”
I don’t look at him. I can’t. I’m too close to some precipitous edge. Once I go over the brink, I may not be able to drag myself out. “Look, this is the second complaint I’ve taken about dumping here,” I snap. “I didn’t feel like going home, so I’m following up.”
“Is that why you’re shaking?”
I finish with the hook and straighten, meeting his gaze. “In case you haven’t noticed, it’s cold.”
“You’re fucking sweating. Covered with dirt. Look at you. Now what the fuck is going on?”
“I don’t know what you think you know, but I don’t appreciate you following me around, spying on me. Whatever it is you’re doing, I want it to stop. You got it?”
“You’re lying to me and I want to know why.”
I laugh. “You need to talk to someone about all that paranoia, Tomasetti.”
“You didn’t go into that pit because you were following up on a complaint.”
“Like you know.”
Abruptly, he strides toward me, shines the light in my eyes. “You want to know what I know, Chief? I know that someone in this town believes you know who the killer is. I think you’re hiding something.” He thrusts a finger at the pit. “And I know you didn’t go into that goddamn hole because of some anonymous tip.” He circles the boot pit, shining his light into the darkness. “If I go down there, what am I going to find?”
“What do you want from me? Did Detrick tell you to follow me? Or was it the town council? Are you their new lapdog?”
One side of his mouth lifts. I can’t tell if he’s smiling or snarling. “You know better than that.”
“Do I?” I start toward the Explorer. I’m close to pulling this off. All I have to do is slide the grate back into place and leave. I don’t think he’ll go to the trouble of moving it again.
I climb behind the wheel and twist the key. The engine turns over. I reach for the shifter. The next thing I know the door flies open. I gasp when Tomasetti reaches in, turns off the ignition and takes my keys.
“What the hell do you think you’re doing?” Jumping out, I make a wild grab for the keys.
He drops them into his pocket. “Let’s just say I’m following up on a hunch.”
“This is ridiculous. Give me my keys. Now.”
Removing the cable from the grate, he tosses one end into the pit.
Panic ignites in my chest. I can’t let him find those bones. “You’re overstepping.”
“Not the first time I’ve been accused of that.”
“I swear to God I’ll have your job for this.”
Taking hold of the cable, he braces his legs against the side and drops into the hole like a rock climber.
“Tomasetti, damn it, stop playing games. I want to leave.”
No answer.
“Damn it! There’s nothing there!” I look around wildly. For a crazy instant I actually consider pulling out the cable and stranding him. Of course, I can’t do that. I’m going to have to deal with this. With what I’ve done. The secrets I’ve covered up all these years.
My entire life flashes before my eyes. My career will be ruined. My parents’ memory, their reputations, will be dragged through the mud right along with the rest of the Amish community. My brother and sister and nephews will suffer. I could find myself facing a grand jury. Worse case scenario, I could be tried and sent to prison for murder . . .
I rush to the pit and look down to see Tomasetti shove a piece of plywood out of the way with his foot. I can see the skull from where I stand. Dizziness descends. I feel sick and terrified. I can’t believe this is happening.
“What the fuck?”
Turning away, I press my hand to my stomach. I can’t cover this up. It’s over. The secrets end here. Nausea seesaws in my gut. I make it ten feet before I throw up. The thud of my knees hitting the ground surprises me. I’ve been knocked unconscious before, but I’ve never fainted. The swirl of confusion tells me I’m close now. Somehow I lose time, seconds or maybe even minutes, because the next thing I know Tomasetti is kneeling beside me.
I jolt when his hand touches my shoulder. I’m embarrassed and humiliated, but I’m not sure I’m finished puking so I don’t move. I don’t acknowledge him. I look down at my gloves in the dirt and I feel like crying.
“You okay?” he asks after a moment.
“What do you think?”
“I think you’ve got some explaining to do.”