“Despite what you may think I am not a wife-beating victim. I am not planning on buying a gun to go home and kill my husband. I’m a single woman living alone and I was attacked last night. I know how to use a gun, and I’ve decided I need one, and this is the kind I want.”
“Just a minute,” the clerk said. He hurried to the back of the store and began a whispered consultation with two men standing there. I went to the case and started inspecting guns and ammunition. The store was new, clean, and beautifully laid out. Their ad in the Yellow Pages proclaimed Riley’s as Smith & Wesson specialists, but they had enough variety to please any kind of taste in shooting. One wall was devoted to rifles.
My clerk came over with one of the others, a pleasant-faced, middle-aged man. “Ron Jaffrey,” he said. “I’m the manager. What can we do for you?”
“I called up a couple of hours ago asking about a Smith & Wesson thirty-eight. I’d like to get one,” I repeated.
“Have you ever used one before?” the manager asked.
“No, I’m more used to the Colt forty-five,” I answered. “But the S&W is lighter and better suited to my needs.”
The manager walked to one of the cases and unlocked it. My clerk went to the door to stop another last-minute customer from entering. I took the gun from the manager, balanced it in my hand, and tried the classic police firing stance: body turned to create as narrow a target as possible. The gun felt good. “I’d like to try it before I buy it,” I told the manager. “Do you have a target range?”
Jaffrey took a box of ammunition from the case. “I have to say you look as though you know how to handle it. We have a range in the back—if you decide against the gun, we ask you to pay for the ammo. If you take the gun, we throw in a box free.”
“Fine,” I said. I followed him through a door in the back, which led to a small range,
“We give lessons back here on Sunday afternoons, and let people come in to practice on their own during the week. Need any help loading?”
“I may,” I told him. “Time was when I could load and fire in thirty seconds, but it’s been a while.” My hands were starting to shake a bit from fatigue and pain and it took me several minutes to insert eight rounds of cartridges. The manager showed me the safety and the action. I nodded, turned to the target, lifted the gun, and fired. The action came as naturally as if ten days, not ten years, had passed, but my aim was way off. I emptied the gun but didn’t get a bull’s-eye, and only two in the inner ring. The gun was good, though, steady action and no noticeable distortion. “Let me try another lot.”
I emptied the chambers and Jaffrey handed me some more cartridges. He gave me a couple of pointers. “You obviously know what you’re doing, but you’re out of practice and you’ve picked up some bad habits. Your stance is good, but you’re hunching your shoulder—keep it down and only raise the arm.”
I loaded and fired again, trying to keep my shoulder down. It was good advice—all but two shots got into the red and one grazed the bull’s-eye. “Okay,” I said. “I’ll take it. Give me a couple of boxes of ammo, and a complete cleaning kit.” I thought a minute. “And a shoulder holster.”
We went back into the store. “Larry!” Jaffrey called. My clerk came over. “Clean and wrap this gun for the lady while I write up the bill.” Larry took the gun, and I went with Jaffrey to the cash register. A mirror was mounted behind it, and I saw myself in it without recognition for a few seconds. The left side of my face was now completely purple and badly swollen while my right eye stared with the dark anguish of a Paul Klee drawing. I almost turned to see who this battered woman was before realizing I was looking at myself. No wonder Larry hadn’t wanted to let me in the store.
Jaffrey showed me the bill. “Four hundred twenty-two dollars,” he said. “Three-ten for the gun, ten for the second box of cartridges, fifty-four for the holster and belt, and twenty-eight for the cleaning kit. The rest is tax.” I wrote a check out, slowly and laboriously. “I need a driver’s license and two major credit cards or an interbank card,” he said, “and I have to ask you to sign the register.” He looked at my driver’s license. “Monday you should go down to City Hall and register the gun. I send a list of all major purchases to the local police department, and they’ll probably forward your name to the Chicago police.”